work

it is funny how work is just so healing for anger and what ever else angsts you. I began cleaning the manor yesterday. Crabtree Manor)
There was alot of clean up to do before the planting begins..oh, man, there will be eleder and linden and cosmos and cherries...in about 5 years..it is the five year plan:)

You can get so caught up with sadness that that you walk around in a funk continually remembering what you are mad about and then the next thing you know, you change you mind yet again and accept things  so as to not continue being angry.

Or, you go ourside and you clean up some dirt and you think about the goodness and your boys with shovels saying, "what do you want next , mom?"
I don't know, but I can honestly say about myself is that, I linger on somethings a long time. Capricorn moon does that!
Like if someone is a jerk to me..I may forget all the other awesomeness in my life..just for a wee second, but it happens.
You too?
We can make it through this and become quite amazing or just still stay stuck in some imaginary slight from a country or a friend..
hey man, that said, some people are just assholes and there is nothing you are going to do about that..you cannot change them..you can't..leave them alone, maybe someone was and jerk to them or,  they are simply worried about having enough money for their belly fat removal..who knows?
That said, lately, all my customers are stellar. it has been at least six months since anyone has been too rude.
One time, an older red head was so mean that I walked away a little upset at her rudeness,  and then while telling   my workmate, I said, "that whore should be down on her knees at my feet being grateful that I helped her so intelligently, but instead she is a hag to me"::")))
moohaaaa, I laughed! very lightly, but she heard me, I think she may have..
dang it!
I hurt her feelings but..but..some one had to..maybe she'll think about why someone would say that about her? She is after all a good person. Right! A righteous woman!
Hey man, you do not achieve a scowl like that for no reason.

 Your smile says you are soft and happy.

That is what I say anyhow:)
things come out of my mouth, I am a Sagittarius rising after all! Sag does that, just blurts out the truth like an arrow of fire and wood and some fakin birch tar holding its elements together and he just fakin hurls at you and you're like stunned at the honest truth of it all.
I am now gonna plant some wild flowers, I want this place to be an enchanted manor..awe!!

Uranus square Pluto May 2013

Mystic calls is The Zap Zone, I call it upheaval.
Changing conditions are forcing us to adapt.

here are some dates which you may find helpful:)

• Uranus square Pluto June 24 2012
• Uranus square Pluto September 19 2012
• Uranus square Pluto May 20 2013
• Uranus square Pluto November 1 2013
• Uranus square Pluto April 21 2014
• Uranus square Pluto December 15 2014
• Uranus square Pluto March 17 2015

So here we go!                                                                                                                                                      As far as I am concerned, I felt this square all last week and I am suave, it is true, I am, but I look at some and how they are spinning out of control. There is your buzz word! "Control" that is Pluto. In many ways Pluto is once again going to teach us that being stagnant and wanting only your way may prove to be unbecoming of you. You cannot fake your true heart all day. Things that you say to people, and they say to you shows you what is in their thoughts..their smile if any, icy cold. remember too, the year of the snake.  Changing is inevitable and that is always so with Pluto. It tears you up but you must shed your concepts of religion in order to function in an intelligent society. Science has no time for hell or heaven and the facts are the facts. Also your race is not as important when you look at the world as one and step away from your tribe. Uranus in Aries is about technology (and also rigidity in many ways)and technology cannot be harnessed without admitting  that we falsify and convince ourselves and  our brain to feel better, to feel safe and to keep our ideas sacred. Hey man, they are going to learn sooner or later. I think sooner because just as in any organized sittuations like Earth will be in the next 25 years, there's gonna be some "splaining" to do!

There is also Mercury doing something in all of this which is why I keep thiking that ideas must change and we the people, must start from inside. You want to change?                                                                                                Stop contributing  to the hateful ideas which nurture resentment, fear and punishment.

You want to change,(you will be forced to) open your heart to actually loving your neighbor, your friends..if you even have any at this point..hey man, you can only nurture so many people in your life, some get mad. You cannot worry about that. You must work hard to be extra noble now and become what you want to become. Live the life you actually believe in. yes..but honey, if "your life" means that you believe that you are better, better in line with god, prettier, more authorative, richer ha! I feel sorry for you! There will be nowhere to hide!

All I know is that I know nothing and want to learn everything:)

before

before you say the worst things, say the truth not your oppinions
this is what I am finding more and more as I grow older


Here is the thing, I have an opportunity to mature as an amazing skin care expert..that there is good!
I am becoming better and better.
One thing I've learned with skin care  is that some people don't want to accept the truth about ingredients, but the ones that do, really see a difference and huge impriovements  right off.
Take the woman who "tried" everything for her neck rash..like right at her hair line, it gets warm and damp and it is perfect for bacteria to grow.
She came in in tears. I looked at it and knew what was up. "I'd put some frankincense right on that" I said to  her..she had scratched it so much that it was torn up a little but she still put it on every day. The first time it stung and I thought she would freak but she  said even in the stinging she felt relief. Whew!!
I was a little  nervous, I mean you never know how conventional people can get..
"why don't you get some real borrage oil instead of breaking a gelatin capsule?" I'll say now and again to some lady off the street.
"No, I want to do it like Dr. Oz said."
lol
"Ok, well thanks for stopping by, here is your borrage oil for your face in a gelatin capsule."
Some of them listen to me.
I tell them how to make calendula oil and I tell them to try a balm instead of a cream of fakin potasium fakin sorbate...I don't say that to them..we can't say fak in a public setting :)
Here is my thing and I will chant this all day, if it is made in a lab in a vat with "people dust"  which has strange people's skin particles floating in it and then you put some fakin potassium sorbate in there and then there are all the other  so called botanicals and then I even hear rumors and frankly I think they may be true, even  today's grapefruit seed extract is a far cry from the stuff that Aubrey used in the 70's.
Word has it that grapefruit seed extract is super fake, word has it.. and what about linalol? If there is lavender oil, just say so. Why do you not just say so?
I never use that stuff anyhow so it doesn't bother me. I do not want it. In my opinion, which is humble, small batches of anything is better than giant. If you want a milky  cleanser get yourself some dry milk and some ground garbanzo flour and some clay and you have a milky cleanser for your face.
I like simple things, classy things and super clean things.

classy face cleaner

2 tablespoons each
 og garbanzo flour
og goats milk powder
1 tablespoon clay of your choice

5 drops frankincense
3 drops chamomile
1 drop rose
mix well
pour in to a jar
and use it~ a pearl sized amount with a sprinkle of warm water makes a nice face cleaner..
apply borrage oil after you rinse on your damp face, cold pressed organic borrage, or evening primrose, or pomagranate, organic jojoba, organic argan, they are all nice.
Pat dry after a few minutes and your face should be quite radiant..

today is a good day
thank you xo

favorite essential oil? really?

Like I could choose just one!
Right now I am in love with oakmoss. I am in love with vetiver and guess what? I am loving lavender. I go through ins and outs with lavender. I get so caught up with frankincense that I forget about lavender. Or rose,  well, it is wonderful, rose is!
I have been cutting the fern soap I made the other day.
vetiver
lavender
patchouli
geranium
oakmoss
clary sage
tonka
a bunch of kanwa clay and....
It is gonna be great! Omg, so good. the oak moss is from Sunrose and I must say, it is the best I've had since the old days when the mysore sandalwood flowed..and the lavenders were in kilo sizes..kilos!
The oils I had blended for the fern soap and intended for this blend have shown me once again that I have no control over their beauty and ways in which they will become..

fern

I want

Pluto is all about, I want and sometimes not getting it.
Why?
Reviewing why we don't get what we want is Saturn which as it coasts through Scorpio, we can have some resolve as  to the why nots and the dang its..
I feel sad about the world...I hate my government, or they can't be trusted, they'll take away my guns..they will take away my rights..
(they already have and no matter how many guns there are in your home, you will not escape them and their guns..which..is another rant)
choose which thought enters your mind first, in another scenario...

"I want to have freedom from fear of money"
Or..
"I don't want to constantly be afraid of facing my money fears"

"I always have enough"
"All of my needs are met"
Or
"how am I going to make it?
 "i don't want  to be poor
I don't want to suffer
i don want to loose my credit cards"

"I always have enough and all of my needs are met"

"I want my lover to love me and not waste my time, I want to be in a healthy honest  relationship"
(your wish is my command)
"I don't want some guy who insults me all day only to later makes up for it by toying with my emotional needs.."
(your wish is my command)


"All of my relationships are based on a healthy honest vibe, which permeates through my life all day"


xoxo

Old Whore Perfume

You want to the old whore in an oil?
You want to continue with  her suave and tender flow. yes?:) thank you, I'll try:)

the old whore, she always gives you  more
she thinks of you in glorious ways
in trillions of light shades of blue violet light haze
in yellow red  flashing green verdant mind rays

xo
in jojoba, organic 50/50 essential oil to jojoba ratio)
patchouli oil (11 year old)
vetiver
oakmoss
labdanum
jasmine
sandalwood
myrrh
wormwood
a drop this and that:)..

eleneetha old whore perfume

momma said

I want to tell you sweet things
I want to say, I love you, I do love you:)
I want you to be so healthy
and have always enough
a look stunning
and forgiving
compassionate
I want to tell you how helping is what humans do
fine I will tell it! And then I'll rant!

A new beginning of what is to come really Uranus/ Pluto energy..since Aries dominates at moment, we have a glimpse of the emotions on Earth.
Do I have to tell you to stay inside most days? Well, yes, it would behoove you to.  The more you mingle in the crowd the more opportunity there will be for some to get stepped on. That is The year Of the Snake plus Pluto Square Uranus plus the Sun in Aries at the moment..and I must remind myself that it is always a moment between good times and bad times..a pinch of time in space.
 Space is violent.
Humans are by instinct violent and everything fights to survive.

The haters will dissolve in to distant memories in a thousand years..ah the dominant ones, all for dominance, controlling all the money and  religion and killing for the lord, to protect him..and to kill the infidels or those without faith..you know, because Jesus needs people to kill others in his name or Mohamed needs people to kill in his name..if that were true then they weren't really so powerful in the first place..I know if my boy were being tortured and I could save him, I would and I certainly wouldn't make him suffer and then proclaim that it was for the good of the people..rubbish!
Do you see why I get so worked up? How many more must die for God?

My mom said to calm down. I am like, "mom, how come these people's mommas didn't teach them to always be nice and respectful?
There is nothing wrong with that!"
You know what she said?
"well, don't involve yourself with the world's affairs so much.."
Momma said my momma said..

angry thoughts turned to vengence

yup~~ it is an intense time in astrology plus we are crossing over some sort of photon belt in space and it makes weaker types more weak and makes anger come out of our mouths and complells us towards changing.
It is a huge time, huge..
I am very upset about Boston! I haven't slept a wink!
How long will we hurt one another like this for God? How ridiculous is the concept of heaven and hell? So literally taken!!
Heaven for the good and hell and suffering for the bad. If God made hell for his children to boil in,  he must be some kind of jerk! I mean these are times he should have come through  before someone does wrong if he were real. And why is he going around killing first born babies? Weren't the Egyptians his children too? Did he make everything or not?
I am pissed because this is such bull shit!
"who ever did this would go to hell on a jet plane if hell were real", I said, shaking my head.
"hell is real. so is heaven"
"no it isn't, that is stupid!"
"yes it is"
We were in the office, my beloved co-worker and I. the others in there told us to shut up now  That it would be a futile fight between us..
I go through this with Lucy all the time. How can she be so smart and so ready to fall in line with her catholic rules of who is chosen to be with God?
All I know is this; I am pissed! A little boy died right there because some uneducated hater wanted to hurt innocents.
How satisfied does he feel now?
You know they live through things like this in Israel and Palestine for years now, many years! Bombs, and shootings all the time because some ass is working for God!
Which ever side God's on, he doesn't care, that is what I see, which is why, I am not stupid!
I just wonder how much longer it'll be before we finally understand the space we are in? The huge vast distance of space and time, fed by stars people, and in charge of our own god within,our own mind and our own hope for peace..



















These people must evolve but in to what?

rustic birch tar soap and shampoo bar

a hot process soap which is dark and very much what birch tar soap would look like if it could look like itself  which it does.I do not know how many people would like the smell of smoke and fire but some might and now it is done. I have gotten this experience off my mind for a while. Things inspire me and I get an idea and can't rest until I carry it out. It is the Scorp in me, my own personal Lilith!
To say this soap is rustic would be correct..
a two ounce bar, $3.00
Small,  because, who needs a hunkin' hunk of this? No, you just need a little one:)  for sometimes:)
rustic birch tar soap

I now smell like a fire

like a burning fire with some of the smokey glow at the end of it..
It was an experience I can tell you that!
Using castor oil and birch tar may have been something I wasn't completely prepared for. Or was I?
As soon as I added the catalist, the soap cream was ready..It took no longer than 30 seconds..and then as I added the birch tar and ground Icelandic moss, it went solid..
I had to make sure all the material was well mixed and that almost seemed  impossible as the initial wave of birch fumes, took me by surprize!
I was in emergency mode..I pulled out the huge croc pot and put it all in there and re melted it  and then I was able to at least spoon it out and smash it in its final phase!
Needless to say, everyone came out of thier nooks in the house and ran to the kitchen and asked about the smell. It permeated the whole place. I am sure the neighbor across the street could smell it. It has settled in to a distant smokey remnant now, but I can still smell smoke lingering on my skin and a stand of my hair now and again.
Everything is learning and staying calm in the face of terror whist being expedient! The soap.. is very ugly soap but not..I will wait and see it during the light of day later and see how I want to describe this ancient soap with a new age twist from castor and organic coconut oil and the castor generously added because should someone want to wash their scalp with some birch tar..
untill then...
have a wonderful day:):)

anastasia's famous birch tar shampoo bar

that is the plan in the works for today. Plus i would like to make more lavender patchouli with some geranium, clary sage and vetiver..doesn't that sound nice? Like a  fougere blend. mossy and fern like...
I will need to go to Zerbos and get some castor oil for my birch soap  and then I will make it, my way. (it could be famous:))
Without palm oil or animal fats of course!
Birch tar is a most useful item from nature. They (people) began using it around 40 thousand years ago to hold weapons together and they must have realized after handling it that it killed certain bacteria and fungus on the skin..I can be quite sure that cave men got scraped up quite a bit and they probably saw that their skin didn't puss up when they applied the birch tar..
Birch is one of the oldest organisms on earth. Perhaps billions of years thriving and spreading itself throughout the northern hemisphere..
Plus the tree itself it is quite pretty!

The essential oil  that I have is smokey, woodsy and to tell the truth keeps calling me to work with it. It does have a nice attraction, I must say. too much and not enough at the same time.

plus now and again, some one will ask if I have pine tar soap? I am always in my head, like, "No! I make mostly aromatic soap!" But hey man, lately I am attracted to the smokey woods, the mosses and the smell from a good fire!

Angel Paths

"In darkness, I grow richer than rubies, red upon the horizon as I ascend the night sky. I am mystery and power, united and invincible. My gift is Truth. Illusion and deception yield to my dark vision."

angel paths

Birch Tar

How do you feel about birch tar? Is it worthy of a soap or balm? I am thinking that it is...:)