for some saturn is a ray of sunshine

Can you tell me that in the last year you have not totally changed your mind about what need to change?
Can you tell me that you did not walk away from something you were dragging along for years now? Yes you did!
Dragging it around as if you are somehow in charge of protecting someone from the realities ahead?
Doing this can get you killed like Carl in the walking dead.
There are times to focus on the task and not deviate for sure yea?
Like if Carl had stayed home to protect Alexandria instead of looking for strangers in the woods where is danger.
My gut was wrenched from the first moment he decided to help people and be "good" now.
All his life he wasn't as compassionate, then, something hard ass struck him and he realized what was important. His own death!
more saturn for you there....
I do not know if you watch walking dead. I love the show because even though it is pretend things, Kirkman can really tell a good story  on some real human reactions to stress and all the toxic things that bring us pain and suffering.
Those are the zombies see?
Your toxic reactions to stress..
fear
pain
mental pain
bone aches
muscle aches
teeth need fixed
feet are stiff
now it is time
to take a seat
curl the toes one by one
focus on the baby toe and then release now go all the way with each muscle like next the ankles
focus
read in to that spot and see if it is hot
go up to the knees
think about the hips
how easily they carry you

remember cruelty is easy
and color it what you like
mean is mean
even when you are nice

now breathe in the good though the left side where you get to sift through what is kept and get rid of the waste by the right

What is it you want?

magnetic thoughts here and there
sometimes you kind of stare at the options
sometimes you grab the one that looks easy and then it drags you down for nothing..
sometimes it is people
sometimes it is you honey pulling them
you do not have to


there we are then,  us together making wars and boundaries and blowing up bombs in the sea..which gave us life on this little blue spec and yet  and yet..how we messily fret..


(I will stop)