Friday, July 28, 2017

soapbitch 17

It is rare that I am home on a Friday morning ever since my new schedule. Waking up  at 4 is different from waking up at 5..very very strange the still of night as I wake a realize my body. I energize each cell as Yogananda taught as he was taught and as I instinctively follow along as I gather my energy enough to roll over and feel each muscle in my hips and lower back.

I then  stretch that and say nice thing unless of course I am plagued by angst of some sort to my ego and my past experiences as I have gathered them as well. I drop all that, I shed all the other peoples pain if only for a second as I make that list in my head about what is next. clean house, clean life, clean products!
This morning I am well and happy and realize once again I cannot live my life for my children and I can only nurture them enough to choose for them selves and yet..all that is bull shit..at any given point some human somewhere is in an emergency state. Maybe one of your kin..just saying, it can be draining.
My family?
I live my life exclusively for them and no one else but me and them..I always do make room for myself, don't worry that I am lonely or some weird ass made up shit about loneliness..it is all bull..work is the only thing and learning to adapt and adjust. 
My family is what it is and as far as men in my life? If there be a mate who can handle serenity life and no schemes..he'll arrive with his tools and I won't make room for  vagabonds and wife stealers! ha ha ha Bring money.
Look at 58, I want a scientist builder not some lazy ass  drunk guy who complains about everything..everyone and in hate mode..fuk off..and no porn. 

soap bitch 17..fougere

They were all nice for a minute though..my dates..all four of them..:)) see, laughter, it is the best thing!

Remember wig guy? So cute!
Remember when I had an asthma attack after cologne guy?
he was so nice and so smelly...omg
ha  hahaaaaa
yea

I am now going to do some yoga so I do not become a cripple :)
Have a wondrous day of self awareness and kind thoughts for all good people.


soap bitch 17








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