Saturn Pluto and the destructive factor

You were trying to avoid the truth. You tried and tried to communicate and still the severing of ties grips you and then tears you apart.

Be a LION! (a good luck moon true node in Leo conjunction right now!)

You were trying to be patient and learn but the constant negative reinforcements have made you nervous and insecure and now you may seem like a beggar pleading for the thing you think you want.

Be a LION! ( a perfect showcase for your skills and creative forces.)

You were trying to fix your past mistakes and face your fears and when low and behold, you stopped and you thought  BE A LION  now  !~ it is time to be real.

Be a LION!

You past will never leave you  that comes with the Saturn effects in our lives.
Be a LION and bide your perfect time to hunt and rest..balance is the key and sauvite is required!

Pluto in astrology teaches that death is always present and things, people, cars,, WILL die. friendships and lovers will leave us, heck man, Walking Dead will end, someday!
That is a joke..

Pluto is about the pain of an ending and so one must feel it. The agony of past hurts robbing you of precious present moments, the pain  in your body from perhaps unhealthy and unbalanced  life style...
Who will be strong is this scenario?

The ones who can look at something and be gracious, kind, quiet and willing to change. and proceed with courage and eyes open
The older you are the harder. Saturn is about hardening the mind as well the body. Stiffness and rigidity .incentives or .lack there  of.   Pluto is coming with a bloody bat to tear it down, tear down old fashioned ideas.

it is okay, there will be great treasure among the rubble and you will be absolutely amazing!

sun mercury venus mars in capricorn

When Mercury is involved it is all about words (all of your words have power) and how many you spew out of your mouth make a difference.
It is also about little thoughts that can drive one crazy and mostly it is all about "me, me, me, me"

Mars in Capricorn and what it brings to the table..

 Simple minds will be greedy for toys, complex minds will be suave and true..what!


We always think about our hurt feelings and what you are going to do about it now kind of low  behavior. It can lead to bitterness and drama because always, one expects too much that is why one is not happy..
I also think the level of drama can get irritating and I for one do not care for it. There can be arguments and "he said, she said things"

Mars in Capricorn makes my stomach hurt for the truth. Also just because one knows the truth and how bad good they may be, there are still heavy responsibilities attached to them and  for sure, one cannot hold to indignance as a way of performance..it leads to decay and dinginess.

**Mars in Capricorn can be like Colonel Wilhelm Klink on Hogan's Hero's..
"Hogan!!"
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Hogan%27s_Heroes

lol

I feel like when my mom comes over there will be an inspection and she will say all the things I need to do.
"I mean it is 20 degrees out there mom!"

The next thing to do is think of future me.
I ponder and ponder and weigh out my possibilities and my duties to me and my money habit.
Oh, did I say money habit?


this song is for sure going in my greatest hits collection


I love money and money loves me
I love money and money loves me
loves me
loves meeee
I love clean house and clean house welcomes me
I love clean house and cleans house welcomes me
welcomes me
welcomes me
I love success work
and success work  monies me
monies  me ee
monies me

I hope so for all of us. You can add other great lyrics such as " I love my lover and my lover loves me in every way I love and every day I love him or her or them ..dang man.
why?

What else is there? We are simply simple beings thinking we are complex beings..I wonder what is out there really and what drives us..yes I know about intuition dark matter and all sorts of things which cannot fully be  explained, this, the infinite unknown
the divine unseen
the driving force of gravity
what are we?
I love you!

when the cleaning up becomes an art form and other little tidbits which keeps us gnawing on little things

I am not even on vacation yet but in a few days it will be full on, doing!
I am so excited.
When I moved here, see, I had the garage all to myself and then..
all of  my kids moving here and there think it is perfect to fill my garage with their extra stuff.
I mean get rid of it. "oh, no not in the new house, but still I love it..okay take it to momas garage.."
Oye!
I am not having a garage sale, I am for sure simply chucking all the nick knacks I have not touched for years and then I am white  painting that garage floor too. lol
Boys boys boys..
I am making everything a "she shed" where we can just look pretty and be happy.

The whore cat lives in there now so I love that about the garage.:)

The whore cat 2018
the whore cat
She came to my house one day right in the back door like my prissy black cat with the white beard does and she communicated that she wants in and she wants in now! It was so cold, I gave in.
I said no. I said no no no..No more animals other than my prissy cat who does not just take house anywhere here. and and is  choosy about who she is gonna love on.
The whore cat.. I gave in, she kept on..
she greets me when I come home rubs herself all the way to the tip of her fluffy tail that she is interested in sleeping on my bed and checking out other comfy snuggie rooms she can languish in.
My prissy cat hates this and she took off for a few days because  the whore cat won't leave. She hates her! I saw that  my boy made flyers for the neighborhood on my printer because he thought  our kitty was lost  and when I went top print my new labels for the orange blossom little perfume I made for us, there was no ink!
Whore cat!
She lives in the garage happily as of today. She seems  all happy and comfy in there..I put blankets and water and food.
frikin whore cat...

Mars Pluto Capricorn and the Saturn too!

It sounds bad I know because we automatically think it is going to be based on our fears.
I think t is going to be fantastic. Why?!
We should make it so that is why.

Be somber if you have to to get a job done

Be.classic and be somber when thinking about choices which feature ideas not quite to your comfort.
We all feel something serious right now and sorry, Jesus has nothing to do with it.
Nor does any saint in your past vigils who never seem to show up with a better scanning device. (joke)

I am not going to rant about spirits when I love astrology so much.
I see things in my head about it. I see angles and protrusions and it travels in there and wiggles my senses.
lol

fougere 2018

I just made this delicious awesome perfect smooth grassy heavenly strong soap..I love fougeres and I love them so!

Here we have a collection of high quality essential oils such as aged patchouli oil from 2009, and geranium bourbon and clary sage from eastern europe, I think bulgaria. I put a dollop of vanilla at the finish to just soften its spirits a bit and take the edge off.

yummy!

As there is always a little bit mix left over I like to make a combo deal with another soap mix..

here we have, French Grassy Meadow.

french grassy meadow

The top layer here is a mix of shea butter, kokum butter and organic buttermilk from a a private batch I made for a girl.

Yes, buttermilk. It does something and  the lather is for sure different and creamy and I smell nothing from over burned ammonia which can happen  when using organic wet materials in soap. I added kokum because sometimes I just want to say, "kokum" :)

It is that lavender oil I used, french, grassy, floral, deep, attracting, soothing, soothing , sooo..thing...

About Saturn Mars and Pluto?

Be aware of underhanded jerks who secretly hate life and will try to get you to hate life too.

Be mindful  of your words. Be gracious under pressure. 

Being bitter is no way to love(pluto) I mean live!

Mars loves to be in Capricorn so ask for more and Saturn is a dick anywhere especially at home so there is that. he is fine Saturn is with all of this. 

Hey Saturn, you say you want to be alone and the how no one understands your pain..or Saturn is like "I alone can do this so you all look at me suffering while overdoing things myself.." ha h a ha

Look and see where these Capricornian boys are visiting in your chart. For me it is my First house..Changing and or fixing my appearance to fit my age..perfection!

I am doing yoga  and making sure I am saying happy, funny, glad, song singing, attractive words..

You? Where is capricorn in your chart?

astro.com

go look if you want :)

sun in aries mercury in aries venus in aries uranus in aries

It is an Aries fire stormy experience in many areas. And how things will be a matter of skill and ability!
I would rather  hide in my cave and make stuff. That is why I love astrology. It gives a reflective view of our mythology and frankly I cannot stop..so here we are. I do and say things and my words reach millions of like minded minds..om




I know that I am held accountable for many things. To be honest they all whey on my mind and yet there is nothing I can do about the big things except do my duty always.
That is to serve on my terms.

How rich and perfect can a life's cause be?
I sometimes see all the intense glory were give and take away from one another and how cold and chilling as a group we can be.
I would rather hide in my cave and make things with my hands. Hide and hone in on my will and how that makes my brain so much smarter..yes indeed!

I have had many people ask me for more fougere's and more chypres and more lemon..lol

I am out of lemon ice again, it is nice and strong, people love strong!
 I do not care what that lady said about my old whore soap, as far as I am concerned I love her.
I forget that I make stuff for me and how that is the most important magic here.
I raise the brain in my head to create a composition based on my will to drive it to where it needs to go. Oh. it goes! Sometimes its own way :)


I made a face gele with all the amazing serum oils you can muster and just enough beeswax to  hold them together. truly something worthy of you.
I will take better photos soon. I think you will be pleased.
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 rose sandalwood

neroli frankincense

frankincense rose


Have a wonderful day and think about how awesome the next soap batch is going to be.


I am making buttermilk lavender soap for a special order. The lavender oil that I am working with  is spectacular!

clean
linalol
fresh
happy

Yes to all those things!

hello new moon in Pisces

Late Pisces at that!
I just think it is a great time to air our resentments and move on.
You cannot change what happened only what is happening.
Are you going to cower in fear and lie to get by, or are you going to open your eyes and do what needs done? That will be more clear now!
Being realistic about what matters instead setting conditions that you can never live up to and then you make up stories of how you think things are in order to make yourself feel better.
Some tell me that all that is mental illness.
I am not a modern thinker and when someone asks me if I am depressed, I do not know what to say.
of course I am. I have PTSD all over the place, we all do maybe huh?
I carry on and make good art and immerse myself in dirt and seeds and keeping my spine straight and strong.

I love this new moon. Pisces energies can really stir things up.
Begin with a clean space..clean up debris, and stir up some behind the scenes dust..it has been sitting there too long and you must deal.
I am so excited about all the boons mostly. Pisces brings hidden money and not hidden money, you'll get some and but good!
You'll get treatments and self care. Pisces needs to be clean and groomed at all times.
At home. they do not really care.

Have a beautiful Sunshine Lovely Day  where your waters sparkle with turquoise shafts of light  and then  starry  nights driving light deeply in the deepest part of your ocean...om

my best things and yours and walking dead ideas rick and what Negan said to him on the walkie...wow

Do I still love the walking dead?  Maybe, yes and maybe, no.

I am sorry Rick but your dumb choice to go take Maggie to hill top started this whole thing and I am a little bit disappointed that you would be that careless with lives..all noble for what? If you had stayed calm and put a hot towel on her she would maybe loose the baby or get better which is what  happened. She got herself better. I would have turned back and hid in the sewers until I knew what I was dealing with but you were all like , " I am a bad ass son!"

You forgot that anyone can bleed out  no matter how strong willed.remember you said that when you went back for Darrell's brother, Merle, the guy you handcuffed to a roof in a zombie apocalypse?

I mean what a dumb ass there, he cut off his whole hand when a pinky would allow passage or you break the hand, I mean something else.. Plus why is he wearing army gear and he does not have a knife or three tucked away in all places? Ah that was the past and best season of walking dead. the first one!

Here we are now then, season eight...

Glen got killed, Abe got killed and Rick, groveling and  done. Fighting still and without much sense..I was sick to my stomach when all of them  killed all those people in their sleep. 

And, and, while Rick, he was naked in that hot stupid garbage tanker thing, his boy was getting bit..his own boy! He is being a dick man! They should have helped they boy  Saddik from the get go and that way Carl could have lived another day.

Granted, the fight is real. Negan needs to go down and stay down, but sorry, he is no worse than Rick, or Maggie or Glen. Okay, worse, he is, worse.  loyalty is something even he can't master. he is a big man and yet his dick is normal, well, he just goes on and on about his dick. ha ha ha ha but what he said to Rick, rang true as ever!

The real thing that would happen is many would die, no phones, no toilet, no internet, no food, they took it. No warm fire they burned the beds in it for fun. I realize no TV story can tell what we would really do in such chaos..our behavior would change. Our loyalties would change and our language would change to comply with what needs done..we would all be more like Eugine. I would be more like Michonne Mixed with Carol..

You know my dad he retells the story of the Germans and Italians while retreating in Northern Greece, they were attacked by mountain fighters while leaving the area! So they went back to the village and killed a bunch of people.

My dad was six. 

Later  when The Greek Communists were fighting the others Greeks who were like,  "no way are we comunists, fuk off!"

Greek Civil War:

They took some kids away from their parents and shipped them to Albania to be educated and saved. They took one boy and a girl from our village and after many years they were able to retune and yes, they were different..who knows the sadness of such traumas?

During this time in Greece, 1949 there were many political radical ideas..all about order and discipline and cold rigid environments.

His dad, my grand father, was fighting for the other side. 

There were many women at home and some men were simple farmers that did not fight and the village was about 500 villagers.

Proti, it means first, the first village outside of the big city of Florina, Greece.

My yia yia, and her six kids went and hid in the hay loft, scared shitless. as they lit the hay on fire and drove my dad and his brothers and sisters and my yia yia out.

"Where is your husband?"

 They were soldiers all pissed and they were killing and burning homes everywhere. They burned all of my grandfathers books.my dad salvaged one. he was just a boy and he grabbed the one thing he thought was precious..we still have it.

When the communist  soldiers saw that there were educated people there, they burned the house down.

"where did you live then, dad?"

"We lived above the animal barn as my grandfather had built that first before the house.they killed animals too but we had a few and they kept us warm until spring"

I always say the road to survival is well thought out skills.

I also always say, I Live in Livonia, with a nice setting of homes and nice people..safe and sound from killer zombies..

more ideas on mercury venus uranus

do not make rash decisions
do not hide yourself under the rug
this is the time to shine as a doer
ask for what you want
of all that is good and pure
so much that you now are in great health
so much now that you can rest
in the evening when we can surrender
to the soft safe homes we can create and have

too many nick knack and fantasies have dragged you down
relying on the wrong dog for sure let you down
fucking dogs
relying on someone else's cape is not comfy
why not pursue a new game
where you are perfectly safe..perfectly confident make no mistake


you are the player
you are the knowledge and doer of all that is good and all that is real in your moment at this moment
and

carry a sword (swords are truths, words, ideas, representing the element, air)) they are also real knives and swords. learn knife skills!

it will help when lower weak minds come a callin' or when you need to finely dice a tomato with out too much juice on the board.




 your chariot has only room for one
that is what is given to all of us




I say sword but really we are dealing with a lot of fire, Your heart and Your Hearth at home..
feeling burned out maybe and on the positive sexy, fit, good looking, groomed.. because I mean it is masculine all day this Uranus Venus Mercury weirdness..I thought ...still looking good at all times is a nice idea. Seems like grooming  your home would invite more boons. I always find that a clean kitchen and work space is a must before any project is begun. I get more money  when I am generous to me and you ..I do. I know it.

Fire in the hearth..This is where I Think we should remember what we are and why we have survived all the almost 200 thousand years..

I wish we could look at Earth this way like a nice clean kitchen that is a pleasure to walk in to..ah, sparkly clean and happy, bread rising, wonderful old whore smells out of the warming pot I keep the gele in in order to melt the wonderful labdanum in to the patchouli. It makes a delicious black thick syrup.

I was thinking this aspect  was going to be fast . I say, perhaps we are warming up. Venus is just getting started.


Venus Uranus?
Be practical, now? No way!



** art by Emily Balivet

saraswati spring wishes shreem hreem saraswati learning memory and making the best of what you already know you know

I am very happy that time ticks through March because you know why? I can go outside and not suffer in coldness..yes..

I hope you are all well. I am taking a moment to tell you about my spring times wishes and plans..

I have had requests for an old whore balm and going forward a gnarly bitch balm..
both who I am and who I have been and what ever I am becoming in my secret soap and essential oil world.
I will now break out in a  little diddly..

Just  because  am gnarly doesn't mean I am not good.
Just because you  think all women are whores, doesn't mean we are not..it is what we were made for and now your mad
don't be mad harness that bitch they say she is and make a thing right by doing your  own true will and by making your brain be your might  where gender plays no role
so yes, be the old whore
be the deeply stunning smart funny attractive rich sultry most excellent sexy whore of whores..

lol
 I am harnessing the goddess saraswati ..I like what she stands for.
In spring time there are many rituals performed around the world. For me it is when I uncover the fig tree from a long cold winter and I pull the long fibrous matter off of the compost and burn it!
It is now that I will plant some seeds, like  spinach and broccoli and collards..
Tomatoes indoors for now..

In  astrology word has it that we have a Uranus little snappy aspect that came and went. It has to do with the metals and the money and medical surgical matters..Mercury and Venus were involved..maybe some small stuff lingers and one must attend to matters here  because Uranus has no heart I am afraid and venus wants art and flair and mercury wants to rush everything..venus mercury in general when together want to rush love and sex..ohh la la One must not confuse my ideas as fact however because  my brain is  what it is!

have a great wonderful day..


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mercury venus myths aries uranus

love notes
fast driving
lovers
clean up
energy
dependability
talents
skills

gold
everlasting
burning a road to your place that you are going..
happy
happiness

squirrels

")))

when I was 17

 I will not begin singing songs..about the past too much. I like happy songs and at my age, soft not rock or heavy metal..okay a little bit. I change as I need to. I mean no one wears their hair like that anymore! 

Always forward, always looking out and trying to take in the scenery..and change as I will it.

 To be willing and able and forgiving and greatful all because it helps my brain work better and not because of some divine reward. That is the lie men tell.

I want that for all of us..The strong will to survive and change as needed. It takes every cell to make a decision..that is why yoga and breathing is so good.

I want peace on earth and the goodness that modern technology can provide.

Yesterday I helped a lovely woman who is Jewish and to the point of not even making her own decisions because the rabbi and her husband and god might not think it is according to kosher laws..

I told her I am an atheist and that stuff means nothing to me and I still love her anyway..

Her eye squinted at me and she asked me what I am?

"I am Greek Orthodox by birth and as far as my parents are concerned, I will honor them what ever  way they want..on my own time I will honor myself."

She squinted more at me..smiling..sort of.

You will never go back  you can't go back all the way and that is why the past is and can be remembered  in all sorts of ways..dreamy, rough edged or spiritually jacked to a degree of myths..where nothing is real.

So my lovely lady..with the kosher collagen thing..

\She kept looking at her phone for her husband's text so he could approve of the chicken collagen she needs because she will not take beef collagen because the rabbi said "no"..

(People, they are consuming collagen by the bucket fulls so they can stay young looking see?)

And if you tell me that Jewish women are powerful in the home and I will tell you the same about Greek women..and yet, god's laws are all men, all men all day!

All day!

This poor creature who is lovely and indoctrinated to think that one ancient text followed to the letter is all it takes. I know that it is not really her own choice. I know because I know.

I did not debate her..

For goodness sake! No, but it is hard to keep my composure at such rigid expectations from a race of people god created to be his chosen and yet he never one time showed up to help them. he showed up when he was pissed often enough, hey??

Yup, he did and he boasts about it throughout most of the old testament...and yet, like in the story of Job, this oppression and violence continues..

Don't get mad at what I say. the truth will set you free as John said in the New Testament and all that good stuff after the pestilence and boils God threw at his people when he was pissed. Imagine that? 

I mean even Amazon Whole Foods will write you up and give you a counselling before they throw you under the bus. 

lol

Well, I am gracious as you know. I will always keep my composure at my sales job..here, it is open and free for me to say things.

I hope you understand..I see every race of people all day long with "special" needs.

."I need this because this, I need that because god, I need this because this and that and vegan, and paleo and belly fat and vegan...."

You know what you need? 

You need to breathe and stretch and not think so much about what you mean and really, not all that much on  this little dot in space, except for the good soap and creams you put on your bod babe!

Collagen anyone??

We got chicken, beef, fish, all not kosher..lol

Piscean overload with Libran moody moon

Well if it  isn't the best time to make some good art, I do not know what time could be better than a Pisces overload and Libra moon!
I must say!


Libra wants order and tidy widey and Pisces is shades of pink and grayish hues
Libra is white on white with spiritual nick knacks
Pisces has things big things under the table
ooh la la

money for sure
boons from recently undiscovered places
secrets never completely told

join us now in this Piscean fold, as we weave in and out of our super fine awareness with sparkles of scented air molecules dripping with salty tears of happiness

I love you

the story of rama sita and ravana what!?

Ravana kidnapped sita to seduce her and kept her for twelve years and she stayed loyal to Rama the whole time. That is basically my version!
Ravana gets destroyed and Rama still had to make sure was still a virgin I mean after all a lot can happen in 12 years between a man and  woman..right? Ravana had great riches and he was good looking!
She must have been pissed because she did not have sex with  Ravana,  and after Rama found out, it was all good because he said she was cool and that he had to make sure because of an ancient ritual.

Fuking ass holes..and Sita gets pissed, I hope so.
Does she get mad?
I have to read this!
http://www.bl.uk/learning/cult/inside/ramayanastories/sitaskidnap/sitaskidnap.html

In the odyssey, Penelope is loyal for twenty years and Odysseus gets to cavorts with the likes of mythical goddesses and she is the one that has to prove her loyalty? He gets to kill slave girls because some really mean cavemen came and had sex with them so you kill them all?
What the heck dude, who do you think worked the fields when you were having sex in dank caves  drinking goddess juice?
Seriously?  ha ha ha


My blend of the day..

sandalwood
neroli
rose