the lady and the snake

 "Take me in, oh tender woman 

Take me in for heaven's sake

a me in, woman," sighed the snake.

"Now I saved you," cried the woman

 "Take me in, oh tender woman A young girl was trudging along a mountain path, trying to reach her grandmother's house. 

It was bitter cold, and the wind cut like a knife.
When she was within sight of her destination, she heard a rustle at her feet.

Looking down, she saw a snake.
Before she could move, the snake spoke to her.
He said, "I am about to die.
It is too cold for me up here, and I am freezing.
There is no food in these mountains, and I am starving.
Please put me under your coat and take me with you."

"No," replied the girl. "I know your kind. You are a rattlesnake.
If I pick you up, you will bite me, and your bite is poisonous."

"No, no," said the snake. "If you help me, you will be my best friend.
I will treat you differently."

The little girl sat down on a rock for a moment to rest and think things over.
She looked at the beautiful markings on the snake and had to admit that it was the most beautiful snake she had ever seen.

Suddenly, she said, "I believe you. I will save you.
All living things deserve to be treated with kindness."

The little girl reached over, put the snake gently under her coat and proceeded toward her grandmother's house.

Within a moment, she felt a sharp pain in her side.
The snake had bitten her.

"How could you do this to me?" she cried.
"You promised that you would not bite me, and I trusted you!"

"You knew what I was when you picked me up," hissed the snake as he slithered away.

And you've bit me, even why?

And you know your bite is poisonous and now I'm going to die"

"Ah shut up, silly woman," said that reptile with a grin 

“Now you knew darn well I was a snake before you brought me in "

Mercury retrograde and winter cycles

"mom, mercury retrograde is not real!"

"yes, it is!" "It is in a slower position three times a year and it is always money, right?"

I feel it, you feel it and now this big alignment with all of our inner planets..going as far as Jupiter..
Is there a totally amazing change happening in humanity? Every day, there is a change my friends,
There are many forces leading us in the right random direction.
 I know this, it is time to change.

"oh, ma!"

Now back to my interpretation about where this gathering of planets occurs. Has been accuring, I should say. I mean what ever astrology does, it is about what you are already doing and making in your life.
http://www.nytimes.com/2016/01/20/science/space/five-planets-align-mars-jupiter-mercury-saturn-venus.html?_r=0

Capricorn (governments, bones, aging) and Sagittarius (wide world, learning, knowledge)!
Obviously, I get that old structures and habits will change. On a deeper level, key people in our society have passed and it touches us, the sadness of loosing someone.
The money thing? Look, it is money, you need to work to get it sometimes.
 Other times it grows like a tree in a lush jungle...I like the lush part so that I can live well, make beautiful soap, eat good clean food with my family and have amazing oils for me and  my beloved friends..who have held me when I was so sad and then we  laugh our asses off  the rest of the time.

It is kind of big for all of us so I  say chanel what you think needs to be fixed so you can get on with being happy..
This aspect is kind of like the tower card too. Yes, old structures must break down, they do not work and so it goes.
The churches, temples and mosques will once again be held accountable and also be in  exposed positions. They should all be held accountable..
It is fair.
(and that whole bull crap with Cruz and Trump (who knows he is insincere) in Iowa at some church thing where they both competed on which one of them is closer to god...eewwewww..fake ass fuks, if I have to listen to Cruz for even five minutes with that whiny voice, I will not listen)))
And how does a religious group get to say who can be president? ..I am just saying, isn't that something a kin to tyranny? No? As long as it is the right religion?
Ah..yes it is, it is tyranny..
How about use your head and make sure you think about the words they use to brainwash you in to getting your support when you should look with in so that  you can live a nice life and do not kill anyone based on your gods?? It has not been that long ago that christians would burn women, men, children, torture them because they did not love the lord enough..I say, enough with the ignorance and tolerance of evil ways.
1800 years later we still have extremists killing each other over these out lived and disgusting ways to please a divine being.
Because really,  we know more about where we are and let me just say, it is a whole lot of swirling magnets!
It is amazing!  So, when our little hot ass neighbor Mercury is slowing down the momentum, our Earth feels it..
"hey, what is up there, Mercury man?"
"don't worry about me, guys, I have to pay some bills and fix a few things, go, I'll  catch up."
ha ha ha
Oh, Mercury! Always going so fast he forgets to do it right, he skims on details  and then has to go back and fix it..

Businesses will fail and big business must change.."hello, Walmart?"
Seems like when a a store grows too fast with too many items  and with out good leadership, you have a breakdown to the simple things once again. That may be a whole other rant about how to run a team that works hard to make the money...

Jupiter (health and welfare)so close to the others has me intrigued and what is this about that planet x that may be or has been hidden and now there is more evidence that , "oh, maybe it is real and pulling on Neptune harder than Pluto could"??
Health of  Bones  Teeth  for sure with Capricorn and having dental issues?
Sagittarius energies are about dealing with foreign lands. Mass migrations because of tyranny and starvation...
This means every one's old structures must change. They will. Learning a language changes you, driving a car does, math does..every word and thought..changes you...

Even my mother has her own cell phone now. She is so cute about it!

"I am calling you on my own phone"
"I know mom, good.."

ambergris a whorish way to start the day

I got a sample of ambergris from Anya. (Anya's Garden) A sample! She gave me basically a lot! I almost freaked out as I had never really purchased so much on my own and regard this ingredient with the most reverence.
You know whales eat cuttle fish and krill, their bodies do not digest the shell which is made up of various minerals and life giving forces...like calcium, magnesium, vanadium,,lol
Then, when she has too much eaten, she collects the undigested shells in her stomach and takes them back out. By now the krill shells have gathered together in her body  in a sack like material made of enzymes and proteins..
then  she spits it out on to the ocean to ferment for like hopefully, 200 years, but that was the olden days. As this krill shell material ages in the sun, it converts all that stuff in to sugars and caramels and dirty sex with your delicious man or woman..and deep dives in to darkness knowing you are grand enough to take care of yourself. A krill does and so does a whale..it is deep, ok!
Look, it is animal and it is rare and it makes things smell so appealing, especially vanilla, patchouli, anything..I love it so much, but not too much., I may love too much, and now I know,that is okay with me. You see, I am keen and I am willing to learn. I want to be surprised each day by the simple things like a nice clean shirt that looks amazing or a beautiful cup of tea, or a hunking lover coming out of the shower smelling like this!

Our latest batch of old whore has ambergris in it. I am in a daze  a little bit right now because The old Whore of January 18, 2016, is here.

I slow melted the ambergris grains with organic jojoba and other resinous compounds to make an infusion I could mix with all the other old whore oils. Patchouli (vintage), Vetiver, organic, Oakmoss, Labdanum..a few drops of rose and frankincense for incense appealingness..there is more, always there is more..like a few drops vanilla and on top, you'll get smokey bergamot, velvety distilled lime peel and lemon..just on top..The idea is to enjoy each moment and wash with something that leaves you with a thought, a smile or some other more carnal wishes..

I love the way the extra perfume that I poured on top melts and bakes in to the soap in order to give the first few washes a more intense experience. It is 100% essential oils there pretty much..3% og jojoba. I can smell it on every part of me because I cut the soap with naked hand.

Look, she is expensive for a reason. $12.99! She is worth every penny. It is not just soap at this point!

It transforms one to a happier state..creative, intense, realistically rare.

I hope you get one. Really!

one more lovely one goes away and this witch is here to stay

I loved Alan Rickman. To me after Die Hard I was like, "I want that one!" And then Harry Potter came and my mind was blown when I was introduced to Severus Snape and thought, "that is the man,!", a wizard, a bad ass with class. I fell in love!  I cried in Love Actually, omg, he was so amazing!
Beautiful Man Beautiful Memories.
David Bowie, one of the most prevalent   memories of my youth and I know young people who adore him today. When I was a girl, I got my hair cut like ziggy, he played guitar!


Do we now miss them so much or are they still alive in our memories?  Is this a form of ancestor worship?
Yes...



The winds, they were hard and fast last night
I left my window open
I could hear the sound they made when they passed through at their high speed.
I tossed and turned because of memories too
swirling in my mind they were
 gathering together to make up
what I need to have another day worth living
another thought worth having
ideals worth repeating
living what I believe who I want to be
so that each moment is not wasted
Every moment, to be used in creative and outstanding ways...



Blend of the day from my house..

"Be The Witch Blend"

vanilla tahiti
sandalwood sri lanka
a few ambergris grains melted in jojoba
patchouli vintage

feeling better with so much to do

I have been away for a few..no rants, no political debates, just flu and a couple of bad teeth. You'd be surprised at how awful that combo can be. lol
I am getting better and better every day so spring time planning is well under way. It is silent for now. My planning, it is silent, for now...
Mercury retrograde..fix what is broken so you can move on later with out glitches!
Yea!

New blend ideas I have are both for men and women.
Patchouli sage must happen!
Also something sweet for the ladies...
I won't plan too much, just enough to get my juices flowing..


~be well and fix what is broken~
xxxooo

if I were bernie sanders i would quit

Listen, they are crazy, the jackals who hate in politics. I heard someone tried to shoot him. Bernie Sanders!

 I understand the fear of socialism because every time I go to a government building, there are guards with guns. I understand that if the government runs everything, they do it badly. look at national health care! How many forms do I have to fill out so I am not punished next year?
The fuks!
How many forms so I do not have to be punished for already working my ass off to pay for people to be mean to me! So far we the people is a frustraing cluster fuk! That is because it does not take too much education to get a typing job..so we the people can and must learn to be kind and polite.
I get it. Things have to change.
Look at Greenland..(okay, do not say to me, "go there then if you like socialism so much", that is dumb, I am not going anywhere!

Modern socialists are smart and not falling for the "animal farm" mentality any more!
My questions are,
 "where is the money?"
"why do you need more?"
Modern Socialism and Marxism..
That is what the fear mongers want o think. OMG, Marx, Franco, Hitler and Stalin..the angry rotten fuks that they were! Killers they were and do not forget it  and while humans like me and you worshipped them as gods and did their bidding!
It happened! People like you and me did it. They had to or die in the end. They died anyhow! remember that!

In modern socialism, we the people take control of our own money and time. I am not an economist, but do you not think it is time that all the people thrive and make our planet good instead of ignorants saying stupid things on line, on that tv, and then the frenzy. That  is crazy brainwashing all day.
Instead of listening at how we can all live well, they get pissed and make up words about modern liberals being Marxists this and that..
Just remember this and I will stop and tell you of the finer things..
Stalin( orthodox) Franco and Mussolini, Hitler were a Catholic..they all came from strong religious, militant religious backgrounds and they were able to over turn the ruling churches forever..killing millions at the same time, creating suffering and hunger and death everywhere all to get the land to rule over more slaves and more fear mongers!
The Catholic church was power for over 1500 years.  In the 1940's things became more complicated....what with Mussolini's relationship with the pope because he had great big secrets about one of his main cardinals.."humn..boys in and out of his chambers, hey?"

Secrets destroy lives, that is for sure. They made the Catholic Youth together, The Pope and Mussolini did,  they were trained as soldiers to  round  up anyone who was a Jew looking guy or woman, they were violent and it happened.
I wonder if it is any different with Arab looking people and how conservatives look at them today? I wonder if in 20 years their children will say no more, no more heads covered, we have bowed enough, give us books, give us free speech and give us clean food! I wonder! Of course they will change and change and their kids will change. they must, it is not healthy to be in a rigid religious mind set all the time. It does not make for happiness. I have never seen them happy, the religious.
In fact they come to me every day for advice on depression.


Secrets are poison.
I am not talking about your secret stash, I am talking about guilty secrets..
Just do the right thing always and you'll never have to carry that kind of weight on your hearth's mind.

In modern times, we are more in control of our selves. But not that much.
While I will always put theses ideas under scrutiny, even modern socialism, I will look at the end result and talk about it.

Trump, that guy is going to be president and I hope at the least he cuts relations with Saudi Arabia and that The US stops throwing so much money at them! Maybe Trump will take on modern ways to get energy, and looks at where The United States puts big money down and why? And the rest of the head cutting nations, ask them what do they want? say , "no!" and walk away! Who made all the guns the have anyhow?
Who sold the illiterates all the guns?

 By the way, how different is slicing heads from  a poison needle in jail?
Not much, but they do it for imaginary laws of god and for writing words. That Is the other end of conservatism. You are not allowed to think based on national religious laws and it is legal to kill you and me for it!
Writing anything about Mohamed in modern times can get you killed in every country! That is truth..and it is ridiculous..
It happened, and still does, remember Salman Rushdie, he wrote, "Satanic Verses" and the clerics went crazy and put a big price on his head. He lived in India somewhere when he wrote it so how Iran got, in to was the clerics paid the money to get him killed. I think he hid for many years. ( I should read the book)
I do not know, but it is the other end of conservatism.
The other end of Liberalism is the same in many ways..hunger because men and women will go all "animal farm", drinking whiskey in the big house while every one else is outside, cold as shit and hungry, convincing themselves it is right and good and they should be glad they have it. Meanwhile, the horse is gone missing and every one lies to themselves about where he is because they have to lie to themselves or die!! They know what happened to the horse. the pigs sold him  for glue and for money! They knew and yet, they were made to be weak and slaves anyhow..


I say, Bernie, leave this fray of jackals and come to the light where we all live free and kind and smart.
xxx
In my town, the rules, there have to be rules, there have to be.
clean up
read up
do art
read up
help your town
help the lady with the garden
help yourself
go to your awesome clean home and make good clean food
have great sex, guilt free
don't cheat
do not lie or steal
rest
sleep free from worry
ask anything
sort through the answers



"people are going to die
I am going to die
your mother is going to die,
no more kid stuff"
Rick
Walking Dead

hi and good good day ahead to you

I want you to know that and that I love you more!
:)
I can see in to your soul, if you had one you see
so all I have to work with are the words you've said to me.
Always kind and easy to talk to
and then the really wonderful stuff just happens between us year after year and from boons to more boons..
what is it that draws you to me, I cannot fully say yet the more I learn about atoms and the law of cause and effect the more I can put it all together in a format my mind can adjust to..


It is big my friends and what ever mystifying experience you might be interested in is fine,
I love you more for it..explore what you want and then come back to the bare facts with me now..

What is best in life?
No, not a sexy body, yes you are too sexy.. Meditation and focus on training the mind.
Did you know that each language spoken lights up a different area in the brain? That is cool so words do matter and thoughts do color every experience.

What is best in life?
enjoying and not judging for one thing like making it so you are never having to remember what you said because it is always the same thing. honest and true. It is what you do for each other now and not what you've done last year, so if anyone makes it so it is different, run, I say, run.

What is best in life?
Loads of money, I say! May you be rich and content beyond your wildest dreams, always!

What is best in life?
Safe harbors, my friends. No uneducated silliness which turns violent.
You cannot ruin your lands and come to new lands so you can fight about the same things.
At least make a list of  what you want before you even know what you are not getting! My goodness, why, why are men and now women, so willing to destroy our home, our earth?
I won't have it. I feel like if you want to fight, then you go to martial arts and mediate afterwards. Be a zen warrior not some hopped up illeterate with a gun..fucking fuks!


Opps sorry  I was going to make this a poetic waxing but I am me..lol

I have to work today and we are busy! The snow makes people hungry and it is said to snow with rain...all I hear so far is rain..splat splat splat!

My dish today at home will be;
quinoa with veggies and soy sauce
black beans I made yesterday
and fresh salad
if people want an egg, they can make one for extra protein
yummy

I love you more!

spectacular view

I am walking down the street and I would like to smile and leave you be

but you keep thinking my weakness is my kindness and then you see it is not like that..

I exist beyond your illusions and political affiliations.

I know in my heart that every one should be free to say what he wants to and ask the why and not die for it, yea? Free to work hard and have high intentions.

Like a boy should not ever think to kill his momma?? (I read it on the news), why would he do that? I don't know, but when the question seems unbearable, the answer is already before you, there is violent entitlement from bossy mean men..it hurts me so baddly I can't even think, and then I cry from the most insignificant thing..ha!
I say to my mind inside, my god within, the one I talk with when I am silent..me, hey, it could be me or it could be you..

you close your eyes and dream of some goods things, like you on a mountain, with your man where there is solitude and graceful words spoken. A soft path made of contentment with each step to your secret place..

You,  on a boat with your girl, your woman your friend, the one whose scent draws you so near, so close, like pulls so hard you feel it in secret parts that become enraged and encouraged by more longing. It is a wondrous thing about being human and sharing each other in joy..

You, with your family around you sharing evening and an good show on netflix and 

you and all your friends..

you just so content that you can and have shared precious memories like this..try now to be happy..do something you've longed to do, try it and be brave, be free to let go of your restrictions and dogma made of long gone men..make your own moves and do it as if you care about it. I know it hurts..to remember what you think you were then..but look at you now, look at how educated and graceful and real you are.

I know this my friend, Mercury makes me cry.

I know that I am happy, you know why?

Because I like coming home and cleaning my work space and making good things...like...pink lotus and sandalwood or tomorrow, a new batch of old whore. 

, mercury retrograde edition..I think it is big and should be attended to and intended to inspire and attract deliciousness and good! 

It will be all chypre' all day and I am gong to let the citrus zing right off the top. I am very looking forward to this.

We will talk!

vanilla blooms desire looms

Is it me who is less tolerant or am I just getting older now?


"fake, everything is fake, fake news, fake wants and they make you want them..I feel sorry for your kids with their fake education.."

I stayed quiet and said my kids are going to come to their own way of life, their own conclusions.

24 hours later, I have a whole book of responses to such an arrogant and ignorant opinion.

"oh you mean like physics and history and words and their meanings?"
"oh, you mean computer languages and art?"
"oh you mean like real philosophy, The Law Of cause And Effect, Einstein and Camus?"
"oh, you mean like astronomy and elements and where, how they came to be?"
"oh, you mean like biology and how to make things work better in our bodies?'
This is the same kind of person who will say things like," the gggg"government" made ebola and aids.."
:"oh so it was not the dirty needles and sex, bad bad drugs, with hundreds of people a year?"

I  must be getting salty but I say, ladies and gentlemen, is it not better to do all those things (not the dirty needles part))instead offering allegations of every kind on this computer you are sitting on at the moment?

I still do not have the energy to fight with some people, my heart rate goes up ..it does, I have to quench my desire to do a round kick to the head..so,  I will continue to improve and get what I want to say, said, I have no fear of a conspiracy, I do not see it as a viable fact in any way what so ever with regards to ebola. Too many governments involved and none of them can agree on who made the earth! ha ha ha how are they all going to agree on such a big secret?  All the big secrets? It is The Illuminati all over again!
To some degree, there are conspiracies and with the way information travels so quickly for now, nothing is a secret for too long. I am surprised they found a pope who hasn't had sex with the alter boys..they could only cover that stuff up for so long!
Do not be so shocked, it happened. face it and do not lie to yourself about the large number of priests who are gay and stuck with their Lot in life..
Lot, that fuk! You remember Lot, he had to leave his home town of Sodom and the next one, Gamora and his wife turned back for a final look and turned in to salt, and he barely made it out alive with his two girls in tow..
Now we see glimpses if his mind, killing off his wife so that he could have drunken sex with his daughters and then later blame them for raping him! "your wife turned in to a pillar of salt, did she?"
I mean how good was that guy? He had drunken sex with both daughters and we are like, "it is God's will!"
Seems like every one in Sodom is a little bit over sexed...
I have always thought of this story and it says it all to me about ancient men and what they have evolved in to.

back to reality here and now..

"The government is more concerned with the dumb squabbles on land no body wants. The ranchers want it..everyone is scared for them. I am, because one thing the government has is men with guns and not all of them are noble prize winners. They are more like Negan's men in the road than anything that might have concealed a major earthly threat to even themselves and their children, come on!!!
lol

Fake is real, Look at the Kardashians, beautiful women who have transformed themselves in to completely different creatures. they all do it..fake ass, fake plump lips to show a good dick sucking ability, ()))fake eye lashes (that a scientist invented for them to brush on and grow more hair on the eye lashes),,and we all enjoy it.
At work, the rich gals come in with the heels and the coats and all the finery from the Somerset Collection, it is pretty..
The coat thing is big now. There is a status in wearing a fine winter coat. I guess I never really worried about it much, seems like I always stay warm enough. I will wear any coat here, I will!
Women here go through stages.
You have The North Face long coat, so two years ago! ha ha ha
Now, it is the Canadian Goose Coat..

http://www.canada-goose.com/us/en/shelburne-parka-3802L.html#start=1

We have had actual cold weather for about a week, ))))
It is cold though, and the coats are nice, they are. I would wear it for sure!

Desire always looms..I want I want is good, but do I really want it or am I brainwashed in to wanting it by the government?

thinking and delusions oh mercury retrograde 2016 in early aquarius

Yes, get ready to fix things you broke.
You Broke!
It has been at least three years and you knew it would come to this. You fought it but he threads unravel and you must face the holes in the diagram, the plan and the money thing.
It always come down to money and how you will fix the next few things.
Mercury is money in so many ways. Fast moving and goes fast and slow depending on what it does..ha h ha

Realize and say what you want.
Fix wonky printers or find new ways to print labels..(me)
Walk away from loud mouth complainers.
Do not proclaim all your hate in one sentence..
but do, say what needs said if the family or your work team is not doing their best things.
Do remind that work needs done and you cannot just wish it done.
Clean up and organize..
Do not just say hurtful things to someone because it is the easiest way to get revenge.
Seriously, this is an issue all over the place with humans, and also,  in a family, it can be brutal.
I have no tolerance for it here and my family knows this.
It is not the way, insults and painful proclamations are no way to win an argument..

Mercury Retrograde
learning to give in
learning to laugh again
learning to change your mind
learning that growing up is unavoidable
growing old too
leaving good ideas behind you where ever you go...
xxxx




I am making a balm today along with some other things.
I have pink lotus and orange blossom
we will see
......

so people are stupid racist and mean

Right? I get so tired of it because there is so much to do and we just keep on being mean to each other.

So the black lives matter people were yelling in a restaurant at lunch time where there were babies and  other people trying to eat their ten dollar lunch because it would be at least that in Chicago.
Dude, stop with the protests and go do something good. Read books and don't hover over peoples time like that. If you are smart and speak with quiet words, people want to listen.
Do I not have sympathy for the dark skinned person who always seems to be stuck in a rut of hatred from others?
Do I ponder as to why the black skin inspires such hatred?  Do I ponder as to why education is not first and foremost in our world? See, when people are really busy studying, they do not have time to hurt each other. Truth!
Leave it to the horibly racist fuks to be the ones going on line and saying mean, mean things. These are Americans my friends, these are your neighbors and donut shop workers or mean lady at the hardware store. This is how they secretly feel and if you think it is not you or that it is not real, open your eyes.
Stay home more.

I was reading a story about a journalist who frequently visits prisons and speaks with the prisoners. He has a motto, "tell me your story, don't fuk with me."
So he goes to south africa to a prison there and he gets his mantra ready, "tell me your story, don't fuk with me."
He walks in, and the boys are all like 14, 16, and ragged and black..and he thought about "what is it about dark skin??? I wonder how many books those boys ever saw? Why they would lock them up? I wonder what they did?
We really know nothing of how they were tortured as babies..we don't, we are safe in our warm homes with family near by.

When I was in Costa Rica for all of those years,
I learned Spanish and wore flip flops as is the custom..you just easily change, because, it is hot there and  your language and thoughts change to correspond to that mentality.  When I speak in my native Greek, I also must change my mind to reflect that language state of mind of the northern sheep herders and accordion playing Greeks!
My point is that changing to to fit the needs of your growth is  essential.


Yelling and demanding does nothing good.

I feel that only thorough real learning will this problem be solved. If I were a younger woman, I would be involved in politics like one of my daughters. That girl is so smart...we hardly like to debate her, but we do, I do, and we do get heated. I respect her so, I listen and then I say things, lol..

"GMO's are bad ok? They are a food made with poison, wrapped in more poison and then spliced with a fish or frog genome, made to feed the poor, the slaves and the worker camps, The wealthy, the rich, they  are beautiful because they live and eat healthy food. Do you think Obama wants a gray rubbery tomato or an organic big ol beefsteak?"
( I know many take the drugs and die, too..drugs are bad))

"Mom, you sound like a hippie!:)"

I do sound like a hippie, in a good way. Not all of us took too many drugs and ended up too broken. That is going to happen anyhow. It is like a light switch, the crone phase..why spend it yelling at people trying to eat a nice meal or just trying to have a break from their busy job, who knows, but I say, humans must change.
Old traditions are not practical in this world You cannot thrive as family,  a neighborhood or city if you are in constant turmoil from violent behaviors and hateful thoughts.

Back when I was a devoted wife, I would read spiritual books and thought that if I love completely that only the best things would happen..it is not so. People change or die.. one must love each day they get to do something wonderful, work, clean up, annointed and ready to make it the way you want it. Some things take time, other events are thrown at us and then it is like the rug gets pulled out and you kill that part of your connection for good. Now what? You change. You must change your mind for your best thing..otherwise you are the person yelling down the road, "hey!!"



I decided to help this woman who comes to my store. I thought I will help her and she will be happy and maybe smile more. She came in to ask me what do to about a dryer sheet that was left in the community dryer and it made all her clothes smell. I told her to re wash everything with vinegar  or baking soda..
"no, no vinegar, I have asthma, it smells."
Then, she came back with tears that it did not work and would I come over and smell the clothes because she also burned a pan..
Oye, I went, the dummy that I am.
I showed her that teflon is bad and she should always use stainless steel..I left her with a natural room freshener.
"the smell of the freshener made me sick."
she came in the next day and the next day and the one after that and then the coat, thing, where she needed a coat and I should help with that and then she burned her fuking sheets in the dryer and would I come over for that..
and then she was in the parking lot at work waiting for me.
I told her, finally, that she must handle the sheet thing on her own. "go buy some sheets at Target and get cotton"
"cotton?"
"Can you come remove the sheets for me after work?"
"I get done at 11, I will not come over at 11, you have to take the sheets off."
"I can't, the girls do that."
"what girls?"
"the cleaning girls, they come on mondays."
I processed that while freezing my ass of in he parking lot.
She was staring at my coat, "is that a new coat?"
"no it is the same coat I wore before, you can do it, it is for your best thing!"
I walked away from her..enough is enough!

clear and how I always see Rick in new ways

There is an episode in the third season of Walking Dead where Rick takes Michone and  Coral (Carl) to his home town police station to get  a bunch of guns from the police station. Turns out crazy Morgan is there all crazy because he lost his boy and his wife and stayed there killing off zombies.
I like the spikes all over his place  and Rick even uses that idea when he had 30 days with no incident in season four episode one...
While driving there they spotted a man who yelled for them to please please help him. Rick would not stop. He was so closed and did not want to waste time trying to help a desperate stranger. Maybe he is good or maybe he is bad and desperate or crazy and desperate..
after they got the guns from Morgan, on the way home, they saw the guys, his dead body pieces on the road and I was sad..I mean wow.
There was the idea that Rick in order to take this guy and put him in the back seat with Coral, for a day trip would have been a risk.
Maybe a big one. Who knows..look at Eugene and how they developed his character..cowardly little cute puppy boy!
Maybe that guy was good. You cannot know. Seems to me all of them are a little bit bad.

So, in Season Four, Rick has changed his mind and taken people in. Little girls..yea..see? How do you know who will be bad in the end.
Creepy little girls being taught how to use a knife..how do you know who will be bad?

I ask this all the time and all I can say is keep alert and do not falter in your task and you should always parish doing your best thing and not running down the road yelling, "help"!!
It is all so symbolic isn't it?
Maybe not..the lady at the hardware store showed some her true colors the other day. I told her I like zombies and she said, "I don't watch that shit!"
I was a little bit taken aback, "calm down, it is only a story and why are you so harsh.?" To be fair, I would not expect anymore less of this woman I see quite often..she is a smokers voice and thinning hair and she is bitter about most things probably and doesn't even have an email address. lol
why should I care if she thinks less of me for the walking dead. puta! lol

It is a good story. It is cynical, sceptical and asks great questions. Not all the questions but really great ones.
No power, no grid, every one  gets sick from simple things like a cut, flu season..death....no, they would not go around eating brains, that is the fun part of the story, they would just die and leave a stench.
I am glad I have books to read.

The other day I was listening to NPR on the way to work and there was a great story about what would happen if all of our internet technology would no longer be there. No TV, no phone, no me ranting daily about it..
It happened in Calgary  where there was such a powerful solar flare that it wiped out every single thing.I think they found a new way to save information.
So now the guy that invented google with a bunch of other guys is like saving things in a whole new way..remember blue lotus moon, I mean all that is gone! I feel like I lost so much in each phone I seem to go through. My space? ha ha ha

blue lotus moon
it had to go, it is gone.you were different then
you are different today
open your eyes my mom always says
that means do not lie to yourself
and clean up
always clean
clean
"ahh clean.." ha ha ha




What was up with the governor being so bad and hateful ( I can't even stand that guy)and how did he build such a great army of soldiers? Coming back like that and killing everything just for revenge.
And Rick, finally out of his ridiculous visions of Lori the fucking whore who  couldn't wait to fuck Shane and go on with life not missing Rick. They had problems before he got shot. She never really loved him, always whining about Rick's decisions.
Rick snapped out of it fast, he had to. It seems like I like him more and more when he reacts.
He strikes like a snake, just so well thought out. I just watched the episode when he bites that guys throat and just goes berzerker...I love him so much for that, we all do.
That is why I am so excited about the next few episodes in season six. I find that the story, although good, the acting was bland even if Deanna was there. I am excited and feel bad  at the same time.
You know, the "mom" boy and the Ron boy..Rick gets pissed, something is going down..."mom"

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