a fine line

There is a fine line between happy and sad. I mean one second your frolicking on a beach in your mind and the next you could be pucking your guts out..well, is there something that is not sitting well with you? Or that constant allergy you have, is there something really irritating you?
I learned all that from reading books by Luise Hay. Recently I have more opportunities to inspect her ideas full on and understand again how wonderful Luise is and how easy it is for me to read myself..

One thing is for sure honey, confidence and happiness in life are the key goals for us all. To inspire confidence in my self is easy, to inspire confidence in others may become an art form to be admired in the end. Not the end of time, but the end of a challenge or change in status.

It happens when you work in an office with others, or say, your family, you see them everyday, you share your thoughts with them and laugh with them and work side by side with them and even cry sometimes at the injustice of life for some, with these people. But who are they? You just met them two years ago, (random average number) who the fuq are they really and why are they in your realm?
There is a reason you attracted them, right?
Maybe not a reason, but certainly a clan or tribe having been made in essence..you have your shaman, your priestess (that is me) and you have your warriors and farmers.
and soapmakers:)
I am a high priestess, heh heh:) more like the fool!
But today I am the ace of cups and my ideas flow, I am the cauldron of kerridwyn!








"with your head full of brains and your shoes full of feet, you're too smart to go down and not-so-good street"
dr suess

white rose co2

I have decided to wear this today alone and without patchouli..ha!

It makes me think of the absolute somehow and then something more.
It has an earthy quality and as well as an etheric vibe. I put some on my heart and my wrists as  to open the avalability of my potential artistic side mixed in  with  my compassion and joy for my awesome life.
Rose makes us wonder in wonderment of how wonderful we are and how pretty we are and how gracious we are..I am gracious most days:))))
all rose:)

that is a lot of bull

Three planets in Taurus and we're making it work!
Remeber however, Taurus is about resentment and not letting go as much as it is about art and beauty and good food and loyalty.
You do wrong to a Taurus type and he'll never forget it. He may(not) forgive you but dang it man, he won't forget.
This is effecting all of us now because after all we're all here on earth and the tidal magnetic flows will... definately effect us, our blood and our hearts.
Taurus is about blood and heart, yes?
 I think so anyhow!

How to ensure a suave day with all this bully bully?
Hey man, I say, speak your mind and show your heart and hopefully you have become a good person enough where the words that come out will reflect that.
Control freaks, will be exposed!

Drink a shot of wheat grass juice to purify and strengthen your blood with clorophyl and minerals.

Now as far as the rest goes, what a nice time it is to get some things in order in your home. Clean up a little, fold your clothes and make some food for your fams. They will want that now and need a little spiritual nourishment from you.
You, who makes all the awesome food with care and good intentions.
If your intentions are sadly on the wrong end of Taurus's comfort zone, well, all I can say is, look out, and stay as calm as possible. make love, make nice:)
make more love:) and put on a nice blouse with a nice pair of lace panties under...even if, no one can see it, it'll be your luscious secret.

Agapimeni Perfume
(it means to be loved)
8 drops patchouli
8 drops mandarin
8 drops neroli
8 drops pink grapefruit oil
optional
1 drop rose
1 drop vetiver
1 drop frankincense

sing it

om shanti shanti shanti
thank you for stopping by and saying hello to me.
I hope you are staying calm and radiant during this intense eclipse.
Do not be affraid to speak your mind and if you are like me there will be tears as you speak.
Ah, you are so intense so enraged at injustice and manipulation..
yes, you are!
Some ideas are there for you to reject and your true nature shines forth to light the way for others to understand.
there are ghosts to face, unknown fears lurking at the depth of your mind. fears of rejection and failure, and fears of loneliness and famine..
calm down step back and be honest with yourself.
Remeber that ghosts do not exhist, they are melrey fears in your mind and you must face them head on with eyes open
I love you:)
hari hari
sing it honey
feel the power of the speed of the univerese and let it carry you accross the real hevens in your brain...
that soft moushy sponge computer in your head..

lavender yarrow soap

anastasia's lavender yarrow soap

lavender maillete

with organic ground yarrow flowers ( had I skullcap herb I would have ground up some, next time))

Gentle and one of my most fragrant lavender bars in a long time.

Only four left:)

People love lavender oil, we do!

why sculcap?

Michigan skullcap is everywhere and starting come come out. Delphiniums are coming out as well as wormwood and zdravets too. I am very excited about skullcap and hope to have it growing in the wilder parts of my area here soon. Meanwhile I must start walking the woods here to see what grows wild and where. I am lucky at the moment to be working with a young girl who knows many species of wild herbs and medicinals  here in Michigan. Time to get myself a field guide and go.

It is exciting to use wild herbs because the energy they have is stronger due to the nature of their survival mechanisms. They develop components which protect the plant during harsh conditions.
Skullcap herb is wonderful for relaxation and calmatude. It is also able to help with pain and inflammation, anxiety and skin related stresses due to its high amounts of antioxidants and glycosides..yes, I did say glycosides..
Hey man, if you're all freaked out about your boyfriend or your new boss who is a jerk, skullcap won't solve those problems. But, if you want to chill out in the evening and get a little buzz from skullcap, why not? Skullcap takes the edge off and maybe even lets you close your eyes for a minute and then you can look at the whole picture and you realize who you are and where you're going from here.
Should you want to quit smoking, skullcap is nice to relax your lungs..in the olden days they would smoke skullcap herb to relax the lungs.. I am just saying make a tea with the dry herb and mostly leaves because the leaves contain more of the "stuff" of skullcap..

there are 200 species of skullcap herb on earth and lately this herb calls to me. I am invoking skullcap.

BTW
Family Mint
Ruler is Mercury
Blesses the Mind
Sweetens the Words
Works great for Gemini, then Libra and then Aquarius because its  air element but everyone can have a little dose of poise now and again. you do not have to be a Gemini to enjoy skullcap.

blend dried skullcap leaves with lavender flowers, parsley and and ground flax seeds (steep for 15 minutes)and drink for pure satisfaction and better breathing abilities..breathe in four hold four, out four, stay empty for four.

have a wonderful day

allow me to present you with the magic of my shadow of the eclipse

in Scorpio:)
my twelfth house is part Scorpio, the  eleventh house is Scorpio too..
I have always wondered about that aspect of my chart. Scorpio takes a big giant portion of my northern hemisphere starting in my tenth house, eleventh and part of the twelfth house all together..everything I do outside my home is having to do with Scorpio vibes ..but let me tell how this is highlighted during an eclipse.
hey man things happen, and friendships fade and the next thing you know, you just do not relate with a person anymore..you grew, they didn't, you cried, they didn't care or you spoke up and they couldn't accept your words..
whatever it is Scorpio  is gonna tear it apart and re assemble it, somehow not needing a few pieces in the process.
Scorpio vibes bring intense all or nothing people, drama, jealousy, impatience, resentment, excellence in thought, patience, wisdom, ability to endure, delving deeply and getting the answers..vampires and their moods... And if you let the mood fester..well..it will fester and then you will smell bad from the liver..

In my case, when I leave somewhere, people get mad and  for a minute..they get pissed!
All that goes through my mind as a Libran with all that Scorpio up on top, is that, "what do you want me to do, stay here and rot?"
hahahahaaaa:)
"I must go now man!"

Actually, I am here to stay. I like my mom and dad near by and I like my boys and girls near by and I like my soap near by:) and I like my job just fine..it is ok, all ok:)

Where do you have Scorpio in your chart?

Check out this link for further insight
Scorpio Eclipse Magic

a matter of time

a-matter-of-time

Only two left of this divine blend in soap. More like a perfume really! If you love neroli with patchouli, this hunkin sweetie may be your cup of tea. Did I put some smokey tea in there or not?
Hummmm...


it is amtter of time
only a matter of time
that you will be grand
that you will be just grand
starlight
hurling through space
fire feeding each cell
abundance rolling in
health flurishing
vitality always encouraging
with each
compasionate breath

work

it is funny how work is just so healing for anger and what ever else angsts you. I began cleaning the manor yesterday. Crabtree Manor)
There was alot of clean up to do before the planting begins..oh, man, there will be eleder and linden and cosmos and cherries...in about 5 years..it is the five year plan:)

You can get so caught up with sadness that that you walk around in a funk continually remembering what you are mad about and then the next thing you know, you change you mind yet again and accept things  so as to not continue being angry.

Or, you go ourside and you clean up some dirt and you think about the goodness and your boys with shovels saying, "what do you want next , mom?"
I don't know, but I can honestly say about myself is that, I linger on somethings a long time. Capricorn moon does that!
Like if someone is a jerk to me..I may forget all the other awesomeness in my life..just for a wee second, but it happens.
You too?
We can make it through this and become quite amazing or just still stay stuck in some imaginary slight from a country or a friend..
hey man, that said, some people are just assholes and there is nothing you are going to do about that..you cannot change them..you can't..leave them alone, maybe someone was and jerk to them or,  they are simply worried about having enough money for their belly fat removal..who knows?
That said, lately, all my customers are stellar. it has been at least six months since anyone has been too rude.
One time, an older red head was so mean that I walked away a little upset at her rudeness,  and then while telling   my workmate, I said, "that whore should be down on her knees at my feet being grateful that I helped her so intelligently, but instead she is a hag to me"::")))
moohaaaa, I laughed! very lightly, but she heard me, I think she may have..
dang it!
I hurt her feelings but..but..some one had to..maybe she'll think about why someone would say that about her? She is after all a good person. Right! A righteous woman!
Hey man, you do not achieve a scowl like that for no reason.

 Your smile says you are soft and happy.

That is what I say anyhow:)
things come out of my mouth, I am a Sagittarius rising after all! Sag does that, just blurts out the truth like an arrow of fire and wood and some fakin birch tar holding its elements together and he just fakin hurls at you and you're like stunned at the honest truth of it all.
I am now gonna plant some wild flowers, I want this place to be an enchanted manor..awe!!

Uranus square Pluto May 2013

Mystic calls is The Zap Zone, I call it upheaval.
Changing conditions are forcing us to adapt.

here are some dates which you may find helpful:)

• Uranus square Pluto June 24 2012
• Uranus square Pluto September 19 2012
• Uranus square Pluto May 20 2013
• Uranus square Pluto November 1 2013
• Uranus square Pluto April 21 2014
• Uranus square Pluto December 15 2014
• Uranus square Pluto March 17 2015

So here we go!                                                                                                                                                      As far as I am concerned, I felt this square all last week and I am suave, it is true, I am, but I look at some and how they are spinning out of control. There is your buzz word! "Control" that is Pluto. In many ways Pluto is once again going to teach us that being stagnant and wanting only your way may prove to be unbecoming of you. You cannot fake your true heart all day. Things that you say to people, and they say to you shows you what is in their thoughts..their smile if any, icy cold. remember too, the year of the snake.  Changing is inevitable and that is always so with Pluto. It tears you up but you must shed your concepts of religion in order to function in an intelligent society. Science has no time for hell or heaven and the facts are the facts. Also your race is not as important when you look at the world as one and step away from your tribe. Uranus in Aries is about technology (and also rigidity in many ways)and technology cannot be harnessed without admitting  that we falsify and convince ourselves and  our brain to feel better, to feel safe and to keep our ideas sacred. Hey man, they are going to learn sooner or later. I think sooner because just as in any organized sittuations like Earth will be in the next 25 years, there's gonna be some "splaining" to do!

There is also Mercury doing something in all of this which is why I keep thiking that ideas must change and we the people, must start from inside. You want to change?                                                                                                Stop contributing  to the hateful ideas which nurture resentment, fear and punishment.

You want to change,(you will be forced to) open your heart to actually loving your neighbor, your friends..if you even have any at this point..hey man, you can only nurture so many people in your life, some get mad. You cannot worry about that. You must work hard to be extra noble now and become what you want to become. Live the life you actually believe in. yes..but honey, if "your life" means that you believe that you are better, better in line with god, prettier, more authorative, richer ha! I feel sorry for you! There will be nowhere to hide!

All I know is that I know nothing and want to learn everything:)

before

before you say the worst things, say the truth not your oppinions
this is what I am finding more and more as I grow older


Here is the thing, I have an opportunity to mature as an amazing skin care expert..that there is good!
I am becoming better and better.
One thing I've learned with skin care  is that some people don't want to accept the truth about ingredients, but the ones that do, really see a difference and huge impriovements  right off.
Take the woman who "tried" everything for her neck rash..like right at her hair line, it gets warm and damp and it is perfect for bacteria to grow.
She came in in tears. I looked at it and knew what was up. "I'd put some frankincense right on that" I said to  her..she had scratched it so much that it was torn up a little but she still put it on every day. The first time it stung and I thought she would freak but she  said even in the stinging she felt relief. Whew!!
I was a little  nervous, I mean you never know how conventional people can get..
"why don't you get some real borrage oil instead of breaking a gelatin capsule?" I'll say now and again to some lady off the street.
"No, I want to do it like Dr. Oz said."
lol
"Ok, well thanks for stopping by, here is your borrage oil for your face in a gelatin capsule."
Some of them listen to me.
I tell them how to make calendula oil and I tell them to try a balm instead of a cream of fakin potasium fakin sorbate...I don't say that to them..we can't say fak in a public setting :)
Here is my thing and I will chant this all day, if it is made in a lab in a vat with "people dust"  which has strange people's skin particles floating in it and then you put some fakin potassium sorbate in there and then there are all the other  so called botanicals and then I even hear rumors and frankly I think they may be true, even  today's grapefruit seed extract is a far cry from the stuff that Aubrey used in the 70's.
Word has it that grapefruit seed extract is super fake, word has it.. and what about linalol? If there is lavender oil, just say so. Why do you not just say so?
I never use that stuff anyhow so it doesn't bother me. I do not want it. In my opinion, which is humble, small batches of anything is better than giant. If you want a milky  cleanser get yourself some dry milk and some ground garbanzo flour and some clay and you have a milky cleanser for your face.
I like simple things, classy things and super clean things.

classy face cleaner

2 tablespoons each
 og garbanzo flour
og goats milk powder
1 tablespoon clay of your choice

5 drops frankincense
3 drops chamomile
1 drop rose
mix well
pour in to a jar
and use it~ a pearl sized amount with a sprinkle of warm water makes a nice face cleaner..
apply borrage oil after you rinse on your damp face, cold pressed organic borrage, or evening primrose, or pomagranate, organic jojoba, organic argan, they are all nice.
Pat dry after a few minutes and your face should be quite radiant..

today is a good day
thank you xo

favorite essential oil? really?

Like I could choose just one!
Right now I am in love with oakmoss. I am in love with vetiver and guess what? I am loving lavender. I go through ins and outs with lavender. I get so caught up with frankincense that I forget about lavender. Or rose,  well, it is wonderful, rose is!
I have been cutting the fern soap I made the other day.
vetiver
lavender
patchouli
geranium
oakmoss
clary sage
tonka
a bunch of kanwa clay and....
It is gonna be great! Omg, so good. the oak moss is from Sunrose and I must say, it is the best I've had since the old days when the mysore sandalwood flowed..and the lavenders were in kilo sizes..kilos!
The oils I had blended for the fern soap and intended for this blend have shown me once again that I have no control over their beauty and ways in which they will become..

fern

I want

Pluto is all about, I want and sometimes not getting it.
Why?
Reviewing why we don't get what we want is Saturn which as it coasts through Scorpio, we can have some resolve as  to the why nots and the dang its..
I feel sad about the world...I hate my government, or they can't be trusted, they'll take away my guns..they will take away my rights..
(they already have and no matter how many guns there are in your home, you will not escape them and their guns..which..is another rant)
choose which thought enters your mind first, in another scenario...

"I want to have freedom from fear of money"
Or..
"I don't want to constantly be afraid of facing my money fears"

"I always have enough"
"All of my needs are met"
Or
"how am I going to make it?
 "i don't want  to be poor
I don't want to suffer
i don want to loose my credit cards"

"I always have enough and all of my needs are met"

"I want my lover to love me and not waste my time, I want to be in a healthy honest  relationship"
(your wish is my command)
"I don't want some guy who insults me all day only to later makes up for it by toying with my emotional needs.."
(your wish is my command)


"All of my relationships are based on a healthy honest vibe, which permeates through my life all day"


xoxo