Last year already?

Not yet..but, I review everything. It is soon to be winter..darkness and cold nights...
Here  in Michigan that is...and, and Saturn has gone and moved along in space, to make a nice little groove  and shook things up a little. I always "feel" these things and so here I am saying things about Saturn and how I am affected by these events. Adrenals. That is humans action chemicals just doing their thing..Saturn is huge in our neighborhood..of course when he moves we feel it! I believe we each, here on earth, are a part of every other thing in our surrounding space and time..

I haven't been able to sleep. Everyone's life posts are getting to me.
I know I was young once like that, but was I so sex driven that I would do  such bad things to my lovers?
Yes, I had a couple of them and I am no saint and as my favorite and worst husband used to say, not a lady! Hence the old whore..dude, you don't like me, fuk off! That is me, now..See, we can change!
I am a Libran and we can be downright crude. Always lady like but crude nonetheless. My Northern Greek, upbringing is not always gentle.

Me me me

Really it should be you!

Like having to back track a little to review where you put things? Your phone, your keys..stay fit, yo, you need to focus.
Also, do not be mean.
It is hard..yes..but do not be dramatic and say bad things to scare people and make them feel about about you. If you are gonna kill yourself, which I  guess, some do, think about it,  for a brief moment.. "like wtf? I hate this", kinds of things..but you never talk about it..that is the cowardly part..too much talking and not enough doing to make things good..the things you actually find precious. Now, compare that to what you are seeking at this moment. What do you work hard at?
A brief moment in time, a yea or two or five or ten, in human terms, they are nothing to what you actually  are. You are, why, you are just so much that it is really indescribable..your cells remembering everything you have been and before that what you were.expanding, contracting..Saturn pulls in and together the focus one needs to be a great human..
Saturn teaches us things in mythology and he is stern because he is always learning and breaking it down. making mistakes along the way and breaking it down some more.
sigh..
Saturn is teaching us now to reviere moments in time and it is about learning to be alone, learning to be happy and living to what you believe..not hiding behind a mask of some dumb kind where your hair has to be right and your nose has to be powdered..I do like a powdered nose!

Everything is fine..we are here together and that makes you already mine..:))

my poem about Morgan and "walking dead" zombie thoughts

Morgan oh, Morgan
how silly men(you)are
to think that all the killing you have done
can now make up
redeem
mend shattered lives
tend to life
Can you now,
act like a master
when you are really just out of that door
where you had killed and did it coldly as a hobby for your satisfaction..
you did it...
it happened..

Morgan oh ,Morgan
please get it together and say sorry to Rick
you almost got him killed and now look at this!
There are hundreds of them coming, Morgan!
You could have really been there, at least you held one and locked the door.
It is a chincy room where someone could easily get out..it is a start, maybe!
Like when Michonne put her sword back on..yea!
once again
you replaced one thing, Morgan..
with another to mask your broken heart
and pretending to love all things

oatmeal burgers suck..
wtf?

Things are well under way

The holidays are up on us in no time.
I am getting ready as well. Both at my job and here in my little shop of witchy creations.
There is time to contract a little and time to expand.
I am in the next three years or so, going to age and age to perfection in soap making and essential oil art.
It is inevitable.
Why do I say it? Because when you put in the time, you get better.
It is the law of humans. The law of practicing and doing and thinking things through.

I have introduced many specials last month on my etsy site,.eleneetha aromatics.
Now it is time..to contract a little and get a nice holiday special that does not cost an arm and a leg. It will happen and I will make it good.

How about, the new soap dishes coming? I am having little pinch pots made for soap..they will drain easily and be super cute and edgy as I have a new artist friend on board..Shanta! (shanta amady ) I am excited..they are almost ready.


A candle too. There should be a candle. I want it in glass though..and that leads to shipping issues and breakage..(I haven't had too many breaks but I have a couple of times in 6 years, shipped to the wrong person..ha ha, lol

Yea..too many zombies in my brain!
Let's sing!

Yesterday was good..
Better day today..so beautiful and rare
you said some words and said them with flair
you reached on high and thought it best
to always love others and laugh as you jest
digging deeply from your knowledge
you've paved the way for more
I guess that is why they say, you are, an old whore!

xoxooo

Glen is not dead, Rick is cut bad "Walking Dead" Ideas on thank you and others notes

Thank you was such a good episode that it took me this long to even say anything about it. They are in a bind big time, The zombie herd is near, many have died again and Rick's hand is cut pretty badly.
No, glen is not dead.
Think about it..would Glen die in such a stupid way? No! Nicolas would!
There are many things that will and can happen.. I mean once he's pilled under a bunch of dead ones, his scent is masked. He will crawl under the trash bin and be saved by Jesus..the new guy we are supposed to be introduce to. maybe he is behind one of those locked doors.
It looks like Jessie is going to be the only one left for this season because her kids are not in the future episodes. We will see. I do not really like the way she had to correct Rick about her kid. Sorry but he did wrong and was dangerous and  stupid.
Jessie, Rick..it sounds nice for him but he has bigger things to work through and it is not his popularity with people like Morgan and his guru who is dead and hasn't been all stellar himself..
I mean really..how many people have you killed and why?
oh, he just starved some bad guy for 47 days and  killed him sadistically..and yet he seems to be a new star about to give Rick some life lessons?
I do not think so, and if the goat knew better, she would have run away a long time ago.
Yea, let us talk about Aikido and the way of peace while we are in a safe and serine place away from the governor and away from Terminus..it all sounds so nice and helped crazy boy (Morgan) get out of his killer ways..but now he is just plain stuck..reality and peace is not a concept, reality it is brutal, deadly and kills kills kills..
Thank goodness we have Rick, he does not dick around. He is done with all this"oh, all life is precious"..sure it is, if you are in a lovely war free zone, all life is precious then..when bad guys come to get your boy and rape him a stick is not enough, you have to become some thing else like Rick did when he ripped that guy's throat who was going to kill him and allow the others to hurt his boy!
Rick has been there and has see and done crazy things. Is he less moral than Morgan's guru guy?
No!
Truth be told, I say more noble and more clear headed about what needs done right now!
Now..it is not for philosophy. It is for action..In the end, the guru got bit in a most stupid way, like Tyrese..
Glen is smarter than that to say the least!
He will make it..if not, we will just adjust to our sorrow!

I am mixing my reviews because I feel like they all go together. If you watch the walking dead, you will understand any how..it is not a recap..it is an opinion...so there and snap, erik kain!
LOL

I know Rick's hand will be okay because he cut it on the machete and it is pretty injured but it will not get cut off, there is a new doctor in the house.
We will see Glen in two episodes, and Rick, we will see him next week. I only wish they would have given him a 90 minute episode..I love him! Morgan, I mean, redemption and new belief system does not a master make..you are so too a killer, Morgan and you must face it but good.

and what a good wonderful fall time it is and I hope you are good...

I have been feeling that I should say, "hello" and come out of my cave to say it.
I realize that I hide every few years so and get immersed in a thing and went too far gone on every one. :) too far gone in oils not drugs or something like that.
 I have gone too far and totally ruined a soap batch. It happened, I forgot something important and all I can do now it liquify and add some dark whiskey and see if it gels and goes all amber gold on me. I wish it to be that way.
I can only try or not..you know, some things are bad and a waste of money and life, and you can try to save them and keep them or toss the whole funky mess and say, "good bye".
I wonder about things, aromatic things and how we relate to life.. and I  wish to chat them up with you..I feel I am just beginning  on my wonderful journey of recipes with myrrh oil..it is just so very good!

Yesterday..I am working and it is late and I was tired with my belly hurting a little because I ate a bunch of apple cider donuts..ha h ha ha ha and all I wanted was my walking dead fix and a nice tea..but there was time before that!

la la la la
me and Rick in the woods, him alert and me alert..no words needed..surviving and being free at the same time...you near by knowing what is up and understanding life now.......we have tree houses and bridges..and I still make soap.

my dream mode was squashed by my next reality check..my job..at work,,,
lady,
"do you have meeere gum powder?"
me, "no we don't sell  myrrh that way , I do have essential oil of myrrh which is quite nice.."

**I have to say, it is hard to find good oils off of the shelf, but Aura Casia does have a nice myrrh and frankincense..the sweet orange, not so much..that is why you smell a few distillers and see the differences, yea?


lady, "no, not myrrh, meeere gum powder, is that oil made form that?
oye!

Google even has pictures but people don't care to read about beautiful oils ,,I mean, what do they do on their phones all day?
lol
I did explain the whole myrrh thing and how it is called a gum and a resin..she could not connect them..she got pissed and said I corrected her..I laughed and she came back to haunt me some more, this time a whole lot nicer to me..
Also, now that I am on that theme,  there are not three categories of essential oils! There are fine oils depending on the season's results and finer when some growers and distillers get lucky..Why all this nonsense.."do you have the kind you eat?"
Seriously? I heard a co-worker say, "no we do not have that kind."
OMG..stop, we have organic and we have conventional..here are the one you can eat now?
I guess so, because if it was a lemon peel which as distilled, then if follows that it was a food..was a food, essential oil now, you can eat a drop if you need to. People take frankincense orally for pain and anxiety.
And it is isn't that I resent you eating it, it is that you don't even know why. Some Young Living or Doterra person brainwashed you in to thinking that you are exclusive now!
I guess that would be the thing, I have no patience for. Me? Bossy?
LOL
I have eaten plenty of oils through the years,  I reckon. I drank  hydrosols when I was studying them..I got wasted on one of them, I forget which. I think it was orange floral water. I get a few drops of frankincense on my hand when I work with it. Yesterday, it was patchouli.

That was one thing about my ex husband and I then..we raked in money and I spent, freely,  as much as I wanted and was not myself free. I gave myself reasons like an apologist, of why I was giving my independence away to become and feel  like I wasn't good looking. Giving away that power, (your inner good looking power), that makes your mate, if he has any sort of superior feelings already, well..humans take advantage and they are cruel to each other as they cross over to the "I am a god and too good looking" phase some go through!
 Some more than others..but an abuser knows what makes you work to his or her benefit..
When you are looking as if you are not good looking, people see you that way.
It adds up, the constant sadness and shallow stupidity our kind seem to get stuck in.
Course, as we  go in our cycles, we change we grow and live without the one we though we would never live with out. And we change our minds about ideas  which we thought would never even cross our minds..
I hope so.

Now where was I?
Rick!

happiness2016 when everything is fun again and who is Rick now?

It had better be fun because there is no point in continuing whatever we are to waste away in a dead life..I mean already dead life..
It is like you do everything they tell you to do that  is right and good and still you end up having to face the fact that you will die and have really not done anything but prean around in heels  and be nothing but a memory..hopefully not too many bad ones ha ha ha
What, too harsh?
I am harsh sometimes..words my friends, have power...they shake us up and make us think things.

Let us have fun again, I say. I feel like learning is fun and changing my mind to be happier is way better process a spiritual path I have no control over. I have control of my mind and that is my will and that is the power like with in man!
Like chi and like the jedi force..
I have been doing a little bit understanding about our world, who and what we are and what we are made of..
bacteria, lots of it, proteins that can move and cells that gather together to make each working thing in our bodies. (All the stuff that zombies like to eat::::)
Each age that unfolds before us understanding more and more which takes away the mysteries for more and more and makes thing not as scary..
I think about this question that was presented to a world leader in history and philosophy..
"which age would you want to live in most?'
Do you know what he said?
"This one!"
We have done away with stonings, and burnings of women, well mostly, we have done away with thinking storms and eclipses and tornadoes were punishment from god, and we have done away with gods which do not serve humanity, like, isis, like shiva and like zues..jesus, .yes i can talk about him, he was and still is so alive in people's mind as a redeemer of how bad we are..salvation and all that scary stuff...religions, they hate other so much who don't love him (their god) as much as they do..it is freaky and stupid, yo.
Michio Kaku  says that until humans get past the need to fight for religion, they cannot evolve into interstellar human beings..
but we will and there will still be some back woods mystical man telling us about the path to follow..
Yet, it continues, we continually repave our roads so our paths change as they need to..of course they do.
Yea..


So, everything is good and really wonderful in Michigan this time of year. The colors are spectacular here and now it is time to plan to cover up my fig..I hope it works because I wants to eat them in happiness 2016
I am totally freaked about the last episode of Walking Dead..Rick and his panicked state ( after cutting himself, having to fight the really bad guys that Morgan let go and then the RV, stalled because he broke having to shoot and kill the really bad killers) at the last scene, it  left me with, well, a little panic too..I can't talk about, "thank you", not yet. Do you love The Walking Dead? I do! I love the art, the acting, and the story! Love!


I will talk about oud and how much rose it needs to be happy in a blend..oud..kind of funky and umami..I am still working on the dragon's blood perfumed balm with oud, which is bloody red and almost black when you look at it in certain ways. No one has bought one yet..they will, and then it will be all gone..I might be holding back a little too. I just keep thinking it needs more citrus.. I know that by now, it is 40% myrrh based and beautiful, balsamic, amber notes and deep deep myrrh. I am super proud of this one and continue to be amazed at how essential oils can help us achieve a happier state by a simple scent molecules reaching deep spaces in our brains.

Have a good one and maybe I will talk about Rick tomorrow..

new sprayers

They are green and witchy!

I bought a few and they will be part of my holiday thing..as well as all other spraying type goodies I might make.

I have been exploring all sorts of ideas with regard to my holiday offerings..and obviously presentation is important. I will not however cross the line and add some junk of an ingredient just to save money. Do not get me wrong, I do like a sweet looking thing on my counter but aromatherapy is for using, not for looking at.

I will use cheap bottles before I hold back on the oils..mmm, myrrh, I love it!.

These bottles are two ounces and they were not cheap or horribly expensive..50 bucks for twelve..I know..it is a little pricy but I love them and The Old Whore should be in a nice sprayer for 2016.

The nice thing about working at a natural grocery store, I get to see what kind of "natural" products come in the store and how they are presented.
I do like a simple label over a bunch of flashy bullshit..also, it leads back to how much are you willing to spend on oils over all the other stuff?
I would rather you toss the skin care I make after a certain time..the balms and sprays, you can keep for a while, they last..they are perfume,

Oh my goodness, I can't wait to see what I come up with!
I have so many ideas that obviously it is maybe, too much?
No no no..
 It should always feel like it is good enough and not enough...:)

November Ideas

:)

November to me is about making changes for practical reasons and really getting ready for the cold times.

I say take care of your skin even though you are working hard. Take care of your liver and your kidneys by drinking water and be sure to really fine something new to learn. It is a Sag thing. I feel like this is the time to explore some higher ideas..be calm and make good things just right.

I love this new cleanser.

I hope you get to try one.

My themes in oils will be myrrh based for a minute or two because I feel like it is a wonderful oil when skin get thinner..there is myrrh in this cleanser even though it is not listed in the ingredients.

I wanted to wait and see if I like the way it cleans before I put a bunch of expensive oil in it.

It does and really nicely.

clean cleanser special deal

Good Saturday my smelly sweet friends!

The darkness of winter is near us
we stand and now, can see it arrives
it gets closer and closer

the rain
the cold cold mornings
the long dark days and even darker nights


The warmth of the oven cooking
the tea pot always brewing
warm chocolate caramel vanilla notes in the morning as the coffee brews
crispy sour dough toast with churned butter

a nice hand washing with the old whore..golly but she lingers in oh so good of a way...writing to you and sharing my ideas..I love it, and I know you somehow..I know your heart is pure and you are smart, funny, smart cute, smart working, smart at home...







This to me is real life and the best life
no strife in the family
every one's best things unfolding
my best things that are yet to unfold as I explore myself with dragon's blood and oud, I am afraid!

Yes, aloeswood
the strongest and most intriguing substance to me right now...aloeswood resin!
Why, why do I get so tangled with that one thing for weeks until it is out of my system and then, I am good. It must be my scorpionic abilities to hone in and really study something until I am done with it.
I cannot say enough about oud, Because there are not enough beautiful words easily available in my brain to describes its interesting and unique odor.
Kind of like animal and flowers, tangy musky? I cannot..
I have to just continue to build on it its strange beauty.
It was to bring oud to the dragon's blood infusion, I had been working on. It is almost black now with both the addition of each dark oil and a little activated charcoal..not too much but just enough to make it very dark and almost purple black..

black hearted dragon

dragon's blood ground up fine and melted with coconut oil and olive oil
a little bit beeswax
myrrh
vetiver
oud
juniper
cypress
spruce
pine needle
frankincense
labdanum
rose
patchouli
one drop coriander
fir needle
nutmeg co2
one drop clove
more myrrh
more vetiver
more frankincense

I wanted a more jelly like serum rather than a completely solid perfume and yet, this is what it has turned in to..something very deep, very complex with earthy animal notes and a lovely dry finish with myrrh and vetiver almost making your mouth water..

Myrrh is about strength and calmitude..myrrh has medicinal qualities in that it is anti bacterial and soothing at the same time..

spoilers walking dead JSS my review so far

If you have not seen JSS please stop, otherwise here is what I think...

Carol is of course the star of this one. She is ready and came through with cold instinct and realizations beyond what in opinion is Morgan's self serving philosophy. She was ready to do what needed done and her first knife kill was awesome! "I had it" Morgan said..yea, well it is not a contest, I say..
He is so wrapped up with the rules of goodness that he forgets to protect himself. in a gun fight , one staff would not do shit! And he let those wolf  guys go with a word, like a kung fu master..wow! Where are they, these masters, today, puta? Stop pretending you are holier than thou with your self righteous beliefs..is what I am thinking...
I would defiantely train with a staff, it was my personal favorite weapon when I did train.. I am am thinking he had better get his shit together or move on, go hide..hide, Morgan..but only  after you kick some real ass!
That is the really hurting reality, right there..Rick has had to over and over, see it and know what it takes..Oh Rick! Hurry home, there is some big thing going on!
Carol, crying in the car, Carol crying on the porch..I loved it!
Morgan, saying, "I am sorry". Did he kill that horse face guy? I do think that he did..seems like they should have kept one. Carol had no time to find out or how many more there may have been to kill. I understand that she was beyond caring about "all life is precious"
I like it when at the end they both had some raw truth about what it takes to survive by each have to submit their darkest thing they  never wanted to submit.. Carol, when she has to do the really dirty work, having trained to always be alert or get beat, Carol always planning a food meal  as to always try to not get beat up..alert now, now to anyone who tries to harm the group. Her family!
Carol having to kill Lizzy (The Grove..one of the best episodes)) who almost killed Judith because she was that psycho!
Carol, maybe having overreacted a little when she killed those two really almost dead sick People..oye, that one upsets me..and her, having to lie to parts of her team is so raw to me. She was smart to take weapons. I would have been transparent to my team.  That upset me, like what is she up to? And then, I knew and Morgan saw, that is is always ready to move and be defensive! She is a better Ninja that even him, yea?
I was so scared when I saw the guy with the machete chopping on the head of that woman who was smoking..I guess Carol could have been nicer to her, since there are always worse ways one can die..and all she wanted was a nice pasta dish, too! She smoked the menthols!

Listen, Michone is best with a sword it is true, but even she, has a gun on her..get it together, Morgan..you want to live here and be safe, you get a gun.  You train and you become a survivor..you must train! Being stealthy is one thing..is is most of the thing..violence with killers must be met with intelligent fortitude..right?

(In real life I do not have a gun..in an apocalypse, I would go get one..good thing this is just a story!)


Oh, the Enid thing, she is a plant..she has been there a couple months now and she snuck into the woods regularly and we got to see how on her own being that young how she had to cling to life. Eating raw turtle..
It will be really exciting! I am wondering  how they will survive the herd a coming? How did the zombie drive so well in the truck that had the horn?

Just Survive Somehow

Hello Tuesday Planning...

and world, hello world, mine, small that it may be..because I do not relate to any of the threads in the world news and such.
take that story on Yahoo about the shroud that has the imprint of Jesus..but it is not him..9.999999999999999999 not him..(what a silly argument)
and still you get the ire and hatred of people of faith who want to hate on anyone who says different..dude, chill  out and look at your own life before you call people names, is what I say..
also...if my ideas make me an atheist..by the way I don't know that I am that...I know I am not going to believe in talking snakes or a punishing force in the universe based on how many goats I own and how many I slaughter for him..or as they do in Spain, throw a goat out a tall building on to a sheet held by three or four believers..yea, they still do that..

So..if my ideas are so bad, let us review them   My ways as a so called atheist...
I am hard working fucking awesome at my age dancing bear of a momma and lover of art and my momma...
I am forgiving and caring and always bewaring the strangers and jackal  and cowardly types
who ponder and sneak upon my pearly gates and yell at my door...humnn, keep moving, I work alone..
I am a creator through what my arms and hands provide, I walk away from anger and sigh..
I would never hurt you ever!  I would want the best things for you too then we could trade like before and live easy lives raising ducks on a mountain and fucking when we want to..not each other, necessarily..
if god watches that, he must love it when we do it..I feel like he is is with us then...

Little known secrets about dragons blood

Nothing is a secret!

Especially because it is always there and you just found out about it! Some haven't found out much, That is why they are so violent, I suppose. I have a thick face to them. My heart is black for them. You know  them, so I will not even mention it again. We do not have to be a part of that! Looking for the gods to save us from our sins..stop..it is a thick face you must take. It is a black heart you must create..fall now and again and review your mistakes...

Fear and fear of death?

It is cool, we all do it..that is why I no longer believe in meta physical sources for me happiness. I am in control of my mind and know I make things happen based on real evidence and material my brain sorts through..I will not lie to my own mind and not fear what I am...what am I?

I am very poetic and love making words bloom in to wonderful pictures of my ideas..small they may appear and huge in space and time there are!

I love dragon's blood! I love to grind it up and make goodies with it. goodies like a resinous balsam, bitter sweet feeling that dragon's blood resin gives to anything.

Myrrh, anyone?

Yes!

I know you love it, I love it and I feel like it should be sacred in your heart because it is powerful stuff my friend.

Together, we have something wonderful and my focus in this next balm too!

here we have dragon's blood which has been slowly melting in coconut oil and olive oil. A nice mellow fruity one!

Dragon's Blood

Bees wax

organic raw coconut oil

extra virgin small farm olive oil

steep in hot water bath for three days

add

myrrh somalia

myrrh co2

oud

rose

frankincense India co2

juniper

vetiver organic Haiti

allow to cool for a day or so and then dig in..

Myrrh is wonderful with dragon's blood..so good!

myrrh and dragon's blood balm

I really want you to have one or three of these!

Sunday Special

What should it be?
Is it a cream with the scents of honey bee?
Is it a witch brewing up a treat,
for your hair, your face and even your feet?

My pretties my pretties
just take a look and see
let the scents of flowers and animal musk reach your secret places
reach how far you'll not be afraid...

I say pretty funking far!


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