Wednesday, August 16, 2017

killer bee proplis and skin care


3 mls propolis  you have to get a  good one not full of alcohol. Propolis in dried form is available on Amazon. I have a little bit left of a rare batch.

Red algae that is from a good source.  I love red algae for the complexion. It brightens the skin and guess what, studies show that the red components in plants shield your skin further from the sun.

1/2 ounce bees wax

more or less on the olive

2 cups rich unfiltered olive oil

When I first started to make this I learned so much about propolis. It is rough and ready to serve but you must concede and do the prep. It needs to sit in heat and melt completely , low heat , in a water bath, and it needs to go clear and the essential oils are last and still, need to temper as the solution cools to a jelly.
Making balms is an art form.

Monday, August 14, 2017

my weird customers thank you

I like top shelf and that is what I like and you are and have always been the tops

you other medium shelves please step aside
you mean what you mean to your medium lives
your tacky pants and golf shirts aside

you lower shelf dweebs who think you are on fire
it is because your ancestors were ready to burn your carnal desires
your need to survive turned in to worship
of anyone who would serve you
would treat you as more
I  know your anger has taken you you to  a lower even lower shelf of
dredges and trimmings and the meat mist of your bloody requirements
no one wants those
they sit and dry out like a bad idea..get it..bad idea..thinking, doing, being a good person..

I hope your brain starts to see the reality
that we are 7 billion humans here and you yourself, dude, mean nothing

Wednesday, August 9, 2017

what is the point of making soap if you can not grow and use your own botanicals now and again

I have been making garden soaps. Homegrown garden botanicals for our nutrition and pleasure.

More of them are on the way and as much as I would like to tincture a bunch of the herbs that I grow,  I do not because I would rather spend the money on jars for you and not just liquids sitting around..I do have many tinctures and extracts already from people who make them.
I made some mighty fine sage soap and super delicious cucumber soap and now black tomato soap?
I will think on it and you'll be the first to know.
Tomatoes are in. August is tomato month for sure. Today I will test the still and see what I can make of it..

Tomato Hydrosol??
Cucumber hydrosol??
Lemon balm hydrosol??
 Basil hydrosol??

Shopping List
2 ounces basil oil
4 ounces lemon organic

2 ounces basil
2 ounces rosemary
2 ounces peppermint

2 ounces basil
2 ounces frankincense
2 ounces patchouli
1 ounce clove

What tickles your fancy in any of those scenarios?

Me, I am super okay..I hate my schedule at work and I hate the constant surveillance and monitoring and adjusting according to  higher ups all stressed out because if one mistake is made it means gray areas..Now listen this does not mean I am not happy. It means that I must look at reality and not some pretend happiness while things that make me unhappy are happening..get it? job..
It is a way to mass produce and be more impersonal than is reality in retail and business. No one is your friend in leadership. they could have been your friend before they became leaders but the air changes in a split second and you know your place.
My place?
 It means nothing and if I had a choice which I do not, I would stack fruit somewhere. At least it is honest. There is some art to it for real not just slinging boxes and crap for masses who rarely say "thank you".
Once in a while they come and will tell me how I touched their lives and how they feel so good. I am happy to hear it and glad some thing good went through besides the scan and the scans and the other scans for returns and more scans, oops, you have sign in again and again,  to see the price and another scan to detect movement so the drones can get here faster..let them but do not forget that it does not matter in the least.
Even in writing this I sigh and accept that I should not care as much. It is real the easy thing to do and we are being trained to be little box checkers..ughhhh
Have you checked the proper box today?

What is art though? What is it that we crave to be so outside the box that something like checking a little box  has us all up in a tizzy?
Well, it feels like brainwashing because it is.
While we need to be clean and efficient, we might loose some spark of joy each time we check the box as if it will give us a big will. Money! We check the box.

I used to say, "some money is not worth being made"..well..yes..which money?

I am now going to say, "money bring to me to us  good things, money loves you and then loves me and we are happy as can be, there are bees buzzing and birds singing..and winter is coming"

Monday, August 7, 2017

Full Moon Lunar Eclipse and other ideas like why July is so fleeting?

Happy Birthday Leo..ha!!!

If you have ever had a fire on your ass it is now. If you've ever been driven about anything it is now. And if you've been lazy and thoughtless, it is time to not be lazy and laxified, as if you have servants..I know, it is hard..Be a beast on the hunt. It is your best thing. Be organized and thorough, it is your best thing and do not make bad memories with people that have actually loved you and cared for you, your new friends will never be loyal and true..learn to be loyal and true yourself and do not actually expect that in others when you are already ready to shut the door on their faces, watching as they get eaten by flesh eating zombies ready to suck them dry because that is what they are for, their best thing is sucking blood.

Speaking of which, I still love astrology and it is fun for me I can detect patterns in people more than a sign as to who they are. It is all about memories and how we remember each event and how we transform that in to our daily lives and full moons are always about money for me.
Libra, loves nice tings and clean places and works ass off for the money so she can eat nice food and sleep in clean dry sheets(very important)..
July is Tax month in Livonia so I paid that, I paid the electric so we can have air conditioning and I paid the 1200 hundred dollar car insurance bill. 1200 dollars each month! Fuks! We have 4 cars on that plan and Michigan is said to be a state where there is a lot of fraud. Yes there is! By the insurance people! ha ha ha!
 Laughter, okay, because in the end it is all imaginary money and we are going to die and we have no choice in living here on earth, happened to us. Now we are here and this is what we have become. A dirty slave based human civilization based on territory, and bloodshed..sorry but it is true..ah, yes and fighting for our gods as per usual. One God my ass!
There are 4 major ones watching as these little creature try to destroy themselves of property rights..hah ha hahaaaa I have paid my fee for the next six months.thank you for the opportunity Livonia. My place is so amazing right now! The flowers the life!

Good thing we have art and music and a whole lot of veggies! Good thing we have yoga and free speech or I'd have my ass on a pile of embers..yes humans did that, for Jesus! Seriously, it happened, I am as shocked as you but there it is.
God said "there are to be no other gods before me" and then 2000 years later,  Jesus said, " I am the only way you can see the big guy, me the savior of the world" and  and then 2000 years went by and humans spread themselves all over the place and pretended to be servants of god and chastity in the home was godliness..but as soon as they made big towns where everyone came to trade and sell stuff, sex with different people and sexually transited deceases like syphilis and bad living outside the godly home. Syphlis..been here since cities were born! Pretending is something we do rather well, don't you think? Good thing we have a church on every corner though.

I am not angry, I am just saying. We do not cut peoples heads off in a good human that has to be fixed, and if I were running things which I am not, I would make it so everyone has to be healthy. This means getting rid of many bad habits starting with, that healthy food and healthy life means you are not all bound up (pun)protecting your place here on Earth but that you are able to express that in something each day, be it your job, your hobby  or you love of creating through aromatherapy...mmm
cologne,, yuk..gross and nothing they make touches your health in any way, it is an illusion set up by marketing firms who have ever smelled dirt in their lives unless they went on expensive vacations where their lives were led by servants in the hotel..yea..I rant, I know it..
I hates it. I really do!
It makes me stabby..))I work with someone who wears this yucky horrid  Halston from TJ Maxx..I walk in to a cloud of poison every day and can really say nothing because you know, apparently is is not cool, they all are used to it and I am too sensitive..well, darn it all! Sorry I do not care for toxic particles to go in to my brain because they are so small and deadly and ruin your life..sorry, fuking cologne!

Wear something fresh.
What is fresh  to me is something other than fresh to others..

 I find lavender and lemon to be fresh, lemongrass, cucumber smell...mmmm

(cucumber lemon soap coming up, I am just waiting for a few more big ones (well they do look like a penis:) so I can peel them and juice them and add them to soap,mmm))

black tomato

Monday, July 31, 2017

snake coiled on blossoms

:)one of the best things about working at whole foods is my constant and rewarding access to amazing fats, butters, oils or all  sorts and one such opportunity presented itself and I bought a bunch of Flora Omega from organic sources! (7 Sources Omegas 369)
No, for me, it is not for eating although you can take a spoonful now and again.
I used all of it. 32 ounces of a wonderful mix of glorious fatty acids..
  • Derived from 7 different sources, including algae, flax, evening primrose, pumpkin, sunflower, coconut oil, and sesame
Very nice indeed! For, it is the sesame oil which nourishes in such a comfortable way. Here we have also added, organic red raspberry seeds..finely ground and red and soft until they get wet..then they offer a little bit of a sandy feel..

The snake theme you might be wondering about..

I cook up what my mind throws at me and this time I me and you... be aware of the reasons you strike out. Don't waste energy and work smart. Know you are protected because you are always listening, watching, learning..
You are always serene and dignified..always excellent, 
Protecting your domain is a thing because as you know a nice place to rest your head  with a clean bedding is where it is at! My snake is coiled  and resting on my blossoms :)
I have fed them and they responded by giving me what is big and most grand
beauty beyond what my words can convey..

(by the way, it is not a real snake, it is the energy you create from your core self. It coils itself all the way up or gets stuck way down there where it feels good and drains you of optimism if lingered there too long..)

Sunday, July 30, 2017

soap recipe # 2800

1/2 ounce orange blossom absolute
1 ounce blood orange
1 ounce lemongrass wild
1 ounce bergamot
1 ounce petitgrain sur fluer
4 ounces organic distilled lime oil

manuka honey
organic red raspberry seeds

soap base
organic sunflower seed oil
organic sesame oil
organic pumpkin seed oil
algal  oil
Schizochytrium oil 
flax oil
olive oil
organic coconut oil
organic evening primrose oil

Make soap  as usual and let the goodness flow.
Soooo Good!

Friday, July 28, 2017

soapbitch 17

It is rare that I am home on a Friday morning ever since my new schedule. Waking up  at 4 is different from waking up at 5..very very strange the still of night as I wake a realize my body. I energize each cell as Yogananda taught as he was taught and as I instinctively follow along as I gather my energy enough to roll over and feel each muscle in my hips and lower back.

I then  stretch that and say nice thing unless of course I am plagued by angst of some sort to my ego and my past experiences as I have gathered them as well. I drop all that, I shed all the other peoples pain if only for a second as I make that list in my head about what is next. clean house, clean life, clean products!
This morning I am well and happy and realize once again I cannot live my life for my children and I can only nurture them enough to choose for them selves and yet..all that is bull any given point some human somewhere is in an emergency state. Maybe one of your kin..just saying, it can be draining.
My family?
I live my life exclusively for them and no one else but me and them..I always do make room for myself, don't worry that I am lonely or some weird ass made up shit about is all is the only thing and learning to adapt and adjust. 
My family is what it is and as far as men in my life? If there be a mate who can handle serenity life and no schemes..he'll arrive with his tools and I won't make room for  vagabonds and wife stealers! ha ha ha Bring money.
Look at 58, I want a scientist builder not some lazy ass  drunk guy who complains about everything..everyone and in hate mode..fuk off..and no porn. 

soap bitch 17..fougere

They were all nice for a minute dates..all four of them..:)) see, laughter, it is the best thing!

Remember wig guy? So cute!
Remember when I had an asthma attack after cologne guy?
he was so nice and so smelly...omg
ha  hahaaaaa

I am now going to do some yoga so I do not become a cripple :)
Have a wondrous day of self awareness and kind thoughts for all good people.

soap bitch 17

Wednesday, July 26, 2017

I wish I were a soapy kafka but all I am is a soap foam bitch

He wrote a letter to his dad and it was like if you only knew what I went through whilst you were being a dick my whole life..ha ha ha
Ever read Kafka?

I am still on Laurie Garret's "Coming Plague"..oh my though and what an excellently written book on all sorts of modern bugs and bacteria..I am on Lassa fever..
The worst thing about lassa  if you go to the local hospital. 90% death rate and much lower if your don't go.
You see, until a few years ago the hospitals were really sister run missions and they re used the needles without sterilization. You know because god will protect from deadly microbes..not!
Finally and even during Ebola they did not sterilize.  300 a day injecting each person who came for anything. And then they came from Lassa fever and boy boy oh boy..they came with or two and then 50, more 200, 300, re-using the needles..
"sisters sisters sisters!"

As far as me  being a bitch, yea, kind of.
Libras. We do not mince words we mince garlic to perfection, we step up when needed and we do a good job, we are always working and until we are not, then we rest and think and learn and ponder. and if we ponder on you and I   and how we touched our lives, both, our space in time and our pages in our heart's mind, then you know us.
We do strive for balance and making up our mind  may be hard for which oil to use but not really.
There is where we can  allow some of the wretched pain and agony of my humanity transform in to some thing that touches one's soul as they allow themselves to anoint, nurish and soothe each cell of their skin as they cleanse with warm welcoming water....mmmmmm where by I get to bask in  some vibes..what can I say, but, "I love my life!" I love everything and the flowers and what they do and how they speak though each washing,

soap bitch 17

Monday, July 24, 2017

lessons on love

I do not understand how couples can live for years and years together when there are so many ups and downs. They do, and some are perfect. No secrets and no judgments on each others morality.
When you create boundaries right from the start, you allow yourself to have reasons to do what you do. There is a reason to everything. Your reason, not god's or your partner's.
I sure do enjoy the freedom of not answering or expecting others to make me happy.
I have really come far and you know,  it was work and mindfulness and my mom and my dear friends..I have a couple of them.

I mostly see couples struggling when   the  other partner begins by sneaking around..
sneaky purchases...sneaky friendships with same sex comrades who love sneaking around...
sneaky conversations and finally the internet and porn..and oh, the  crying after they get those TV evangelists who get caught smoking crack with a whore in some hotel and then cry and cry..
There are people right now waiting to have sex with you. strangers who you can call and Skype..and your wife  or husband is sleeping in the next room. You do not even have to go to a club  or take a shower..just take your clothes off and take a selfie and then send it to a stranger waiting for your penis or vagina.
 shocked are ya?
It is all true and how do I know? Because I am out there speaking with maybe 200 hundred people a day and ten of them will tell me why they need gaba, kava, and ps 100 which is phophitidil serine and it makes you calm down from the angst of not being  in a true love life. Why they can't sleep and most importantly which product will make them prettier, happier and more content with their lives.??Their comfy money keeps bad people together though.
I am not here to talk about all my customers, I am here because I see how we are changing and  whether I like it or  not I need to review in words.
I also lived it when it was brand spanking (pun) new. I cried tears and tears with every apology.  I escaped with aromatherapy and meditation and while my "true love" was all night not writing and not creating and just having more sex.
Why do men do it?
Why do women on the other  end?
So it is we??

When you hear,

"I am sorry.." more than one time, third time, fourth, .yea..true love...

when you hear "because of you I did this..."

"You made me do it because I was hurt over something you did ten years ago.."

"I will bring up up every time I get caught  order to gas light and support my lie"

"I will cry and cry and say, sorry I have a problem baby"

yes you do

I used to think my man was worthy because of the in betweens that were so spectacular. The in betweens of poetry, literature and philosophy, martial arts..all my best things, you know?
Am I still hurt over my marriage not being the nirvana that I thought we were both practicing? Less and less friends..less and less...

Less and less and my only regret is I put so much money in, so much that was wasted on a no account who lives by manipulation and control mixed with fear and loathing...and all the bibles and Jesus and Gogananda and Lahiri and Shiva and Krishna  and karma and prayer and quotes on all the best things..was not enough, never enough is it?

What is most interesting here is that I am not special. I was shocked as all hell and I was not the only one suffering with this topic. Most women keep this a secret as not to shame the family..
You are worried about shame?
I get it.
It is almost better if they had committed a felony other than what they do and are are becoming..eventually these habits and addictions become dangerous and do become a felony.

I love you.

Open your eyes and see
do not fear the future
you are worthy of so much and it is coming and your body is propelled faster and faster with the way your are shedding all the heavy weight off of your shoulders..
hair flying
fitness and hard work to your goodness..
always smiling you are because peace
true partnership
that is rare and good and should be always so

Sunday, July 23, 2017

friend to all

real convo


him an old dude from the old country (no, not Greece but close enough) Old men are the same from there and  I am counting the produce guy at my store too ..old country mentality..

"anastasia, do you like retarded people?"

me, a little stunned
"we do not use that language any more and besides you are religious talk to god, he made everything and you are supposed to love it because of him, god I mean"

him, "why he do that then?"

" you mean god?, Because he is a jerk, what do you think?"
ha ha
I laughed and he did too for a second

"don't say that!

"why he already knows he is a jerk and will tell you! Read Leviticus!"

Their gods are jerks! Having little to do with our lives and yet  given all the credit. Having little to do with our choices yet given the authority.

Another long week yea? We are fine and dandy my friends and yes, some things hurt us and makes us cry but at the end of the day our behavior  and our words are what memories are for.

be stunning
be kind
be honest
be excellent

do not be a control freak
your last word means nothing
your loud proclamations are are a figment of your angry imagination

be stunning
be kind
be honest
be excellent

Wednesday, July 19, 2017

Recipe Notes Lavender Tonka Fougere

I am so excited to offer a fougere' soap each time I make it.
Fougere is a blend of lavender, clary sage, patchouli, oak moss
I know right!
Just those four are perfect but one can really go far with forest fern blends and we should go further anyhow..

here are my players..

Organic lavender oil, Bulgaria and wild French
Super fine aged patchouli oil
oak moss
tonka butter
balsam fir ( just a touch)
clary sage
I will add kaolin to smooth out the texture of the soap bar so that each time you use it, it will be a pleasure!

It will be ready one month before the eclipse..
we are intending
health to all
wealth abundant
clean life
happy home

 Other ideas flourishing in my mind,
Cucumber Lime Soap
Ground cucumber seeds
organic lime oil

Fresh clean scrubby, astringent, refreshing..

Goodness follows me
Wealth adorns me
feeds me
keeps me safe
kindness and peaceful nature is easy for me
I am a friend to all

ya'll we have one month until the solar eclipse on august 21st..okay let us attend

Virgo New Moon
Sun In Virgo

Saturn retrograde in Sagittarius.

oh boy..

Well really, it is good in any event. Whatever you have achieved until now, it what it is.
here is what you do not do.
Stay mad.
Blame others.
Become an ass..

Here is what you do do. Work, decipher and make up your own mind on what is best for your situation and that sometimes means walking away and not  carrying some one's shit. enough guilt and shame too. More work, more doing.

Virgo is about change and becoming useful. Not using people..using your abilities to nurture. It can go both ways with the Virgo notions. I have seen Virgo men do nothing for years. How they can hibernate that long is beyond me. Virgo is the hermit. This can be the wise sage who knows nature and lives as one with nature or it can be a dirty old man in a cave peeing in the corner..yup. (sorry, my village mind never stops)

That said, I am not predicting the future. I can only simply allow my brain to look at patterns when these aspects happen.
Saturn retrograde is one thing and it has to do with higher learning, higher ideas means less violence unless of course you are all wrapped up on that religion which is ridiculous and does nothing good to help humanity.

I feel like enough will be enough one day because as our children have learned more about our universe than we ever could have and they are learning at a faster rate than we ever have..this means higher beings less concerned about sin and more concerned about, fed and healthy..

Do do on the Solar eclipse..
be grateful
be happy
be clean
be cleaner
wash your face
make some good bread
make a dish to feed your kin
expect all the good
say thank you
I love you
I am so sorry..
say it three time a day until then

Have a really good day!

Saturday, July 15, 2017

parenting and other July ideas

There are sales at my shop you should take a look at and there are more ideas lurking for future facials.
Facials are trending for us  because guess what?
You can have all the great perfumes and body creams which I love and then you still need to wash your face and make it perfect and soft.

I got a little extra money and I spent it all on (not all) oils. I bought a whole ounce of white rose absolute. It is going to be good, so good. I know because I have high intuition and I have loved every rose oil ever that I have ever tried and used like ... a whore!
I am very happy!

"this is what I wanted, a white clay that does not have any color, I love it!"
a quote from a mask lover I know.

 (her name will be announced when the oil gets here)

It is simple.. you can make your own two parts clay to one part each ground coconut and ground garbanzo. mix well,  set aside. in small bowl add one tablespoon mask mix and a little olive oil..olive oil only for face washing.
Next mix till creamy adding slowly more olive oil if needed and then add manuka honey and your oils lavender is nice for sure but then you know..white rose absolute!
I am adding rose. Just rose and one drop or ten ..we have an ounce.

I know what you might be thinking about the absolute on your face. one drop baby and it will really disperse the clay nicely and hold the scent together.
As for myself, I like rose and I want it on me and not like a little bit.

This blend should come with a bath oil accompaniment and of course a little nugget of soap. Something that will be dense and horny..oops, I meant a  little thorny. :)
Rose is about love and open heart.
Rose is about tenderness and beauty beyond the heart, it the the penetration of the soul and the sting that goes with that feeling how short lived it may be unless you are like me and drag it along for years and years because they taught you that to do otherwise is evil. You can only be free knowing that it is not. Pull your thorns out right now or they will fester and infect.
I say tenderness because rose needs more care that most plants in your flower beds. The wild ones are great but they can get overrun by weeds and morning glories with their gorgeous flowers can choke and kill many a rose.
Same with people I recon!
Think about the fleeting romances we may encounter that turn out to choke us. This is why roses need tending in gardens. That is why mindfulness is where it's at.

Did I say break ups and fighting from Saturn retrograde? Calm down and chant or sing what ever you like..
Om gum ganapataye
( I sang it to my tomatoes while I watered, they love chants.

It is for breaking obstacles to our growth and that means some things cannot be mended. Break away from your boundaries and become something and not some fuk laying around all day because you are depressed and want to die. Fuk off die if you want to but don't lie around. Who do you think you are Caligula? We all have things to do and you get to lie around being sad and mean because you feel really bad? It happens right? I know it does!
ha ha ha
Not very nice of me to talk about depression..

Look here anastasia
every day I visit and tend and chant here. it is my best thing this summer..summer of love 2017

Monday, July 10, 2017

Summer Of Love 2017 Mid July Specials

It sure seems lovey so far. I like flowers and comfortable weather. It is hot though and has changed a bit  seemingly drastically this year. I feel it is hotter on my skin and can only take an hour in the garden mid hot hot and I have to go  and do because the cucumbers and squashes and can die just on one afternoon from that hot sun and dry soil. It dries the soil see?
Love garden ..I do post photos Instagram..I love Instagram!
eleneetha aromatics

Yesterday I made some summer of love she wolf with all the wolf madam's gorgeousness notes..

There is kaolin clay, garbanzo flour, manuka honey, coconut flour, all organic right>>then there is 365 extra virgin olive oil..great deal food grade and delicious in a salad..I usually use the oil we are eating at the time so we are sure I am serious about olive oil. I put frankincense, I put loads of dark thick vetiver oil and green as can be and  geranium rose oil and a few drops lavender and course, patchouli.
I feel like the density of the bar if not at times ugly as sin ..sin..we are not born of sin, some dude said that and it stuck because people did not wash themselves after sex or any other hand tricks they had..sin...? Take a bath ass!

With Saturn retrograde you might feel like you still need to work on something. Maybe your life is going nowhere. Go somewhere then but believe you me, everything you need, you already have. You already have me and good soap. What else do you want?
(personally I am obsessed with she sheds.."she shed")


Saturn Retrograde
There are many break ups and people leaving us. It is good to grow and it hurts us. Be very careful of your words and how you treat your loved ones..some might say enough is enough. I prefer way less drama now than I did ten years ago or twenty if I am honest.
I have been through and met many people and when a man says you are crazy and need meds after being caught cheating yet again..and you are crazy? No my are normal. Of course it is not right   to be a cheating abuser and most of us get that more than a lover who cares about what is right..then again, you start talking ortho dox and things get too rigid..and people do and believe what they want.

I just want more dirt for tomatoes and more sandalwood for bath oil and more myrrh for London and palo santo for Alex..yea..sigh and I am sorry your lover did not turn  out the way you wanted.
Focus on what is next. Touch everything and don't be cloudy.
Think about how you can do anything but don't think too long so that you are not doing anything but passing time. Time ticks.

Saturday, July 8, 2017

the human spirit and my view of its potential

Yesterday great things happened. I got to learn my job better because i like money and then I had lessons time with viruses. I had actually read this book twice in costa rica and now I am listening to it. It is a documentary on how some viruses just crop up and what they do so quickly.
As soon as the creature attaches itself to your blood, it is basically over unless you live and then with severe problems.
Any how, if you say that these viruses were made to kill a population of gay people you are wrong friend. Seriously, "they" who ever they are, would not risk their lives and many who had to died because no one had seen this type of organism..such as Ebola or Lassa..there are more..
Malaria is not completely abolished nor is yellow fever and its cousin dengue fever..
I had dengue in the jungle it sucked so bad! It is like your eyes  become so heavy, you feel every nerve in your brain. You sleep you take meds.
By the way it has not been that long since we they discovered how viruses actually work. Science is real and so exciting.

I was thinking though about the human spirit wasn't I?
Well what strikes me most is when they find out one or three of their own start dying, usually  missionaries in a remote village of Africa somewhere, the people they send to study what happened. The really brave ones go there and wrap themselves up and study these killing creatures that are alive and not alive until they are in you. Many died when exposed like those scientists  that did not even wear gloves  when they just got the samples..sheesh!
I myself, do not think there is a dr evil somewhere planting killing creatures in remote caves no has has been in to for maybe thousands of years or more. I mean besides monkeys.

I love learning details about things..and so I observe the human spirit.

Earth herself is so amazing and alien, I wonder why we make up stories?
It is because our human spirit wants to be on top and to be cherished and loved and not dead. Not dead by an alligator at the river and not dead by dangerous means. dangerous men, I mean. dangerous men who shake hands and secretly plot for us to keep what we already have.
Men who rob and cut us and men who yell and pound their fists when they  know they are wrong because they just do not want to say, "I am so sorry."

Let us please focus and come back to what our potential is as women and mothers and lovers even.
Mother wife loving whore bitch dick suker jucy warm smelly of vetiver, spices and amber and all dick sucking should be..
Woman who nutures and grooms her ape and woman who cherishes her daughters and allows her sons a good bye..
"go, be a good man" she may say and not "get the  fuk out of my bathroom you fuk!"
No, she will and might never say that.


Best quote of all time so far...this was regarding a photo of my grandson I had shared on the face book..
Send him to me so that I can see him better. Then bite him and put him up on my shelf 
Bella Neahr Ayers 

Monday, July 3, 2017

It is real as can be and hot and things are summery

I have made a beautiful soap with manuka honey  and extra virgin  avocado oil. It is honey, sunshine and regal poses by the flowers!

I have also created a few  scrubs for the face that you might love with manuka honey and white kaolin clay with a little grit from coconut flour, organic of course.

Scrubber number one, here manuka honey, kaolin, argan, marula and oops :) palo santo and much myrrh in a cleansing base of extra virgin, small farm olive oil with a little sediment.
Southwest Spirit Of The Pheonix..

Scrubber two will have manuka, extra virgin olive oil, kaolin, coconut powder and essential oils of petitgrain and bergamot witch will come with a vial of argan marula oil..nice one! 
Wild Tropical Minx

Scrubber Three...num num num
vetiver, frankincense, geranium rose with a drop lavender one drop:) num num num
She Wolf
this comes with a vial of perfume oil made of the same rich and so nice!

let us attend my friends 
to all the is rich and helps us bend
to our own will of fortune and wealth
born in our own mind's eye
our hearts mind
let us attend to nurturing our selves  
become what we already want what we already have
what we already strive for and as always
touch everything with love and creative fervently rich forces

Monday, June 26, 2017

I am more conservative than you are

I cook and make soap and nurture..and yet, you,still think I am a "goddamn liberal"?
I make a garden and feed all my kin and talk to my mother and my sons and yell at them for being dumb. I work until I can't stand "no" more and then  I lay down and rest. I read and listen to people when they actually talk to me and not yell insults and crazy ass fits..get over your self. you cannot behave in such ways is what is and should always Liberal, huh??
He called me that and it was the last straw!
Yup, I guess so, because no matter what I say, you will not change your mind.

You are more liberal than you think.
We all are.
Sick? Doctors! Roads, water, to your house, toilet, where did he think that shit comes from,  oops, I mean goes? I know right?
Instantaneously? Like god made us!
One guy said to me,
"You sound bitter.."
I am a little that you get to sneak  in a corner and talk about how bitter I may be.
It is not bitterness if it is not you then?

Women need to step up. accelerate the pounding of man gorilla brain pounding his fists at other man gorilla brains as whose god wants more blood?

Wait, you are Christian and your god is love..I keep forgetting that part when you talk like you do.
People say that maybe I am stirring the pot but then I always have even when I was stirring another one last year..ha ha hahaaa I am just trying to figure out when I insulted you most? Was it when I said all religion are like children's stories and serve to intimidate..make humble and bind to a creed.

Yes of course you are in my prayers. My meditations and focus on what is and hopefully may always be your good..please flourish so that you don't get mad at me when I say things. I mean get mad, sure, do not say mean things and not use  my looks or some dumb weird thing. or feeling like "bitter"

Tell me right now that the hurt remains for past swords from your heart being too open and someone guts you like never before..How did you feel and still feel the pangs of hurt of someones hate toward you?

Guess what, I once got my ass kicked because they said I didn't love Jesus enough.
Guess what, once I wrote about shea butter (years ago when I was blue lotus moon)and because I said an adjective about the women in Ghana and how gorgeous they are and I got my ass beat because I was deemed a traitor for loving black skinned Africans! True story and if you think I should be gracious about that. Sorry!

To say that I hate Christians is strong. I do hate that they have committed many atrocities in the name of their god and for them to be noble and more noble than me..sorry, no again.When you put a scale in your mind like that  it never turns out,  "oh, you don't hate Muslims as much as "us"..therefore you are evil and liberal! "
I have aid it before, it is more like children's games than real life..

I guess I  am tempted a little to tone down my ideas but I do not know if I can. I will always want to share good news like how fats works and how soaps is made and how science is how! You computer right now is science and was never instantaneous. And if you think Donald Trump is your friend? I hope so. It would be nice. it sounds good but be aware, Mussolini also wanted  to make Italy great again. He started the Catholic Youth with the Pope of the day..right, many years ago was that?
Not many and we will change. Italians today are done with the wars. It messes with the ragu and how the pasta is served. I hope so anyway..I wish we could all just grow our food like the past and work and be a nice planet of rich healthy happy people.

Thursday, June 22, 2017

pulling the lettuce and making the way for onions.

I have been harvesting garlic and basil and dill and that is about it. My vine friends take time to spread out. I am training them to climb with things they were throwing out from work and my usual little nik knacks I like to put out there for the tomatoes to rest on. This year, hay and straw. Straw to hold moisture and hay to smell sweet and green. Think of sweet grass. hay is like that except when you have so much hay, you can jump on it? Am I crazy? You can put a soft blanket over it and look at the sky or the night stars making their journey through time like us. I would do that in the morning,like right now at this moment, it is 3:30 am. The only time I can be alone away from too many people to  be able to think of how much I love them all.:)

A recipe

fresh garlic
fresh dill
fresh basil
olive oil
put these all together in a blender and use with anything you like..grilled portobelloes and almost every other grilled delight.

I am not vegan, I was vegan and turned it around.
I have a friend who always brings up his ideas of perfection and said vegans are better people than meat eaters.
He can bite me because I am a fuking stellar human. and who is counting?
I bet that guy never worked a farm in his life. He never worked the ground. he is afraid to touch things. Americans may be afraid of dirt. i am not sure though:)
Who gets to decide what is sinful and what is not sinful?
Does your sexual past have really anything to do with your current love?
I hope not because if so you are bound by jealousy and hate from the get go.
The love part will fade in to bitterness and agony because you may not have gotten what you bargained for. Things change and your lover is really an ugly demon here to suck of of your good, your goddess, your honest, you worthy, your clean efforts.
Or at my age, men, well many  men are fuked up and still think they are young but too many drugs and alcohol and staggering has become habitual and here we are.
I will stop cussing maybe..:)

Today will be good. I will work
I will think
I will ponder
I will not stink like a fake cologne with ozone ugliness..ozone?? Why???

Monday, June 19, 2017


summertime thangs

I was thinking about things. I am sort of studying brain stuff some more and it makes me think about my inner brain and why I think and do the things that I do.
Why I am never really lonely unless too many people are there then I am lonely, really lonely because I know I stand out. None of them even have a glimpse of what a bad ass I am, have been or will continue to be as my badassery is my my secret and my stand.
I am learning my job better, and as you may have heard by now, Amazon bought Whole Foods Market. I am now an employee of  a global company. Coolness and whatever man!
 How do I feel about the sale of my beloved whole foods? Meh! Soon drones will scan vitamins and body care right in time for me to bank on my retirement savings and just make soap. Yes real people still want real soap made with good fats.. Corporate details are what they are.
Move along. I make money there and do a job that soon will be done by a robot and they like me so much they let me stay and talk to the real people that come in with every fuking complaint.
You know why they are so depressed? They are so fuking bored from doing nothing good that they come in there for a reprieve and comfort. They have nothing to do because money alone is not enough for happiness, you have to keep learning and learning and not be a lazy fuk, wondering who., next,  will do your thinking for you so that you don't even have the knowledge to get on google.

I had a letter written on the web site of whole foods requesting information on why toms of maine roll on is not available. Seriously? You already went to the internet to contact me. Go to Toms and ask them! Toms's roll on really? They made a new one 5 years ago. If you like it so much, why don't you know that? I am just sayin'.
Also if you are the type of guy that shops for his "queen"?? Nuff said about that kind of talk!

The new moon is almost up on us. This is a time of learning and remembering everything you learn. The new moon in Cancer.  It is about keeping what you have, allowing some  secret works to develop in to real usable skills for the next three months which will lay down the pathway for the next three years.

Wednesday, June 14, 2017

there are good things everywhere

I love this time of the year. Here in southern Michigan, it is has been unusually  hot and dry. No rain for days and now they are telling us that our water is not fit to drink. "don't worry though, it is nothing serious. just drink bottled water for a few days until we fix this."

What do they need to fix?? Well,  (well) The water levels dropped  because of the high temps and now all their chemicals are concentrated. they do not just say that in plain English. Contaminated with bleach and dioxin or what ever other poison they try to use in order to satisfy the ignorant masses. Who are these "they" any way?
This is what I am asking.

Water and food is what drives all mammals my babies and we are said mammals too. Because we are aware of ourselves is why we feel so special.
Most humans cannot even accept evolution so it is easy to sit in darkness and let others lead the way.
I would rather be in the fray, the out of the way, the developing secretly mammal  female to
works hard to make it right..for her little fray friends..:)
I am drinking bottles water by the way.

How about that? Imagine no water..
no baths
no soup
no clean underpants against your ass
imagine fighting to survive
no food store near by
to eat a breakfast or make a nice tea no sugar
no clean shoes
no phone to call your mamma
"mamma" like Lambert in that cartoon show
walking miles to get pails of water.
Imagine if you can and if it hurts you just a little to even think it..yes you have heart and
now, you can open it to share your thoughts your ideas and your art.

Monday, June 5, 2017

notice something?

My writing is getting better. At least sometimes. I know I tend to go off and rant but that may be my best thing in writing. I am not sure. I like poems too.
Like the one I wrote about some of the Patriarchal slime that lead our world as they always have, with violence and greed about their gods.

I called it Patriarchal slime because I heard a friend use that term about some leadership in our towns and head offices..

I might have to change some words but it goes like this..and when I say is raspy and low voiced beatnik sounding..

Patriarchal slime,

:) patriarchal slime I see you all the time 
your head held high 
because god is on your side
your shoes all shiny because you have it all
just as long as everyone abides by your own man made laws
the time has come for you to face
and not feel disgrace because your god does not care about you so boo hooo
pretty boy

I wrote right before all that stuff on the news about London and the fuks who are randomly killing innocent people who are living their lives.

I have told you before and believe you me, I hate the religion, all of them, especially  Islam but Muslims here in Detroit are fine. They work and are trying to make a nice home and make money and live a decent life. No one seems mad when I talk to them. Oh, and there are a shit ton of Jews down the road. A bunch of Chaldeans too..all from that region and yes, I find some of their habits distasteful like their constant "honey" but well, Greeks are obnoxious too..Oh yes, they are!
Their priests wear long gowns just as much and well, they also work near each other all these different people.The difference with western faith is that the priests wear that shit only during ritual, the rest of the time they are normal looking unless they have to wear the thing on their neck just to say who they are..subtle but still as poignant. The Greek priest I know, looks at his job as a job and has a family and they travel and look pretty in pictures. He seems normal except when he came top pray over my dad in the hospital that time when papou fell down the stairs, he said, in perfect English, "here John, this is myrrh fro Jerusalem" and he put it on my dads forehead. I reached over and asked to smell it..
Fake and so fake! My  dad thought it was golden myrrh from the most holiest of places. I said nothing. They know God but do not know the difference from real myrrh and a fake toy made to fool children! is true though.
You walk away from something like that in deep thought. Are we better because we review and change as need be?
I think so.
And I have said this before about how new generations do not want to live like that. They want music and dancing and nice looking hair and not just for dad and brother to see..creepers!
These few idiots who think they can change earth to their views are but a small spec in time. Future humans will remember them for what they are, apes with no education. because once you learn, there is no going back to make your self believe, you are in knowledge already, willing and open to all the best things for all people.

Saturday, June 3, 2017

hello and thank you

The more I read, the more I am grateful. I am grateful about my life and my heart's needs always being met.

Remember cologne guy? Well he dumped me because he does not want to dump cologne. Sigh..I mean on the one hand it was nice to have a dude fawn all over me and I know none of that is real. I have been around the block a few times and so I engaged to my horror. It is horror when these dudes come sniffing like they do. I  do smell nice and well, somehow Uranus struck again and I am in this weird friendship which secretly I found a little gross because it is so outside the box for me to engage with men.
I am a monk and I like it.

"Mom where are you going"
" I am invited by Ted to go to a movie"
"mom don't go, you won't have fun" They all chimed, their friends who come here often also rebelled at the notion.
" already said yes, Ted needs me right now, he is nice, I want to see if i like it.."
"you won't, mom, you know that."
Later,  I came home all perclempt and displaying asthma symptoms from the cologne. I thought it was Adrenalin and it was actually his perfume which choked me for two hours. Why would someone wear such heavy cologne is my question.
I don't know but I asked him to wear nothing and he got pissed of course.
I am sorry..I have issues and he could not adjust.
Needless to say, I am traumatized by the whole thing.
I can not imagine fishing for dudes like that and having to drop people and get new people because of some angst and loneliness thing that needs filled. Awe.
I am not lonely. I have never been lonely.

I think the thing is that I am a witch and men get scared of that.

As well they should be as I am not to be trifled with for too long.

"do you believe in Karma?"
"no I do not, I relate to the law of cause and effect"

I am Kali
I am Durga..

Thursday, June 1, 2017

Hello June first and how are ya

Do you know me?
I am not your native nor your blood
we are the same though
we are made of star dust and churned particles made by heat in our star,
so hot so so hot :) Like your hot bod babe!!

We are the same and should not be troubled
yet we dwell and dwell in anxiety and worry about silly little daily things that wreck us

We cry over our hair and our legs and our varicose somehow if we pretend they were never there we can actually make it happen by this "belief"

we love pretending as babies and to carry the tales of children to our adult years, we all do,  we want that and do it..
our fairy tales are just bigger and have a bigger price.

yes like karma in like reincarnation..
"anastasia, I am shocked, you do not believe in reincarnation?"
"no, I don't, does it really matter what we may have been?"
"yes I think so, that is karma"
" maybe it is "revenge"  dressed as free will and or karma?"
He walks away, pondering why he even talks to me any more..ha ha ha..
He wanted that all to be true we all do we all have.

have a wonderful day and remember how amazing we are, how smart and how go, have a  good dream in the deep darkness of twilight and make it a wealthy one a healthy one and where good  will to all reins."_)))

Monday, May 29, 2017

frankincense patchouli soap

I made some really nice soap for just a few of us.
I have really gorgeous patchouli oil right now and so as I was making some heavy duty  soap blocks I took a little of the soap base and put these oils..

patchouli big time so much that it is dark. Sometimes I am heavy handed.
choya loban

Right now,  I am getting is frankincense but I am immersed in clove and almond from my zanzzy nuggets I just!!

I have been in love with coconut milk. The kind in a can, so smooth and creamy, yea? I put it is a soap base  and it becomes so soft and creamy as I mix.Very luxurious.  It really adds a texture to the base as soon as you put it in. This last one, I used a  double cream coconut milk. Gosh, I am so in love.
Sweet yet no sugar added so you can use it as a topping on anything you like. Even as a dip with just about anything.

of course as i am, you can put it in soap.

Organic coconut milk soap base
organic coconut oil
organic olive oil
organic coconut milk
clean water
activator  n(mms lye calculator)( grow up, sodium hydroxide is what it is, a catalyst..otherwise you can go and melt blocks of glycerin soap.)

Thursday, May 25, 2017

I love May

It rains and the flowers are the most smelly. I have a lilac that one can smell about from the street. It is so sweet and good.

I am well and happy friends.
I hope that you are too. I am making a bunch of soap for Martha at The Well in Cape Hope. I love her. She has been with me for a long time and always gracious and generous we are for each other. I feel that way about all my  soap partners. You! We both make an investment for our skin care and it shows.

Etsy has changed a bit so if you have problems with the shopping cart let me know. I have had some glitches with the whole thing. Not bad but enough that I had to go and make a shipping profile because they deleted all of them..
who cares, it's over and I am awesome to be able to fix and not be a dumb old person who can't figure out

This week in soapmaking:
patchouli soap galore
patchouli frankincense rose geranium..oh man..
coconut milk shea with orange blossom
lavender patchouli  (moss on neptune)
cinnamon blood orange with ylang ylang and cocoa butter

There is a sale on the "euc pep" because I want you stay stay cool and wash your feet when you get in your bed.


Sunday, May 21, 2017

I colored my hair

laughing as I say this because well, for one year as I was growing my hair our out, people started to treat me differently. Truth.
I am in sales and do not wish to go and ruffle feathers of customers by not only my unfailing demands on their brains but just a\the few who are just mean in the first place.
"I am evolving"

I will likely let it grow out again or completely sheer it off.eventually, men hate that. Hair is sexy!

By the way men, just because Donald Trump is president and  likes to grab pussies, it does not mean you now get to call women more names than before! "cunt", 'Bitch" I have heard them twice this wee alone from men who shop at my store when they were referring to women. It is a trend when it is that often and I am keeping my ears open. Excuse me but, am I wrong to demand respect.
Men have been dicks though and we said it often enough and yes women can indeed be it just words then, or can they hurt us in a most deep and humbled way?
I am needing a sit down think for that one.

We must be something more you and I! We must strive to greatness in the most subtle yet profound ways.
We must endure our anxiety and not think for one second that we are safe. Nothing is forever. You have these moments right now to make some good memories. A twinkle in your eye can make sparkles appear for everyone who catches a glance directly. It is a beautiful thing and spreads as easily as anger.
Of which I have against all tyranny..hahaaa

Saturday, May 20, 2017

everyone loves cake

Madeira Cake

6 ounce butter, sugar, four eggs, a whole lemon peel, 7 self rising ounces flour 2 ounces almond flour..bake at 350 for 30 minutes or so..there you have an every day coffee cake tea cake and that is that.  it is like pound cake for dummies..and that is me. Now, lets us have a cup of tea!

I am good and doing well. The kids are all good and the garden is evolving nicely..
evolving, it the same really..Work is finally almost easy. I the
 only woman buyer on my team at 5 in the morning. The boys are on my ass all day.
"are you buying what you need?" "did you take my scan gun?" ( i did because they would kill mine and then leave m e with a dead scanner while they were all acting territorial.) "yea you want to fight me for it?)"
 I took all the labels off so they couldn't see
 which gun they were stealing. The caught me and I told them why I did it. Now and always,
I have a working scan gun. I made my stand and did not cower in fear. It helps that my  boss is 25 years old, smart as fuk and always polite..yea our life is okay. Would I rasher be tinkering in my  garden all day and making soap all day..dang man, I already do that..yes, dear ones, I am fine..sore a fuk and fine fine fine.

While we are aging we are evolving but if you use it to explain your actual age, I will think you are shallow ..just a little.
"we are the same age dude, you are aging too."
A close friend, close enough..
"I am evolving"
Me, that is also aging, do you really think you can stop it?
"I am evolving, Anastasia licious," that is what he calls me..ha ha ha
"okay but growing old is life boy"
He is grumbling now and pretending he has work to do so he does not have to face his lonely penis at  night..(okay, that is wrong to say))
It is so lonely that after years of being lonely, if he does ever get
 a real chance at a 24 year old, he might not react as amazing as in his porn dreams.
I find that men my age are really still randy and yet every day work tasks take their toll and at the end of the day, it is more work and the next day of hard work comes fast.
For all of us.

I think that women get trapped by what society worships so much that we color our hair and yes, we have evolved. We are doing men's work because it has become universal. You strength is not that required anymore in the service industry and most packages are made to be able to be lifted by anyone over 120 pounds.

I do not really have a point to my story only that I look and I observe and I react just as always, by bluntly pointing out ideas that may hurt some peoples feeling, better that than some lie made up pretending.
That is why I choose healthy
fats and healthy skin care.

Yesterday, I had an interaction with a girl, we will call her Maria..I mean yes, she asked a question which was pertinent.."is there alcohol in your cleanser?" "do you give discounts to first time buyers?"
My feathers get ruffled when money comes in to a discussion because it is already 13 dollars..I most likely loose money if you count the 2 dollar bottle and carrier I drive 60 miles to buy because I want the best things. I said i do not discount first time buyers and that I give a sample or two.
"which ones?"
Howe many?
I want neroli mist, rose cardamom soap as my  samples"
Uh, no I don't cut already cut soap and that one is expensive. Nor do I typically give oil or spray samples...6 emails later,
Dude!! something or not. I do not negotiate like some gypsy. Plus it is 13 dollars and now you want the rose and the neroli and the vanilla cream and the pluto potion as a sampler the best one, " can I have a sample of the blue oil if I buy the blue oil?"
It is funny as i write this but at that moment, I got ruffled..not mad but for sure like, okay, I deal with this all day at my job with customers who want to return a shea butter with one fuking swipe in it..whores!
lol again
I think she was so excited about the products that I may have misunderstood her enthusiasm for cheapness. I am not perfect you know. But if you cheapen me, I get frosty. I am worth more that 13 bucks and so are you babies! Ask for more!
I want 13 thousand!
ha ha ha

Monday, May 8, 2017

I am still here

I think about you every day. You the ones who love my soap and my words and what ever else you love about me me

I work at 5 am now at my job most days and so my body had to adjust to the 3:30 am wake up time in order to recover from the last day where I worked my ass off and pounded about 5 to 10 miles depending and maybe a few up and downs to upstairs.
"yes, we all know I work hard" I am saying to you..
 I think I am more calm about it now and so a little more suave about myself and what I am required of at my job, at home and maybe with a man..I am not sure.I am fine either way, honestly. devotion to one's family leaves little
room for trifles and I am not talking cakes here, although that does sound lovely. With fresh straberries.:)
Some have been persistent enough..look once you engage with some one, is it about understanding their shit and I am tired. It is like you feel their pain and I am in enough of body hurts yo! lol
When you engage with someone they may tell you of their pain and more. They need to share, we all want the comfort when someone actually cares about us. Be aware of moods  in your chosen company. They may rob you of your good thoughts. Be honest and caring as much as you can. and, and, it may be your cologne making you depressed. Use essential oils and not perfume from the store. And don't spray that fake stuff on yourself, it is poison. what the heck?

Instead use an oil mixed beautifully by well seasoned clean hands, anointed by these same oils for many many moons and ready to make your skin feel like it is glorious.

I am mixing a nice little body  butter for summer today.

Shea butter, tonka butter, vanilla co2 total by ananda apothecary at 12% vanillin, sandalwood and patchouli, also a drop tobacco and to loosen things up, I will add just enough prikly pear oil to make it like silk.
I wore this all day yesterday and yes, my ideas rose to the surface. I find that when I wear sandalwood I get more money and more money means more oils as I am so generous to the product. It is everything and always has been. Why stop now?

Saturday, April 22, 2017

hello babies and big giant sunshine

In a near by town here in the Detroit area, there community of highly religious Muslims that  hired a crooked doctor lady lady lady lady..woman, sister, mom, I am sure she is a mom too, to perform female genital mutilation on young girls, seven years old... well, they tell the girls that everyone gets this done and they must do it. Normal and horrid in modern times , wouldn't you say?
We we have done it to boys too since the dawn of what men in robes in the heat with no books and no idea about atoms, decided that this is the way to treat babies. Seven year old girls! Oh? And three day old baby boys are not that shocking?

And now to the serious and meditative part of my story..
It is cold here and it is becoming a nice day after all. Every day the sun is more and more brillant. I love this time of year.

Now to even more serious stuff to think about..

"I enjoy our conversations. Your cologne is too much on my delicate sandalwood, How about some sandalwood  for you with a fine patchouli?"

I should I say that. How can someone who knows me want to wear some fucking thing with some fucking sharp chemical they pretend is citrus or amber or ambre or noir or Tom Ford with his over the top ingredients..some really good and then he gives you brain chem log syndrome (made up word))?
I am greedy for the best things which means real oils any thing  else is out of the consideration.
It is crazy and so evil to each other and the rest of humanity. It represents a falseness and pretending where what is fashionable is presented by one small group and people just flock. The boots with the tights..missy, you have not seen a horse in like ever in real life. ha ha ha I don't care is ts only poignant because I see so many people all day and there is a look at the market.

My look is natural and I am a crone
I look to have accomplished my mindful goals
my reasons for living
my gratitude and joys
my riches beyond my requests
I can relax now with a notion that I know know know what I want
It is comfort
good food
great family
the fuks
I love them all so much
guess what, they smell the way I want.
real real real
really good.

Thank you I love you for not smelling fake and horrid..thank you mom for not cutting my vagina and dad for busting your ass for  mom, She is the queen of our home for sure.

 I want that which I already have. I have so much and more is coming.

Wednesday, April 19, 2017

happy and safe

I have had less and less  to rave about for about a month now. I have  been reading and digging dirts.
ha ha

I made some nice things though. Rose Cardamom Soap  turned out so nice, I sold every one of those. When I am good I am very good. I rove a rose with labdanum too!

I have been very thoughtful of you. Of all the things we have been through together and how it can be years since we have spoken and when we do, it is like yesterday. We are drawn together though a silent web of ideas and thoughts and intended invitations.
I love you and the way  you get me and when I say that I mean some want to get me so I can hear them out and l listen to how they suffer. ha ha and I mean to kind of chuckle here..
Don't forget how we all suffer the same but in our minds we have more sadness and sorrow than others unless you see the others suffering, the real suffering.
Not why the traffic is bad or the boyfriend is a jerk.
The  ones who have pain and loss, hunger and bloodshed..everyday and every hour on earth the violence continues and here right now we are gratefully safe and well fed and so so so happy.

Today I will prepare and amazing meal and a nice new batch of soap or two. I once made a soap with ground nettles and I think it will be a nice one should I maybe choose  to make Nettles and Moss.
You see, I have been pondering on this new very funky lavender oil from France. it is odd and I love it!
Why soap with nettles? Nettles are rich in chlorophyll, silicates and other very health nutrients. It is nice and smoothing on the skin.

I have been getting many requests for more scrubby soap.

Lime Vetiver Afternoon Special..

Lemon OG
Blood Orange

One big hunkin' body bar and an oil..mmmm
It will come with a vial of oil
so very soothing, soft
and oddly lingering with a sweet tangy finish from the vetiver having blended like velvet with the lime.

I hope you have a wonderful day and think of me with laughter and awesomeness!

Monday, April 17, 2017

mending the fences and letting some go

It has been a working time and cleaning up for spring and summer rains to bring more flowers. I love it.
forget me nots
black eyed susan
I have planted seeds and I am stacking the plantings by two weeks in order to stack the harvest times. Last year, I composted a ton of them and that is okay because good dirt!

There are so many varieties that I might have bushels of tomatoes :):)
Greek varieties and big giant heirlooms like "hillbilly reds"
I have an hearty Siberian tomato. I planted brandy wine (pink) and all the black tomato varies I could find.
I planted the basils by the softest part of last year's compost  where they will be free to get as big as they want.
This week I will plant onions and enough so that we can have fresh salad by June..yea..I planted lettuce, it never does well for me..maybe this year it will be different.
I must say it is so magical to work with the soil. My mom says my soil is beautiful and I might agree. I am in awe of seeds though. I started the tomatoes indoors and they hated it. They popped out all right but nope, not enough light. we tried a strand of LED lights and $20.00 later.."okay let us put them outside."
It gets cold at night. They are still alive in their little green house. I do talk to them every day.

I planted all kinds of quash and pumpkin. I am hopping they wander any where they please. Pumpkin Pie is delicious. Ravioli with a simple  pumpkin filling made with just enough good goat cheese, its lovely, delicate and pleasant in your mouth. I want some right now made with a pasta rich in eggs. mm
I will also plant water melon and I will let them thrive in the sunniest spot of the place.
The vines are to me, just the best. I ordered a Japanese squash  variety which I might just put at the beginning of the place and let it just hang its fruit like little orange lanterns.

you are my orange lantern
you brighten my day the way  you attend to your tasks
you lighten my heart the way you look at me with knowing eyes
my knowing heart
my gut wrenching mamma mind ready to
break up
smooth out the dirt
pick out the bad parts
they come out of everywhere
repair your boundaries
build them with core  strength
with core control
with mindful memories
mindful trust
it's everything we like god to be
it is us together though  as one mind working some big giant fire pit so hot and so deep and so much stuff it continues to spew out that it is black and still not it that the layers are so wide in between..there is an ice cold void made of some thing, unknown dark matter dark energy us.. only 1% of everything. We think we are so much, so important, because we know about us, as far as we know now..and it is a lot and not that much in time. 99% of everything that lived on earth has died off and they lived for long periods of time here. We as humans have evolved to now in just about a couple of million years..
from a little rat like creature to a naked ape..the bones tell a story.

What is going to be your story? My story? I am telling it now and maybe I will tell more and maybe less.
Sometimes I remember vividly things I should forget.:)

Friday, April 7, 2017


I see the moon and the moon sees me
I hear her voice of eternity
her luminous rays reflecting silent truths
desires met with little force
riches had and lost just the same
what is her time but an eternal game
she makes us play
while we carry on and while away
the hours during each new day she brings

happy spring

Thursday, April 6, 2017

bubble bubble toil and win

don't say trouble say let us see when
say you are  fine and finer still
is the way you take care if yourself and your will
the way other people remember you
I hope some of your *swords just swiped by some of the times
it is about being an idiot I know
it is about cringing and laughter in the memories blow so quick so sorrow full
it does not matter still
resentments are bad on the *gall bladder anyhow:)
and who needs that business

**gall, as to something that you can be sickened by or hate on

karma and witches

It is not karma I fear but my dishwasher breaking down and if you tell me we are meant to be together it is because I  want it that way. How come some things are meant to be and the bad ones are never "oh, I know we are meant to be that is why we know each other."?
People say it all day and it pauses me to think on it.
Are we really? Or are we drawn to situations based on our desires and activities to get what we want?
I know, it is hard to think on it but it is true. What we do from here on is what matters not what we used to do.

The thing with witches that I can not abide is the pretending we are these long haired beautiful nymphs on a mountain with the wind  in our hair and our inner power strong like fire raging towards the sky..I love it and it is not real.
I wish the man did not label us so. We are strong only because we birth and heal our children and our generations continues. We are really strong in that. We carry the burdens of men who bring blood shed and grief. Men, who must control the money, the wars and the the roads.We have women who build on that in order to fit in the manly structures and in that women have been indoctrinated not to say what is the most obvious things..I will
I will
I will
The real power with in is our will. The way we manipulate and exceed in our own expectations..right?
I can not just take it and say nothing.
It is not because I am an atheist now..I think I am and I  know for sure it is okay because I can integrate my knowledge to make the best choices, for me and my kin.

sigh..the suffering of boys dancing for dirty men holding their dicks! Yes it does does and those are the men worthy of being in the temples! I mean really! And we all say that every one is equal but really fear for our lives is why we comply.
The  way we make women in to sex objects in every advertisement..yea, we do. and no one really looks like that. No one. I can always see beyond the plastic boobs and can't hide from the sun babies..the light of day shine on your true faces..our true faces.

Speaking of which witch which..
I am right now bathed in eternal scent of rose choya and burnt oranges..I am safe. I hope you are too.
I love you!

Thursday, March 30, 2017

aromatherapy times of year and how we change without even knowing

I hope we are all intending to be smart about it.
I hope we can look to the future now and smile a little.
It is hard. It has been a really emotional year for many people.
Everyone's true colors came out in a way didn't they?

Let me tell you a little story about a gal named ann
they told to call herself that because her whole name was not american enough.
They told her the words to say and the clothes to wear and she tried to find her path out of nowhere to somewhere. They tried to mold her in their hate
they tried
they tried to lie and make her recite creeds
they tried
They thought they could preserve the old ways if they tried hard enough, they can never do that because of evolution..

When my great grandfather came to this land in 1913 he was alone. There were some friends here to greet him maybe and maybe not. They gave him work in a diner and he worked and worked and saved money to bring his family here. some came in rags with no money and a few grains of seeds they smuggled in because they treasured their seeds and their foods. they brought us their food and still can except nowadays we only want their food and not them. We only  want to uncover their women and kill their men. 

Vengeance on Midian
17"Now therefore, kill every male among the little ones, and kill every woman who has known man intimately. 18"But all the girls who have not known man intimately, spare for yourselves. 19"And you, camp outside the camp seven days; whoever has killed any person and whoever has touched any slain, purify yourselves, you and your captives, on the third day and on the seventh day.…numbers 31:18

And you are telling me being a feminist is evil? Really?

It is always as before, men fighting men and teaching women to be wretched to other women.
Is it really a sisterhood then? It can be, it can be an humankind and  not some new group to fight an old group.
I am  a feminist and I am a raging whore and old whore because the whore, she has had to fight, she has been beaten and worked to the bone, she has created beauty in many forms..many many smelly forms....Be  not a killer but a fighter with more and more desire, fervor, mindfulness and glory of being..

clean life
wonderful smart smart smart think
self aware think
kindness think

killer bee proplis and skin care

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