the old whore

I was going to call her some other "safe" name. But I wanted to finally nail my abilities after years of living with a crazy man, being a freeking maniac with energy to spare..which is why body building, biking, not swimming but all sorts of yoga and fighting..and still after all that search for a meta physical meaning of who I am. I chanted shrim and I chanted om and I chanted om nam yo ho renge kyo..and then slowly, I was able to see that I may have been expecting  some sort of imaginary crane to get me out of my predicaments..
 Was I  living and acting upon  to every one's expectations of who I am? How they see me or  how I aim to present myself to them..to you even?  nam yo ho renge kyo.. that is a good one to remember.. I think it is  the vibration that makes the difference..you cannot do this chant with a high voice. It is a wierd one..it makes you go to the base, where the root of who you are, resides..
Libra wants people to love her and with Scorpio it gets to the extreme level..we are not easy to love..but people love us.
(and they say astrology, doesn't work..by all accounts, it shouldn't))

With The old Whore Soap I am saying, "let me tell you what a whore is honey!"
My friend Tonie is the one who pushed me..she is like, call her "the old whore"..hey, who is the genius here? Tonie:)
My friends, and all the people I know are super smart. That is one thing, I am always so grateful for!
I want the old whore to have it all!
loving family
loads of cash
wonderful health and
oils and grapevines everywhere er
maybe that is just me:) it is almost spring here..

I make her with my favorite oils of all time..good patchouli and deep vetiver..the secret ingredient which shall never be revealed, except with Tonie..one of them long gone now, and we are better for it..
sigh...
 I will be making The Old Whore, today..
patchouli
vetiver
oakmoss
labdanum
bergamot
jasmine
lapsang su shong..one drop co2
wormwood hydrosol grown in the garden of 2013, organic
oolong tea
a speck of a drop of sea weed absolute..a spec..like a toothpick  dipped in there and then gently mixed into the oils.

When working with labdanum, one must have a warming vessel..that is why I think this soap has lasted so long..it may be the complexity of labdanum, its beauty, its sweetness and it anti oxidant power that can make any blend super heavenly and amber like.
You just simply melt the labdanum over a very very low flame..a hot water bath is nice..
I have a really awesome stove where I can heat it at the lowest temps...it melts like caramel, I add a little bit olive oil and then gently mix that together..(reminding you that this is a 30 second job, so never leave labdanum un attended on your stove)
I then take that to the work station and mix in the oils.
I allow that mixture to stand and I then carry on...It the attention to the prep that leads me to excellent results..
I think that is why she stands out.
She has everything and she lingers gently on everyone through the day.
men love her!
Why wouldn't they? She smells really good on a man..:)



my intending poem about the old whore today::)))

The Old Whore
she is the one we all adore
she can hold a thought
she can un tie mental knots
she is logic and force
 the physical
and the meta physical
electric currents carrying bursts of knowledge
yes she is sexy
and sometimes cute
she will light your inner fire..she will open doors you never knew existed
she will devote herself to your supreme intuitive mind
her circle being a platform to allow for flashes of power soaring to the heavens
where stars are made of diamonds and things like me and you..


I love you have a nice day:)