Saturday, October 7, 2017

boil and bubble as my cauldron sputtles along

I am right now in the middle of a project distilling myrrh. I ordered a kilo and well, we might as well use it up. It grinds different than frankincense. It is softer and harder at the same time. Once ground up, it feels oily and even buttery.
First, know this, I am not even close to being close to being a great cook or distiller but I say, it is wonderful to try.
I try hard as we all might know. I make good food so how else could this go?

Myrrh. I want to tell you about it and I want you and me to experience what it is.
very smokey at first
I almost thought it was too much you know?
As the steam built up I could see the drops of water coming down the glass tubing and allowed it to continue. It has been about 3 hours so far and we are no where near the end point. The water is thick and oily. I smelled it till 2 am on my hand..the left one, the one I try things on.
There is a bitterness to myrrh. that is what breaks down some of the hazy daizy days from our brain.
There is a softness which came later as the material broke down and became steam..a little sticky.

Myrrh, further more , is very calming. It brings a calm which makes one understand without having to proclaim anything. (by "one" I mean me))
I find myself wanting to speak but too tired to admonish

(some lady came in and gave me political cards so I can put the president in jail with her))

"please, no, you are not going to make me hate anyone" I thought, and took her card as to be polite and threw it away later.

I learned that phrase from a smart person. it stuck with me.

The witch says nothing until it is her time to speak, I will  get better at this.
Speak to your higher self, it never defeats you.
For sure the time will come when you will
you will,
myrrh is about moving forward
or so we say and  the time to cast is here right now and every day

you will speak what your heart says and delight to the highest realm of your realm
tell me this, what does your heart say?

the witch she has will
to cast ideas
to create  a platform for wisdom
being quiet
eyes that weep, yes
they will  borough in to your heart and find your truth without words
the kinds of things that make a home where heartfelt and loyal love abides over the sorts of
testosterone raged vibes.

The time is near and nearer yet
the darkest night
the time when you face you shadow
love the dark one inside love the lighthearted  ideas you might always describe
smile at me more often
I hope you do
I am going to check on my brew...



Monday, October 2, 2017

Samhain Casting fall and the big stuff

I will try to contain myself. I will try.
I am going through my mind to choose what products I will highlight this season.
Samhain is going to be awesome this year!
I am getting the fire pit ready each day but gathering wood and baby, I am going to light that thing!
It will smell up the neighborhood with holy water and frankincense sizzling (continuing to sizzle) while I dance naked around the fire chanting, "Oh me my  goddess with in, rise up and win me over :)rise up and spread your fire in every hungry cell, burn out any dark thoughts of fear and fail"

I have been distilling frankincense. I order it from a man in Yemen and he ships fast. @lubanfrankincensesupplier  DHL is expensive, yes  and  his selections of frankincense are wonderful. I say, I can't stop now!
I only got about 1 little of hydrosol out of 16 ounces of frankincense tears. Maybe I am using too much per cook? Nah!
I am calling it a cook because it really is a long time boiling and steaming and dripping and smelling wonderful silky notes of piny, churchy, holy like..crisp, peppery, deeply tell me.
Hey, I was raised in the church. There were nice things about the rituals.

My hungry cells are yearning for your reality, your honesty and never could be jealous or vengeful. Those things bring only sadness and hurt feelings.They always do..see? You can escape and still observe them as wrong and never right.
Also, and they say this in every language, you are who you run with. Must be why I have you still loving me after all these years.

 I love you. I want to always please you and bring you smelly things so that I would rub your hands and your feet
I want to nurish you with words that fill your mind
I want to show you that being kind is being kind
always you  see, they are in your mind
what comes though your lips has weight
what comes from your heart has pain
from longing and desire
and feelings of things  you haven't even felt yet.
Throw them in the fire!

The Hojari frankincense tho..dude! I don't know, I am so in awe of distilling it is crazy.
I am right now cooking the last of the ground of (goo) of frankincense (crack). After hours of cooking, this material becomes like glass almost, like candy. It is crumbly and crackly and I have been dumping it in the fire pit where it will burn clean and with the wood and make me so happy you see?

Casting is casting, it is planning and thinking and quietude.

Sunday, October 1, 2017

"hello" chilly fall nights and new ideas for skin

I like stuff that helps my skin and makes me smell good. I know, I am making lemongrass soap and even using it. See, we can all change and love everything if we want to.
It is wonderful on the skin. So open your heart to lemon grass!
It has raspberry seeds..yummy..

I say, the old whore is brilliant this batch and if you get one, you will be washed with something freeking amazing. I sometimes cast that batch for a longer than usual time.

Organic Vetiver Soap
One of my best batches ever.

Casting, collecting your thoughts and collecting the ingredients which form small yet profound realities..

Casting, spreading rumors not based on reality and only to promote yourself.

"Unknowingly" Casting To Manic Crazy people.."saying every thought" and then wondering why the wrong impressions about you.

Remember about this, every experience does make you smarter. so that you never should never have to engage on dangerous grounds and then cry if you're  hurt by the sharks or the manta rays that can dig up any crab beneath the sand.
(We are all  but food and sex..another little rant idea  right there :)
We are in an ocean of everything and you and me are but a smallish spec and where we all (Earth) are is a small blue dot in space filled with dark matter which holds us all.

Casting is now, it is developing higher skills which retain the thoughts which we mold in to realities.
Casting is being in a secret and hiding for a while. it is honing and it is becoming real. You are real, that is for sure. You are what you always wanted to be. right now. You should be proud of this.

(Fromm Walking Dead ideas)
Remember when father Gabriel said things about  Rick and tried to make him look like a dick in all of Alexandria and Michone had to knock him out because he was in a rant and all covered in blood from fight with the porch dick?
What was he thinking when engaging with the married woman? Dangerous waters my friends lead to facing real dangers.
Rick, he got it together and really got sick and tired of having to constantly bow down to old standards. he chose to be who he is.
I am not Rick and the zombies are in my own head.
by the way, the smartest fish live by hiding and planning their activities..
I know I have been watching a great show about sharks on Netflix!

Saturday, September 30, 2017

hello my beautious lazer mindz

don't be sad about the truth
laugh and laugh super hard
like a penis

You can say those things in your own blog, huh?

Look inside right now, in your head. Stop reading this and pick out the thing you are gnawing over. Do you focus on that one thought and cry as it tears through your gullet and back  to your gut? That is right there, that is Adrenalin and if you can master the rush from that poison or what people call the flight response, that, is what one might call enlightenment.what ever that means. Enlightened, Seriously? To what? When our star will goes red giant and melts us all in to smithereens or when we collide with Andromeda, there may be some problems?? No man who is here meditating in a cave or dead  as a saint can stop that. That is truth..anything else your brain may have conjured up is hearsay, I say.

 play smart and work hard
like a penis

Sunday, September 24, 2017

I saw you

In my dreams and in my mind I have visions what you are and who you are..In reality  sometimes and maybe even often, they fit:) to the truth, yes they do and you are super sexy, you do know that, don't you?

Recently as always my life is so fast and tightly packed in, clean life, family, oils...the grass. The tree they cut down and left it here, the fuks, :) Now I have to call them back to finish the job, that is the trick.
Sometimes having  a stronger physically, mate can be helpful. My husband was like that, where no one would try such, I expect and trust and smile and love and they think I am weak and they get to cut down my tree. I have been laughing about my naivete' all day. It was like that one time I was in Nicaragua and the taxi guy, in the middle of a two hour trip said I can get out or pay more money to get to the town..he smiled too. I gave him another $20!

Today I have  time to nurture the eleneetha in me and you..

Here is my menu at

A great bar of soap, and a perfect after oil for just about anything you want.
That is how I have been training my business. It has to be. Great skin care is simple and should always as much as you can, be organic.

I want to make more money for sure so I can buy some of the oils I am reading about. I love petitgrain sur fleurs; Citrus aurantium var. amara (synonym of Citrus x aurantium L.)it means the leaves of  distilled with the flowers. It is expensive and so good with patchouli! I love it on a man with a bit

The oakmoss with rose soap is gone I think..maybe one left that I have tucked away for someone would would like it.

I did make a fabulous oil for that blend. I will post that and more this morning on the menu.

Rose, vetiver, oakmoss, patchouli and a drop cedar wood..deep and little dirty, a little bit.

It lingers, the rose gets all dirty and it reflects a mood that we should all have. The dry down should be sweet musk mixed with pheromones  of one's unique mixture and it is. Warm, smokey, confident and real.
Dirty Rose Perfume  Body Oil

Monday, September 18, 2017

ideas and more Tatanka and Snake mounds

Tatanka and my snake mound. I love the way the word rolls off my toungue. Tatanka!
this is alfalfa and clover so I can nurish my mound for next spring..

she faces the snake and shows her rare beauty and says .."you live here too.."

there are so many bees here on this sweet autumn joy  sedum..bumble bees , honey bees, sweat bees..all loving this juicy one is fighting.

this is the snakes head and somehow a squash made its way in her head..

Respecting space and providing health to all and abundance to all..!

No, I will not dress up as a native american this Halloween. We all know what I am and pretending anything is otherwise.
Last year I made a joke when someone asked me what I am dressed as because you know, black dress, great hair..
I said, I am dressed as self confidence :)

Compared to most common men, I am. I know you are too.

Willow Witch is scary too..
she is kali and divine mother
and if you should swoon at her blue lotus feet too long
she may appear as as a snake slowly entering your true hearts mind
is that what you can want from her?
do you need the heart to be understood and then accepted as if "yea, I am am very good. I am doing good and feel really must mean divine"
If each thought has power to make electrical impulses and spark in the brain and spark a thought and a memory.."think" what is and what can be and how you are the master...and, how it is happening right now and you are you and there is another you in there running the stuff you are not even aware of..the other you inside..yes, say hello and pull the strings that must be pulled.

take a deep breath, hold it in, exhale it and open the eye above your brow inside there where it hurts sometimes to address the demons, your  dug in deep thoughts, that reside
to unfold and allow to  unfurl hidden secret longings of which you may be too afraid of their if a dragon escaping from a rocky crevice..
take another breath hold it
breathe out
not everything is  about you
and always about me

Wednesday, September 13, 2017

Raven speak

"There is a raven that comes to the tree above my grape vine
we often speak to each other
he calls out to me and I to him
he knows me and  he chants my way as he perhaps warns me of evil men
or to say, hey I am so glad you came now I know you'll dig some thing up for me
now sing me a song  lady mine
 bring me fresh water
bring me your sweet time"

I love rose soap in winter. I love rose soap anytime actually. real rose. no department store fakeness!

I started this recipe on etsy and never had time to write about it. It is complex because I am complex.
I really have been  so busy and yet aromas and soap are never far from my mind. You are never far from my mind.
My thoughts are about you, your movements and your stride and how you almost float with grace and poise..
I love the way your hair smells when you hug me. I know you are in my mind when I can inhale your vetiver and rose.
Is there anything more simply adorable?

I relished in the intriguing way the solar eclipse sent me, prodded me and as if a wind blew over me, under me and swept me in to a realm that while acquainted with, not realy privy to parts..yea..the world, making it and sharing the love from the top down..ah the top down..ha ha
Rules handed down by "experts" on the proper way to comply 100% and much used term lately in every memo..
Mark that little box and get on with your life is my conclusion. I don't know about you. Yes, they freak me out a little but every thing is about money as you as you walk out your nice big door.
The lunar eclipse came and exposed all of that..that is the common side of moon worship..every side is worthy of our time, yes?
 Yes but I want to make things and talk about it and make more things after that. That I how I plan my escape from the common. I linger on my plans, my secret plans to make something ridiculous and mind blowing. can I? Sometimes I feel like when I wash with a soap that explodes with a beautiful scent all over me, I feel over the moon with delight..the patchouli cacao soap makes me so happy at the moment. It is simply glorious to the moment.

 Raven Speak

I hold it in a long as I can and it  just burst out..all the feelings I have kept on guard as I channel the rose in this way....
 a beautiful cabin in the mountains with trees all over the place and a long cedar and oak tree lined walk way to the main entrance which is lined with roses at every step wildly climbing over the natural arches of oak trees and stone fences. It feels like a tunnel of deeply musky and airy at the same time and as you step out you can breathe in its simple beauty.

 I have a black almost black  vetiver and I have the most exquisite oak moss like ever in my whole life and there will be a few drops of this organic cedarwood oil that takes me in to the Virginia mountains. The scent of trees fermenting in the top soil, the perfume of mist in the air mixed with sweet fir and tangy, hickory, and fruity paw paw.. it has its own smell, each forest does! Like when I lived near the beach in Costa Rica, the smell of ylang ylang on certain nights was like a drug!

This is the North and winter is coming..:) Raven Speak                                                                           Rose Vetiver Cedarwood Oakmoss Patchouli...incense notes.

Wednesday, September 6, 2017

I hope you've enjoyed the full moon so far

Full Moon

Things build up during the full moon cycle which is right after the new moon cycle and that one was a solar eclipse and everything went from summer to fall..just like that!

The full moon shines on how you are scraping you stunningly at times glide through what might be tragic situations.
I feel that yes, as long as one intends and diligently makes dreams begin to become reality..there is the transition.  It is like passing from fire to metal and ice. In this case earth (Virgo) through mud and water. (Pisces)You respond how you respond to those things.

and always mindfully?

I hope..I know this, it is that  speaking your mind may be  the key to freedom and  I feel very free here and this blog anyhow. :)

What do you think about this below?

One of my artist daughters is displaying her art at a  street fair in Detroit , Dally In The Alley..ha h ha

I made these for her, for the fun of it...


I am a willow witch or at the least I aim to be
always learning to bend
always l;earning to control where my roots will attach or how they will spread underneath all the unseen wilderness of expansion
am I nothing but a photon then taking millions of years to break free and realize 
yet again and again
I am part  of everything
I always have been

Dally In The Alley..:)

I do not dally I am afraid..when I am done, I am so done..I rest like a queen Let the young ones do this for divine mother...
me me meeeee
willow witch of the not very north

Monday, September 4, 2017

peace contentment and knowledge

Labor day :)
In the olden days I would make a bunch of stuff and talk about it. I have no free time at this moment in  my life to ponder too much on too many complex notions I may have been brewing up through the year. or two..)))

Here and now is where I stream line my motivations and make really outstanding products that touch a you are showering and wondering how an ugly bar like this can send you off in imagination land where you become a new person instantly, thinking and sniffing, inhaling hard on the goodness.. it should be..:)

Something smokey for our special time?
Something resinous and rare and a little creepy dahlings?

Let us intend!

dragons blood
more dragon
dragon's blood runs cold
dragon in my eyes
I leaped over the dragon's wings

lets us intend our final orange blossom journey
I have only a little bit left,,orange blossom white rose body cream..mmmmm

Let us intend our righteous power, our undeniable connection to something greater than words like hope

mastery of our minds is beyond such silly notions
be in control of each idea
each thought
each "why"

Be a master of yourself before you look out there for someone to lead you.
It feels really good to be taken care of but that is must nurture you body and  your mind always and then always use pure essential oils and actualized your thoughts with each breath a little closer to peace, contentment and knowledge.

Sunday, August 27, 2017

Hello Virgo

We are already shifting towards the harvest. I am going out today and picking all the peppers and I will pickle them for the winter.

lady soap maker went out one day
 to see if her garden grew
she picked all the veggies and the cucumbers and onions too. the garlic, the juicy redness and meaty tomatoes and she sang them a lullaby too. They love that. She thinks they care about her.

The days grow short and mid day gets hot and the nights are crispy cool
condensation adorning each new bud..they will not make it.
you want them to
they try
you both cry
take a deep breath
and here here is where hope makes its  preparation
where minding what is real becomes easy
where clean up is beautiful and everything you touch becomes more gorgeous each day
where sparkling light makes you seem that way because your thoughts have transformed you in to this moment
your face so peaceful
you close your eyes and breath in all the good, your body tension leaves you and you can accept what you  have here and now..right now..
and yet like a sweet just forming bud, too late in summer, knowing this , accepts and yet demands true space in space..your face is adorned in the same way..each line be it deep or just forming.

lady soapie went out one day and knew her garden would grow
she put in the time
her hands dirty and sweat glistening in the sun
there is no way it wouldn't, you know

life is a garden you hands and the things you touch your fruit..I want sweet juicy ones

and now here is my real poem
about moles

something lingers
lingers in my garden
its sweet little teeth taking sweet little bites from my tomatoes
He leaves little tooth marks on each one that is not ripe
he goes for the juicy the sweet and the ones I would keep
he dug a tunnel  right under one such fruit
he just ate from his front door
so cute
he begs for my pardon

Monday, August 21, 2017

and what a feeling HAPPY SOLAR ECLIPSE

How interesting that this last week was a doozy, yea?

This is rose of sharon, or wild hibiscus..I love it and they tell me it grows like a weed and I am glad. Let her cast herself across my whole yard. she  is really stunning! 
Her flowers, they close at night and open with the sun. 

Glory! Perfection! Pay Attention, be free of fear again and again!

Be stunning and be real
Be happy that you are here
what ever is divine
let it be what it is
nothing to do with you for sure
make your own divinity I say
what ever you want
make it real with each thought
with each thought, transform it in to a real idea
with concrete value
with loving intention
with hands that linger on the good
with mind that proceeds with reverence for nature and her beauty of which you are one with..


Saturday, August 19, 2017

you made me cry

guys get something clear and I mean the few very sexist men I have encountered in the last month or so.

Please and Thank You!

 I will say anything I want and you do not get to be all do not get to make a ticking time bomb over a topic.

you do not get to be offended by my words about your religion
cover your head, I don't care
your vestments mean nothing to me
you do not get to treat me worse than any person in charge
especially your gods be they real or imaginary
you do not get to spread rumors about me
you do not get to treat me like a  servant
you do not get to engage in conversation
that only leads to war for any of the above topics
you do not get to be mean to everyone just because you are having a bad day
your mom may be dying  or whatever is weighing your mind..there are many things which weigh our minds
you seem to think it is way to be rough with people and you create drama and bad hurt feelings
who do you think you are, Caligula??

ha ha ha

sorry I had to bring this to you as I approach my 60's but it took that long to find words to reply to your unkind racist sexist what supremacist attitude.
I have known and not necessarily  in the "known" sense,  vile white men and vile black men and they all had a penis, they loved that thing and they still do. I am sure!

talk about everything yo

Thursday, August 17, 2017

back to school feels real

It has been a nice summer yea? We have all been working on something and it has been received.
Received..yes..have, has, been, gotten, there, and in a profound learning rush, received all the things coming to us.

I have been honing in some some temperature issues and the dry weather all summer has surely effected the time and reason to make things.
I am not in such a hurry to just make, but when I get that alone time the, oh so beautiful witch time..yes it is good and works like a perfect storm.

This is now, this is the time )
to look at what is up and clean up your work space
don't cheap to yourself iether
it can come quick as an opportunity and then you are like "oh, what should I do??"
Well, don't just take whatever comes like a leaf in the that seed that makes so many new seeds for the next a field of what ever flower you want to your own made proverbial seeds and then..go out of the weeds and stop crying all day..

Think of me, at four in the morning..:) here saying, "hello, you look great, you are great and you are doing great!"

My beautiful friend said it best..
"I don't care, you are not making me hate anyone!"

Wednesday, August 16, 2017

killer bee propolis and skin care


3 mls propolis  you have to get a  good one not full of alcohol. Propolis in dried form is available on Amazon. I have a little bit left of a rare batch.

Red algae that is from a good source.  I love red algae for the complexion. It brightens the skin and guess what, studies show that the red components in plants shield your skin further from the sun.

1/2 ounce bees wax

more or less on the olive

2 cups rich unfiltered olive oil

When I first started to make this I learned so much about propolis. It is rough and ready to serve but you must concede and do the prep. It needs to sit in heat and melt completely , low heat , in a water bath, and it needs to go clear and the essential oils are last and still, need to temper as the solution cools to a jelly.
Making balms is an art form.

Monday, August 14, 2017

my weird customers thank you

I like top shelf and that is what I like and you are and have always been the tops

you other medium shelves please step aside
you mean what you mean to your medium lives
your tacky pants and golf shirts aside

you lower shelf dweebs who think you are on fire
it is because your ancestors were ready to burn your carnal desires
your need to survive turned in to worship
of anyone who would serve you
would treat you as more
I  know your anger has taken you you to  a lower even lower shelf of
dredges and trimmings and the meat mist of your bloody requirements
no one wants those
they sit and dry out like a bad idea..get it..bad idea..thinking, doing, being a good person..

I hope your brain starts to see the reality
that we are 7 billion humans here and you yourself, dude, mean nothing

Wednesday, August 9, 2017

what is the point of making soap if you can not grow and use your own botanicals now and again

I have been making garden soaps. Homegrown garden botanicals for our nutrition and pleasure.

More of them are on the way and as much as I would like to tincture a bunch of the herbs that I grow,  I do not because I would rather spend the money on jars for you and not just liquids sitting around..I do have many tinctures and extracts already from people who make them.
I made some mighty fine sage soap and super delicious cucumber soap and now black tomato soap?
I will think on it and you'll be the first to know.
Tomatoes are in. August is tomato month for sure. Today I will test the still and see what I can make of it..

Tomato Hydrosol??
Cucumber hydrosol??
Lemon balm hydrosol??
 Basil hydrosol??

Shopping List
2 ounces basil oil
4 ounces lemon organic

2 ounces basil
2 ounces rosemary
2 ounces peppermint

2 ounces basil
2 ounces frankincense
2 ounces patchouli
1 ounce clove

What tickles your fancy in any of those scenarios?

Me, I am super okay..I hate my schedule at work and I hate the constant surveillance and monitoring and adjusting according to  higher ups all stressed out because if one mistake is made it means gray areas..Now listen this does not mean I am not happy. It means that I must look at reality and not some pretend happiness while things that make me unhappy are happening..get it? job..
It is a way to mass produce and be more impersonal than is reality in retail and business. No one is your friend in leadership. they could have been your friend before they became leaders but the air changes in a split second and you know your place.
My place?
 It means nothing and if I had a choice which I do not, I would stack fruit somewhere. At least it is honest. There is some art to it for real not just slinging boxes and crap for masses who rarely say "thank you".
Once in a while they come and will tell me how I touched their lives and how they feel so good. I am happy to hear it and glad some thing good went through besides the scan and the scans and the other scans for returns and more scans, oops, you have sign in again and again,  to see the price and another scan to detect movement so the drones can get here faster..let them but do not forget that it does not matter in the least.
Even in writing this I sigh and accept that I should not care as much. It is real the easy thing to do and we are being trained to be little box checkers..ughhhh
Have you checked the proper box today?

What is art though? What is it that we crave to be so outside the box that something like checking a little box  has us all up in a tizzy?
Well, it feels like brainwashing because it is.
While we need to be clean and efficient, we might loose some spark of joy each time we check the box as if it will give us a big will. Money! We check the box.

I used to say, "some money is not worth being made"..well..yes..which money?

I am now going to say, "money bring to me to us  good things, money loves you and then loves me and we are happy as can be, there are bees buzzing and birds singing..and winter is coming"

Monday, August 7, 2017

Full Moon Lunar Eclipse and other ideas like why July is so fleeting?

Happy Birthday Leo..ha!!!

If you have ever had a fire on your ass it is now. If you've ever been driven about anything it is now. And if you've been lazy and thoughtless, it is time to not be lazy and laxified, as if you have servants..I know, it is hard..Be a beast on the hunt. It is your best thing. Be organized and thorough, it is your best thing and do not make bad memories with people that have actually loved you and cared for you, your new friends will never be loyal and true..learn to be loyal and true yourself and do not actually expect that in others when you are already ready to shut the door on their faces, watching as they get eaten by flesh eating zombies ready to suck them dry because that is what they are for, their best thing is sucking blood.

Speaking of which, I still love astrology and it is fun for me I can detect patterns in people more than a sign as to who they are. It is all about memories and how we remember each event and how we transform that in to our daily lives and full moons are always about money for me.
Libra, loves nice tings and clean places and works ass off for the money so she can eat nice food and sleep in clean dry sheets(very important)..
July is Tax month in Livonia so I paid that, I paid the electric so we can have air conditioning and I paid the 1200 hundred dollar car insurance bill. 1200 dollars each month! Fuks! We have 4 cars on that plan and Michigan is said to be a state where there is a lot of fraud. Yes there is! By the insurance people! ha ha ha!
 Laughter, okay, because in the end it is all imaginary money and we are going to die and we have no choice in living here on earth, happened to us. Now we are here and this is what we have become. A dirty slave based human civilization based on territory, and bloodshed..sorry but it is true..ah, yes and fighting for our gods as per usual. One God my ass!
There are 4 major ones watching as these little creature try to destroy themselves of property rights..hah ha hahaaaa I have paid my fee for the next six months.thank you for the opportunity Livonia. My place is so amazing right now! The flowers the life!

Good thing we have art and music and a whole lot of veggies! Good thing we have yoga and free speech or I'd have my ass on a pile of embers..yes humans did that, for Jesus! Seriously, it happened, I am as shocked as you but there it is.
God said "there are to be no other gods before me" and then 2000 years later,  Jesus said, " I am the only way you can see the big guy, me the savior of the world" and  and then 2000 years went by and humans spread themselves all over the place and pretended to be servants of god and chastity in the home was godliness..but as soon as they made big towns where everyone came to trade and sell stuff, sex with different people and sexually transited deceases like syphilis and bad living outside the godly home. Syphlis..been here since cities were born! Pretending is something we do rather well, don't you think? Good thing we have a church on every corner though.

I am not angry, I am just saying. We do not cut peoples heads off in a good human that has to be fixed, and if I were running things which I am not, I would make it so everyone has to be healthy. This means getting rid of many bad habits starting with, that healthy food and healthy life means you are not all bound up (pun)protecting your place here on Earth but that you are able to express that in something each day, be it your job, your hobby  or you love of creating through aromatherapy...mmm
cologne,, yuk..gross and nothing they make touches your health in any way, it is an illusion set up by marketing firms who have ever smelled dirt in their lives unless they went on expensive vacations where their lives were led by servants in the hotel..yea..I rant, I know it..
I hates it. I really do!
It makes me stabby..))I work with someone who wears this yucky horrid  Halston from TJ Maxx..I walk in to a cloud of poison every day and can really say nothing because you know, apparently is is not cool, they all are used to it and I am too sensitive..well, darn it all! Sorry I do not care for toxic particles to go in to my brain because they are so small and deadly and ruin your life..sorry, fuking cologne!

Wear something fresh.
What is fresh  to me is something other than fresh to others..

 I find lavender and lemon to be fresh, lemongrass, cucumber smell...mmmm

(cucumber lemon soap coming up, I am just waiting for a few more big ones (well they do look like a penis:) so I can peel them and juice them and add them to soap,mmm))

black tomato

Monday, July 31, 2017

snake coiled on blossoms

:)one of the best things about working at whole foods is my constant and rewarding access to amazing fats, butters, oils or all  sorts and one such opportunity presented itself and I bought a bunch of Flora Omega from organic sources! (7 Sources Omegas 369)
No, for me, it is not for eating although you can take a spoonful now and again.
I used all of it. 32 ounces of a wonderful mix of glorious fatty acids..
  • Derived from 7 different sources, including algae, flax, evening primrose, pumpkin, sunflower, coconut oil, and sesame
Very nice indeed! For, it is the sesame oil which nourishes in such a comfortable way. Here we have also added, organic red raspberry seeds..finely ground and red and soft until they get wet..then they offer a little bit of a sandy feel..

The snake theme you might be wondering about..

I cook up what my mind throws at me and this time I me and you... be aware of the reasons you strike out. Don't waste energy and work smart. Know you are protected because you are always listening, watching, learning..
You are always serene and dignified..always excellent, 
Protecting your domain is a thing because as you know a nice place to rest your head  with a clean bedding is where it is at! My snake is coiled  and resting on my blossoms :)
I have fed them and they responded by giving me what is big and most grand
beauty beyond what my words can convey..

(by the way, it is not a real snake, it is the energy you create from your core self. It coils itself all the way up or gets stuck way down there where it feels good and drains you of optimism if lingered there too long..)

Sunday, July 30, 2017

soap recipe # 2800

1/2 ounce orange blossom absolute
1 ounce blood orange
1 ounce lemongrass wild
1 ounce bergamot
1 ounce petitgrain sur fluer
4 ounces organic distilled lime oil

manuka honey
organic red raspberry seeds

soap base
organic sunflower seed oil
organic sesame oil
organic pumpkin seed oil
algal  oil
Schizochytrium oil 
flax oil
olive oil
organic coconut oil
organic evening primrose oil

Make soap  as usual and let the goodness flow.
Soooo Good!

Friday, July 28, 2017

soapbitch 17

It is rare that I am home on a Friday morning ever since my new schedule. Waking up  at 4 is different from waking up at 5..very very strange the still of night as I wake a realize my body. I energize each cell as Yogananda taught as he was taught and as I instinctively follow along as I gather my energy enough to roll over and feel each muscle in my hips and lower back.

I then  stretch that and say nice thing unless of course I am plagued by angst of some sort to my ego and my past experiences as I have gathered them as well. I drop all that, I shed all the other peoples pain if only for a second as I make that list in my head about what is next. clean house, clean life, clean products!
This morning I am well and happy and realize once again I cannot live my life for my children and I can only nurture them enough to choose for them selves and yet..all that is bull any given point some human somewhere is in an emergency state. Maybe one of your kin..just saying, it can be draining.
My family?
I live my life exclusively for them and no one else but me and them..I always do make room for myself, don't worry that I am lonely or some weird ass made up shit about is all is the only thing and learning to adapt and adjust. 
My family is what it is and as far as men in my life? If there be a mate who can handle serenity life and no schemes..he'll arrive with his tools and I won't make room for  vagabonds and wife stealers! ha ha ha Bring money.
Look at 58, I want a scientist builder not some lazy ass  drunk guy who complains about everything..everyone and in hate mode..fuk off..and no porn. 

soap bitch 17..fougere

They were all nice for a minute dates..all four of them..:)) see, laughter, it is the best thing!

Remember wig guy? So cute!
Remember when I had an asthma attack after cologne guy?
he was so nice and so smelly...omg
ha  hahaaaaa

I am now going to do some yoga so I do not become a cripple :)
Have a wondrous day of self awareness and kind thoughts for all good people.

soap bitch 17

Wednesday, July 26, 2017

I wish I were a soapy kafka but all I am is a soap foam bitch

He wrote a letter to his dad and it was like if you only knew what I went through whilst you were being a dick my whole life..ha ha ha
Ever read Kafka?

I am still on Laurie Garret's "Coming Plague"..oh my though and what an excellently written book on all sorts of modern bugs and bacteria..I am on Lassa fever..
The worst thing about lassa  if you go to the local hospital. 90% death rate and much lower if your don't go.
You see, until a few years ago the hospitals were really sister run missions and they re used the needles without sterilization. You know because god will protect from deadly microbes..not!
Finally and even during Ebola they did not sterilize.  300 a day injecting each person who came for anything. And then they came from Lassa fever and boy boy oh boy..they came with or two and then 50, more 200, 300, re-using the needles..
"sisters sisters sisters!"

As far as me  being a bitch, yea, kind of.
Libras. We do not mince words we mince garlic to perfection, we step up when needed and we do a good job, we are always working and until we are not, then we rest and think and learn and ponder. and if we ponder on you and I   and how we touched our lives, both, our space in time and our pages in our heart's mind, then you know us.
We do strive for balance and making up our mind  may be hard for which oil to use but not really.
There is where we can  allow some of the wretched pain and agony of my humanity transform in to some thing that touches one's soul as they allow themselves to anoint, nurish and soothe each cell of their skin as they cleanse with warm welcoming water....mmmmmm where by I get to bask in  some vibes..what can I say, but, "I love my life!" I love everything and the flowers and what they do and how they speak though each washing,

soap bitch 17

Monday, July 24, 2017

lessons on love

I do not understand how couples can live for years and years together when there are so many ups and downs. They do, and some are perfect. No secrets and no judgments on each others morality.
When you create boundaries right from the start, you allow yourself to have reasons to do what you do. There is a reason to everything. Your reason, not god's or your partner's.
I sure do enjoy the freedom of not answering or expecting others to make me happy.
I have really come far and you know,  it was work and mindfulness and my mom and my dear friends..I have a couple of them.

I mostly see couples struggling when   the  other partner begins by sneaking around..
sneaky purchases...sneaky friendships with same sex comrades who love sneaking around...
sneaky conversations and finally the internet and porn..and oh, the  crying after they get those TV evangelists who get caught smoking crack with a whore in some hotel and then cry and cry..
There are people right now waiting to have sex with you. strangers who you can call and Skype..and your wife  or husband is sleeping in the next room. You do not even have to go to a club  or take a shower..just take your clothes off and take a selfie and then send it to a stranger waiting for your penis or vagina.
 shocked are ya?
It is all true and how do I know? Because I am out there speaking with maybe 200 hundred people a day and ten of them will tell me why they need gaba, kava, and ps 100 which is phophitidil serine and it makes you calm down from the angst of not being  in a true love life. Why they can't sleep and most importantly which product will make them prettier, happier and more content with their lives.??Their comfy money keeps bad people together though.
I am not here to talk about all my customers, I am here because I see how we are changing and  whether I like it or  not I need to review in words.
I also lived it when it was brand spanking (pun) new. I cried tears and tears with every apology.  I escaped with aromatherapy and meditation and while my "true love" was all night not writing and not creating and just having more sex.
Why do men do it?
Why do women on the other  end?
So it is we??

When you hear,

"I am sorry.." more than one time, third time, fourth, .yea..true love...

when you hear "because of you I did this..."

"You made me do it because I was hurt over something you did ten years ago.."

"I will bring up up every time I get caught  order to gas light and support my lie"

"I will cry and cry and say, sorry I have a problem baby"

yes you do

I used to think my man was worthy because of the in betweens that were so spectacular. The in betweens of poetry, literature and philosophy, martial arts..all my best things, you know?
Am I still hurt over my marriage not being the nirvana that I thought we were both practicing? Less and less friends..less and less...

Less and less and my only regret is I put so much money in, so much that was wasted on a no account who lives by manipulation and control mixed with fear and loathing...and all the bibles and Jesus and Gogananda and Lahiri and Shiva and Krishna  and karma and prayer and quotes on all the best things..was not enough, never enough is it?

What is most interesting here is that I am not special. I was shocked as all hell and I was not the only one suffering with this topic. Most women keep this a secret as not to shame the family..
You are worried about shame?
I get it.
It is almost better if they had committed a felony other than what they do and are are becoming..eventually these habits and addictions become dangerous and do become a felony.

I love you.

Open your eyes and see
do not fear the future
you are worthy of so much and it is coming and your body is propelled faster and faster with the way your are shedding all the heavy weight off of your shoulders..
hair flying
fitness and hard work to your goodness..
always smiling you are because peace
true partnership
that is rare and good and should be always so

Sunday, July 23, 2017

friend to all

real convo


him an old dude from the old country (no, not Greece but close enough) Old men are the same from there and  I am counting the produce guy at my store too ..old country mentality..

"anastasia, do you like retarded people?"

me, a little stunned
"we do not use that language any more and besides you are religious talk to god, he made everything and you are supposed to love it because of him, god I mean"

him, "why he do that then?"

" you mean god?, Because he is a jerk, what do you think?"
ha ha
I laughed and he did too for a second

"don't say that!

"why he already knows he is a jerk and will tell you! Read Leviticus!"

Their gods are jerks! Having little to do with our lives and yet  given all the credit. Having little to do with our choices yet given the authority.

Another long week yea? We are fine and dandy my friends and yes, some things hurt us and makes us cry but at the end of the day our behavior  and our words are what memories are for.

be stunning
be kind
be honest
be excellent

do not be a control freak
your last word means nothing
your loud proclamations are are a figment of your angry imagination

be stunning
be kind
be honest
be excellent

Wednesday, July 19, 2017

Recipe Notes Lavender Tonka Fougere

I am so excited to offer a fougere' soap each time I make it.
Fougere is a blend of lavender, clary sage, patchouli, oak moss
I know right!
Just those four are perfect but one can really go far with forest fern blends and we should go further anyhow..

here are my players..

Organic lavender oil, Bulgaria and wild French
Super fine aged patchouli oil
oak moss
tonka butter
balsam fir ( just a touch)
clary sage
I will add kaolin to smooth out the texture of the soap bar so that each time you use it, it will be a pleasure!

It will be ready one month before the eclipse..
we are intending
health to all
wealth abundant
clean life
happy home

 Other ideas flourishing in my mind,
Cucumber Lime Soap
Ground cucumber seeds
organic lime oil

Fresh clean scrubby, astringent, refreshing..

Goodness follows me
Wealth adorns me
feeds me
keeps me safe
kindness and peaceful nature is easy for me
I am a friend to all

ya'll we have one month until the solar eclipse on august 21st..okay let us attend

Virgo New Moon
Sun In Virgo

Saturn retrograde in Sagittarius.

oh boy..

Well really, it is good in any event. Whatever you have achieved until now, it what it is.
here is what you do not do.
Stay mad.
Blame others.
Become an ass..

Here is what you do do. Work, decipher and make up your own mind on what is best for your situation and that sometimes means walking away and not  carrying some one's shit. enough guilt and shame too. More work, more doing.

Virgo is about change and becoming useful. Not using people..using your abilities to nurture. It can go both ways with the Virgo notions. I have seen Virgo men do nothing for years. How they can hibernate that long is beyond me. Virgo is the hermit. This can be the wise sage who knows nature and lives as one with nature or it can be a dirty old man in a cave peeing in the corner..yup. (sorry, my village mind never stops)

That said, I am not predicting the future. I can only simply allow my brain to look at patterns when these aspects happen.
Saturn retrograde is one thing and it has to do with higher learning, higher ideas means less violence unless of course you are all wrapped up on that religion which is ridiculous and does nothing good to help humanity.

I feel like enough will be enough one day because as our children have learned more about our universe than we ever could have and they are learning at a faster rate than we ever have..this means higher beings less concerned about sin and more concerned about, fed and healthy..

Do do on the Solar eclipse..
be grateful
be happy
be clean
be cleaner
wash your face
make some good bread
make a dish to feed your kin
expect all the good
say thank you
I love you
I am so sorry..
say it three time a day until then

Have a really good day!

Saturday, July 15, 2017

parenting and other July ideas

There are sales at my shop you should take a look at and there are more ideas lurking for future facials.
Facials are trending for us  because guess what?
You can have all the great perfumes and body creams which I love and then you still need to wash your face and make it perfect and soft.

I got a little extra money and I spent it all on (not all) oils. I bought a whole ounce of white rose absolute. It is going to be good, so good. I know because I have high intuition and I have loved every rose oil ever that I have ever tried and used like ... a whore!
I am very happy!

"this is what I wanted, a white clay that does not have any color, I love it!"
a quote from a mask lover I know.

 (her name will be announced when the oil gets here)

It is simple.. you can make your own two parts clay to one part each ground coconut and ground garbanzo. mix well,  set aside. in small bowl add one tablespoon mask mix and a little olive oil..olive oil only for face washing.
Next mix till creamy adding slowly more olive oil if needed and then add manuka honey and your oils lavender is nice for sure but then you know..white rose absolute!
I am adding rose. Just rose and one drop or ten ..we have an ounce.

I know what you might be thinking about the absolute on your face. one drop baby and it will really disperse the clay nicely and hold the scent together.
As for myself, I like rose and I want it on me and not like a little bit.

This blend should come with a bath oil accompaniment and of course a little nugget of soap. Something that will be dense and horny..oops, I meant a  little thorny. :)
Rose is about love and open heart.
Rose is about tenderness and beauty beyond the heart, it the the penetration of the soul and the sting that goes with that feeling how short lived it may be unless you are like me and drag it along for years and years because they taught you that to do otherwise is evil. You can only be free knowing that it is not. Pull your thorns out right now or they will fester and infect.
I say tenderness because rose needs more care that most plants in your flower beds. The wild ones are great but they can get overrun by weeds and morning glories with their gorgeous flowers can choke and kill many a rose.
Same with people I recon!
Think about the fleeting romances we may encounter that turn out to choke us. This is why roses need tending in gardens. That is why mindfulness is where it's at.

Did I say break ups and fighting from Saturn retrograde? Calm down and chant or sing what ever you like..
Om gum ganapataye
( I sang it to my tomatoes while I watered, they love chants.

It is for breaking obstacles to our growth and that means some things cannot be mended. Break away from your boundaries and become something and not some fuk laying around all day because you are depressed and want to die. Fuk off die if you want to but don't lie around. Who do you think you are Caligula? We all have things to do and you get to lie around being sad and mean because you feel really bad? It happens right? I know it does!
ha ha ha
Not very nice of me to talk about depression..

Look here anastasia
every day I visit and tend and chant here. it is my best thing this summer..summer of love 2017

Monday, July 10, 2017

Summer Of Love 2017 Mid July Specials

It sure seems lovey so far. I like flowers and comfortable weather. It is hot though and has changed a bit  seemingly drastically this year. I feel it is hotter on my skin and can only take an hour in the garden mid hot hot and I have to go  and do because the cucumbers and squashes and can die just on one afternoon from that hot sun and dry soil. It dries the soil see?
Love garden ..I do post photos Instagram..I love Instagram!
eleneetha aromatics

Yesterday I made some summer of love she wolf with all the wolf madam's gorgeousness notes..

There is kaolin clay, garbanzo flour, manuka honey, coconut flour, all organic right>>then there is 365 extra virgin olive oil..great deal food grade and delicious in a salad..I usually use the oil we are eating at the time so we are sure I am serious about olive oil. I put frankincense, I put loads of dark thick vetiver oil and green as can be and  geranium rose oil and a few drops lavender and course, patchouli.
I feel like the density of the bar if not at times ugly as sin ..sin..we are not born of sin, some dude said that and it stuck because people did not wash themselves after sex or any other hand tricks they had..sin...? Take a bath ass!

With Saturn retrograde you might feel like you still need to work on something. Maybe your life is going nowhere. Go somewhere then but believe you me, everything you need, you already have. You already have me and good soap. What else do you want?
(personally I am obsessed with she sheds.."she shed")


Saturn Retrograde
There are many break ups and people leaving us. It is good to grow and it hurts us. Be very careful of your words and how you treat your loved ones..some might say enough is enough. I prefer way less drama now than I did ten years ago or twenty if I am honest.
I have been through and met many people and when a man says you are crazy and need meds after being caught cheating yet again..and you are crazy? No my are normal. Of course it is not right   to be a cheating abuser and most of us get that more than a lover who cares about what is right..then again, you start talking ortho dox and things get too rigid..and people do and believe what they want.

I just want more dirt for tomatoes and more sandalwood for bath oil and more myrrh for London and palo santo for Alex..yea..sigh and I am sorry your lover did not turn  out the way you wanted.
Focus on what is next. Touch everything and don't be cloudy.
Think about how you can do anything but don't think too long so that you are not doing anything but passing time. Time ticks.

Saturday, July 8, 2017

the human spirit and my view of its potential

Yesterday great things happened. I got to learn my job better because i like money and then I had lessons time with viruses. I had actually read this book twice in costa rica and now I am listening to it. It is a documentary on how some viruses just crop up and what they do so quickly.
As soon as the creature attaches itself to your blood, it is basically over unless you live and then with severe problems.
Any how, if you say that these viruses were made to kill a population of gay people you are wrong friend. Seriously, "they" who ever they are, would not risk their lives and many who had to died because no one had seen this type of organism..such as Ebola or Lassa..there are more..
Malaria is not completely abolished nor is yellow fever and its cousin dengue fever..
I had dengue in the jungle it sucked so bad! It is like your eyes  become so heavy, you feel every nerve in your brain. You sleep you take meds.
By the way it has not been that long since we they discovered how viruses actually work. Science is real and so exciting.

I was thinking though about the human spirit wasn't I?
Well what strikes me most is when they find out one or three of their own start dying, usually  missionaries in a remote village of Africa somewhere, the people they send to study what happened. The really brave ones go there and wrap themselves up and study these killing creatures that are alive and not alive until they are in you. Many died when exposed like those scientists  that did not even wear gloves  when they just got the samples..sheesh!
I myself, do not think there is a dr evil somewhere planting killing creatures in remote caves no has has been in to for maybe thousands of years or more. I mean besides monkeys.

I love learning details about things..and so I observe the human spirit.

Earth herself is so amazing and alien, I wonder why we make up stories?
It is because our human spirit wants to be on top and to be cherished and loved and not dead. Not dead by an alligator at the river and not dead by dangerous means. dangerous men, I mean. dangerous men who shake hands and secretly plot for us to keep what we already have.
Men who rob and cut us and men who yell and pound their fists when they  know they are wrong because they just do not want to say, "I am so sorry."

Let us please focus and come back to what our potential is as women and mothers and lovers even.
Mother wife loving whore bitch dick suker jucy warm smelly of vetiver, spices and amber and all dick sucking should be..
Woman who nutures and grooms her ape and woman who cherishes her daughters and allows her sons a good bye..
"go, be a good man" she may say and not "get the  fuk out of my bathroom you fuk!"
No, she will and might never say that.


Best quote of all time so far...this was regarding a photo of my grandson I had shared on the face book..
Send him to me so that I can see him better. Then bite him and put him up on my shelf 
Bella Neahr Ayers 

Monday, July 3, 2017

It is real as can be and hot and things are summery

I have made a beautiful soap with manuka honey  and extra virgin  avocado oil. It is honey, sunshine and regal poses by the flowers!

I have also created a few  scrubs for the face that you might love with manuka honey and white kaolin clay with a little grit from coconut flour, organic of course.

Scrubber number one, here manuka honey, kaolin, argan, marula and oops :) palo santo and much myrrh in a cleansing base of extra virgin, small farm olive oil with a little sediment.
Southwest Spirit Of The Pheonix..

Scrubber two will have manuka, extra virgin olive oil, kaolin, coconut powder and essential oils of petitgrain and bergamot witch will come with a vial of argan marula oil..nice one! 
Wild Tropical Minx

Scrubber Three...num num num
vetiver, frankincense, geranium rose with a drop lavender one drop:) num num num
She Wolf
this comes with a vial of perfume oil made of the same rich and so nice!

let us attend my friends 
to all the is rich and helps us bend
to our own will of fortune and wealth
born in our own mind's eye
our hearts mind
let us attend to nurturing our selves  
become what we already want what we already have
what we already strive for and as always
touch everything with love and creative fervently rich forces

Monday, June 26, 2017

I am more conservative than you are

I cook and make soap and nurture..and yet, you,still think I am a "goddamn liberal"?
I make a garden and feed all my kin and talk to my mother and my sons and yell at them for being dumb. I work until I can't stand "no" more and then  I lay down and rest. I read and listen to people when they actually talk to me and not yell insults and crazy ass fits..get over your self. you cannot behave in such ways is what is and should always Liberal, huh??
He called me that and it was the last straw!
Yup, I guess so, because no matter what I say, you will not change your mind.

You are more liberal than you think.
We all are.
Sick? Doctors! Roads, water, to your house, toilet, where did he think that shit comes from,  oops, I mean goes? I know right?
Instantaneously? Like god made us!
One guy said to me,
"You sound bitter.."
I am a little that you get to sneak  in a corner and talk about how bitter I may be.
It is not bitterness if it is not you then?

Women need to step up. accelerate the pounding of man gorilla brain pounding his fists at other man gorilla brains as whose god wants more blood?

Wait, you are Christian and your god is love..I keep forgetting that part when you talk like you do.
People say that maybe I am stirring the pot but then I always have even when I was stirring another one last year..ha ha hahaaa I am just trying to figure out when I insulted you most? Was it when I said all religion are like children's stories and serve to intimidate..make humble and bind to a creed.

Yes of course you are in my prayers. My meditations and focus on what is and hopefully may always be your good..please flourish so that you don't get mad at me when I say things. I mean get mad, sure, do not say mean things and not use  my looks or some dumb weird thing. or feeling like "bitter"

Tell me right now that the hurt remains for past swords from your heart being too open and someone guts you like never before..How did you feel and still feel the pangs of hurt of someones hate toward you?

Guess what, I once got my ass kicked because they said I didn't love Jesus enough.
Guess what, once I wrote about shea butter (years ago when I was blue lotus moon)and because I said an adjective about the women in Ghana and how gorgeous they are and I got my ass beat because I was deemed a traitor for loving black skinned Africans! True story and if you think I should be gracious about that. Sorry!

To say that I hate Christians is strong. I do hate that they have committed many atrocities in the name of their god and for them to be noble and more noble than me..sorry, no again.When you put a scale in your mind like that  it never turns out,  "oh, you don't hate Muslims as much as "us"..therefore you are evil and liberal! "
I have aid it before, it is more like children's games than real life..

I guess I  am tempted a little to tone down my ideas but I do not know if I can. I will always want to share good news like how fats works and how soaps is made and how science is how! You computer right now is science and was never instantaneous. And if you think Donald Trump is your friend? I hope so. It would be nice. it sounds good but be aware, Mussolini also wanted  to make Italy great again. He started the Catholic Youth with the Pope of the day..right, many years ago was that?
Not many and we will change. Italians today are done with the wars. It messes with the ragu and how the pasta is served. I hope so anyway..I wish we could all just grow our food like the past and work and be a nice planet of rich healthy happy people.

Thursday, June 22, 2017

pulling the lettuce and making the way for onions.

I have been harvesting garlic and basil and dill and that is about it. My vine friends take time to spread out. I am training them to climb with things they were throwing out from work and my usual little nik knacks I like to put out there for the tomatoes to rest on. This year, hay and straw. Straw to hold moisture and hay to smell sweet and green. Think of sweet grass. hay is like that except when you have so much hay, you can jump on it? Am I crazy? You can put a soft blanket over it and look at the sky or the night stars making their journey through time like us. I would do that in the morning,like right now at this moment, it is 3:30 am. The only time I can be alone away from too many people to  be able to think of how much I love them all.:)

A recipe

fresh garlic
fresh dill
fresh basil
olive oil
put these all together in a blender and use with anything you like..grilled portobelloes and almost every other grilled delight.

I am not vegan, I was vegan and turned it around.
I have a friend who always brings up his ideas of perfection and said vegans are better people than meat eaters.
He can bite me because I am a fuking stellar human. and who is counting?
I bet that guy never worked a farm in his life. He never worked the ground. he is afraid to touch things. Americans may be afraid of dirt. i am not sure though:)
Who gets to decide what is sinful and what is not sinful?
Does your sexual past have really anything to do with your current love?
I hope not because if so you are bound by jealousy and hate from the get go.
The love part will fade in to bitterness and agony because you may not have gotten what you bargained for. Things change and your lover is really an ugly demon here to suck of of your good, your goddess, your honest, you worthy, your clean efforts.
Or at my age, men, well many  men are fuked up and still think they are young but too many drugs and alcohol and staggering has become habitual and here we are.
I will stop cussing maybe..:)

Today will be good. I will work
I will think
I will ponder
I will not stink like a fake cologne with ozone ugliness..ozone?? Why???

Monday, June 19, 2017


summertime thangs

I was thinking about things. I am sort of studying brain stuff some more and it makes me think about my inner brain and why I think and do the things that I do.
Why I am never really lonely unless too many people are there then I am lonely, really lonely because I know I stand out. None of them even have a glimpse of what a bad ass I am, have been or will continue to be as my badassery is my my secret and my stand.
I am learning my job better, and as you may have heard by now, Amazon bought Whole Foods Market. I am now an employee of  a global company. Coolness and whatever man!
 How do I feel about the sale of my beloved whole foods? Meh! Soon drones will scan vitamins and body care right in time for me to bank on my retirement savings and just make soap. Yes real people still want real soap made with good fats.. Corporate details are what they are.
Move along. I make money there and do a job that soon will be done by a robot and they like me so much they let me stay and talk to the real people that come in with every fuking complaint.
You know why they are so depressed? They are so fuking bored from doing nothing good that they come in there for a reprieve and comfort. They have nothing to do because money alone is not enough for happiness, you have to keep learning and learning and not be a lazy fuk, wondering who., next,  will do your thinking for you so that you don't even have the knowledge to get on google.

I had a letter written on the web site of whole foods requesting information on why toms of maine roll on is not available. Seriously? You already went to the internet to contact me. Go to Toms and ask them! Toms's roll on really? They made a new one 5 years ago. If you like it so much, why don't you know that? I am just sayin'.
Also if you are the type of guy that shops for his "queen"?? Nuff said about that kind of talk!

The new moon is almost up on us. This is a time of learning and remembering everything you learn. The new moon in Cancer.  It is about keeping what you have, allowing some  secret works to develop in to real usable skills for the next three months which will lay down the pathway for the next three years.

Wednesday, June 14, 2017

there are good things everywhere

I love this time of the year. Here in southern Michigan, it is has been unusually  hot and dry. No rain for days and now they are telling us that our water is not fit to drink. "don't worry though, it is nothing serious. just drink bottled water for a few days until we fix this."

What do they need to fix?? Well,  (well) The water levels dropped  because of the high temps and now all their chemicals are concentrated. they do not just say that in plain English. Contaminated with bleach and dioxin or what ever other poison they try to use in order to satisfy the ignorant masses. Who are these "they" any way?
This is what I am asking.

Water and food is what drives all mammals my babies and we are said mammals too. Because we are aware of ourselves is why we feel so special.
Most humans cannot even accept evolution so it is easy to sit in darkness and let others lead the way.
I would rather be in the fray, the out of the way, the developing secretly mammal  female to
works hard to make it right..for her little fray friends..:)
I am drinking bottles water by the way.

How about that? Imagine no water..
no baths
no soup
no clean underpants against your ass
imagine fighting to survive
no food store near by
to eat a breakfast or make a nice tea no sugar
no clean shoes
no phone to call your mamma
"mamma" like Lambert in that cartoon show
walking miles to get pails of water.
Imagine if you can and if it hurts you just a little to even think it..yes you have heart and
now, you can open it to share your thoughts your ideas and your art.

Monday, June 5, 2017

notice something?

My writing is getting better. At least sometimes. I know I tend to go off and rant but that may be my best thing in writing. I am not sure. I like poems too.
Like the one I wrote about some of the Patriarchal slime that lead our world as they always have, with violence and greed about their gods.

I called it Patriarchal slime because I heard a friend use that term about some leadership in our towns and head offices..

I might have to change some words but it goes like this..and when I say is raspy and low voiced beatnik sounding..

Patriarchal slime,

:) patriarchal slime I see you all the time 
your head held high 
because god is on your side
your shoes all shiny because you have it all
just as long as everyone abides by your own man made laws
the time has come for you to face
and not feel disgrace because your god does not care about you so boo hooo
pretty boy

I wrote right before all that stuff on the news about London and the fuks who are randomly killing innocent people who are living their lives.

I have told you before and believe you me, I hate the religion, all of them, especially  Islam but Muslims here in Detroit are fine. They work and are trying to make a nice home and make money and live a decent life. No one seems mad when I talk to them. Oh, and there are a shit ton of Jews down the road. A bunch of Chaldeans too..all from that region and yes, I find some of their habits distasteful like their constant "honey" but well, Greeks are obnoxious too..Oh yes, they are!
Their priests wear long gowns just as much and well, they also work near each other all these different people.The difference with western faith is that the priests wear that shit only during ritual, the rest of the time they are normal looking unless they have to wear the thing on their neck just to say who they are..subtle but still as poignant. The Greek priest I know, looks at his job as a job and has a family and they travel and look pretty in pictures. He seems normal except when he came top pray over my dad in the hospital that time when papou fell down the stairs, he said, in perfect English, "here John, this is myrrh fro Jerusalem" and he put it on my dads forehead. I reached over and asked to smell it..
Fake and so fake! My  dad thought it was golden myrrh from the most holiest of places. I said nothing. They know God but do not know the difference from real myrrh and a fake toy made to fool children! is true though.
You walk away from something like that in deep thought. Are we better because we review and change as need be?
I think so.
And I have said this before about how new generations do not want to live like that. They want music and dancing and nice looking hair and not just for dad and brother to see..creepers!
These few idiots who think they can change earth to their views are but a small spec in time. Future humans will remember them for what they are, apes with no education. because once you learn, there is no going back to make your self believe, you are in knowledge already, willing and open to all the best things for all people.

boil and bubble as my cauldron sputtles along

I am right now in the middle of a project distilling myrrh. I ordered a kilo and well, we might as well use it up. It grinds different than ...