Hello Virgo

We are already shifting towards the harvest. I am going out today and picking all the peppers and I will pickle them for the winter.

lady soap maker went out one day
 to see if her garden grew
delighted
she picked all the veggies and the cucumbers and onions too. the garlic, the juicy redness and meaty tomatoes and she sang them a lullaby too. They love that. She thinks they care about her.

The days grow short and mid day gets hot and the nights are crispy cool
condensation adorning each new bud..they will not make it.
you want them to
they try
you both cry
take a deep breath
and here here is where hope makes its  preparation
where minding what is real becomes easy
where clean up is beautiful and everything you touch becomes more gorgeous each day
where sparkling light makes you seem that way because your thoughts have transformed you in to this moment
your face so peaceful
you close your eyes and breath in all the good, your body tension leaves you and you can accept what you  have here and now..right now..
and yet like a sweet just forming bud, too late in summer, knowing this , accepts and yet demands true space in space..your face is adorned in the same way..each line be it deep or just forming.

lady soapie went out one day and knew her garden would grow
she put in the time
her hands dirty and sweat glistening in the sun
there is no way it wouldn't, you know

life is a garden you hands and the things you touch your fruit..I want sweet juicy ones


and now here is my real poem
about moles

something lingers
lingers in my garden
its sweet little teeth taking sweet little bites from my tomatoes
He leaves little tooth marks on each one that is not ripe
he goes for the juicy the sweet and the ones I would keep
he dug a tunnel  right under one such fruit
he just ate from his front door
so cute
he begs for my pardon

and what a feeling HAPPY SOLAR ECLIPSE

How interesting that this last week was a doozy, yea?

 

This is rose of sharon, or wild hibiscus..I love it and they tell me it grows like a weed and I am glad. Let her cast herself across my whole yard. she  is really stunning! 

Her flowers, they close at night and open with the sun. 

Glory! Perfection! Pay Attention, be free of fear again and again!

Be stunning and be real

Be happy that you are here

what ever is divine

let it be what it is

nothing to do with you for sure

make your own divinity I say

what ever you want

ask

tell

make it real with each thought

with each thought, transform it in to a real idea

with concrete value

with loving intention

with hands that linger on the good

with mind that proceeds with reverence for nature and her beauty of which you are one with..

OM

you made me cry

guys get something clear and I mean the few very sexist men I have encountered in the last month or so.

Please and Thank You!

 I will say anything I want and you do not get to be all offended..you do not get to make a ticking time bomb over a topic.


you do not get to be offended by my words about your religion
cover your head, I don't care
your vestments mean nothing to me
you do not get to treat me worse than any person in charge
especially your gods be they real or imaginary
you do not get to spread rumors about me
you do not get to treat me like a  servant
you do not get to engage in conversation
that only leads to war for any of the above topics
you do not get to be mean to everyone just because you are having a bad day
your mom may be dying  or whatever is weighing your mind..there are many things which weigh our minds
you seem to think it is way to be rough with people and you create drama and bad hurt feelings
enough
who do you think you are, Caligula??

ha ha ha


sorry I had to bring this to you as I approach my 60's but it took that long to find words to reply to your unkind racist sexist what supremacist attitude.
I have known and not necessarily  in the "known" sense,  vile white men and vile black men and they all had a penis, they loved that thing and they still do. I am sure!

talk about everything yo

back to school feels real

It has been a nice summer yea? We have all been working on something and it has been received.

Received..yes..have, has, been, gotten, there, and in a profound learning rush, received all the things coming to us.

I have been honing in some some temperature issues and the dry weather all summer has surely effected the time and reason to make things.

I am not in such a hurry to just make, but when I get that alone time the, oh so beautiful witch time..yes it is good and works like a perfect storm.

This is now, this is the time )

to look at what is up and clean up your work space

don't cheap to yourself iether

it can come quick as an opportunity and then you are like "oh, what should I do??"

Well, don't just take whatever comes like a leaf in the wind..be that seed that makes so many new seeds for the next year..so many..like a field of what ever flower you want to be..save your own made proverbial seeds and then..go out of the weeds and stop crying all day..

Think of me, at four in the morning..:) here saying, "hello, you look great, you are great and you are doing great!"

My beautiful friend said it best..

"I don't care, you are not making me hate anyone!"

killer bee propolis and skin care

Recipe

3 mls propolis  you have to get a  good one not full of alcohol. Propolis in dried form is available on Amazon. I have a little bit left of a rare batch.

Red algae that is from a good source.  I love red algae for the complexion. It brightens the skin and guess what, studies show that the red components in plants shield your skin further from the sun.

1/2 ounce bees wax

more or less on the olive

2 cups rich unfiltered olive oil




When I first started to make this I learned so much about propolis. It is rough and ready to serve but you must concede and do the prep. It needs to sit in heat and melt completely , low heat , in a water bath, and it needs to go clear and the essential oils are last and still, need to temper as the solution cools to a jelly.
Making balms is an art form.

my weird customers thank you

I like top shelf and that is what I like and you are and have always been the tops

you other medium shelves please step aside
you mean what you mean to your medium lives
your tacky pants and golf shirts aside

you lower shelf dweebs who think you are on fire
it is because your ancestors were ready to burn your carnal desires
your need to survive turned in to worship
of anyone who would serve you
would treat you as more
I  know your anger has taken you you to  a lower even lower shelf of
dredges and trimmings and the meat mist of your bloody requirements
no one wants those
they sit and dry out like a bad idea..get it..bad idea..thinking, doing, being a good person..

I hope your brain starts to see the reality
that we are 7 billion humans here and you yourself, dude, mean nothing

what is the point of making soap if you can not grow and use your own botanicals now and again

I have been making garden soaps. Homegrown garden botanicals for our nutrition and pleasure.

More of them are on the way and as much as I would like to tincture a bunch of the herbs that I grow,  I do not because I would rather spend the money on jars for you and not just liquids sitting around..I do have many tinctures and extracts already from people who make them.
I made some mighty fine sage soap and super delicious cucumber soap and now black tomato soap?
I will think on it and you'll be the first to know.
Tomatoes are in. August is tomato month for sure. Today I will test the still and see what I can make of it..

Tomato Hydrosol??
Cucumber hydrosol??
Lemon balm hydrosol??
 Basil hydrosol??

Shopping List
2 ounces basil oil
4 ounces lemon organic

or
2 ounces basil
holy
2 ounces rosemary
2 ounces peppermint

or
2 ounces basil
2 ounces frankincense
2 ounces patchouli
1 ounce clove

What tickles your fancy in any of those scenarios?


Me, I am super okay..I hate my schedule at work and I hate the constant surveillance and monitoring and adjusting according to  higher ups all stressed out because if one mistake is made it means fail..no gray areas..Now listen this does not mean I am not happy. It means that I must look at reality and not some pretend happiness while things that make me unhappy are happening..get it?
yes..my job..
It is a way to mass produce and be more impersonal than ever..it is reality in retail and business. No one is your friend in leadership. they could have been your friend before they became leaders but the air changes in a split second and you know your place.
My place?
 It means nothing and if I had a choice which I do not, I would stack fruit somewhere. At least it is honest. There is some art to it for real not just slinging boxes and crap for masses who rarely say "thank you".
Once in a while they come and will tell me how I touched their lives and how they feel so good. I am happy to hear it and glad some thing good went through besides the scan and the scans and the other scans for returns and more scans, oops, you have sign in again and again,  to see the price and another scan to detect movement so the drones can get here faster..let them but do not forget that it does not matter in the least.
Even in writing this I sigh and accept that I should not care as much. It is real the easy thing to do and we are being trained to be little box checkers..ughhhh
Have you checked the proper box today?

What is art though? What is it that we crave to be so outside the box that something like checking a little box  has us all up in a tizzy?
Well, it feels like brainwashing because it is.
While we need to be clean and efficient, we might loose some spark of joy each time we check the box as if it will give us a big reward..it will. Money! We check the box.
lol


I used to say, "some money is not worth being made"..well..yes..which money?


I am now going to say, "money bring to me to us  good things, money loves you and then loves me and we are happy as can be, there are bees buzzing and birds singing..and winter is coming"
lol

Full Moon Lunar Eclipse and other ideas like why July is so fleeting?

Happy Birthday Leo..ha!!!

If you have ever had a fire on your ass it is now. If you've ever been driven about anything it is now. And if you've been lazy and thoughtless, it is time to not be lazy and laxified, as if you have servants..I know, it is hard..Be a beast on the hunt. It is your best thing. Be organized and thorough, it is your best thing and do not make bad memories with people that have actually loved you and cared for you, your new friends will never be loyal and true..learn to be loyal and true yourself and do not actually expect that in others when you are already ready to shut the door on their faces, watching as they get eaten by flesh eating zombies ready to suck them dry because that is what they are for, their best thing is sucking blood.

Speaking of which, I still love astrology and it is fun for me I can detect patterns in people more than a sign as to who they are. It is all about memories and how we remember each event and how we transform that in to our daily lives and full moons are always about money for me.
Libra, loves nice tings and clean places and works ass off for the money so she can eat nice food and sleep in clean dry sheets(very important)..
:)
July is Tax month in Livonia so I paid that, I paid the electric so we can have air conditioning and I paid the 1200 hundred dollar car insurance bill. 1200 dollars each month! Fuks! We have 4 cars on that plan and Michigan is said to be a state where there is a lot of fraud. Yes there is! By the insurance people! ha ha ha!
 Laughter, okay, because in the end it is all imaginary money and we are going to die and we have no choice in living here on earth, anyway..it happened to us. Now we are here and this is what we have become. A dirty slave based human civilization based on territory, and bloodshed..sorry but it is true..ah, yes and fighting for our gods as per usual. One God my ass!
There are 4 major ones watching as these little creature try to destroy themselves of property rights..hah ha hahaaaa I have paid my fee for the next six months.thank you for the opportunity Livonia. My place is so amazing right now! The flowers the life!


Good thing we have art and music and a whole lot of veggies! Good thing we have yoga and free speech or I'd have my ass on a pile of embers..yes humans did that, for Jesus! Seriously, it happened, I am as shocked as you but there it is.
God said "there are to be no other gods before me" and then 2000 years later,  Jesus said, " I am the only way you can see the big guy, me the savior of the world" and  and then 2000 years went by and humans spread themselves all over the place and pretended to be servants of god and chastity in the home was godliness..but as soon as they made big towns where everyone came to trade and sell stuff, sex with different people and sexually transited deceases like syphilis and bad living outside the godly home. Syphlis..been here since cities were born! Pretending is something we do rather well, don't you think? Good thing we have a church on every corner though.

I am not angry, I am just saying. We do not cut peoples heads off in a good human civilization..so that has to be fixed, and if I were running things which I am not, I would make it so everyone has to be healthy. This means getting rid of many bad habits starting with, that cologne.lol healthy food and healthy life means you are not all bound up (pun)protecting your place here on Earth but that you are able to express that in something each day, be it your job, your hobby  or you love of creating through aromatherapy...mmm
cologne,, yuk..gross and nothing they make touches your health in any way, it is an illusion set up by marketing firms who have ever smelled dirt in their lives unless they went on expensive vacations where their lives were led by servants in the hotel..yea..I rant, I know it..
I hates it. I really do!
It makes me stabby..))I work with someone who wears this yucky horrid  Halston from TJ Maxx..I walk in to a cloud of poison every day and can really say nothing because you know, apparently is is not cool, they all are used to it and I am too sensitive..well, darn it all! Sorry I do not care for toxic particles to go in to my brain because they are so small and deadly and ruin your life..sorry, fuking cologne!

Wear something fresh.
What is fresh  to me is something other than fresh to others..

 I find lavender and lemon to be fresh, lemongrass, cucumber smell...mmmm

(cucumber lemon soap coming up, I am just waiting for a few more big ones (well they do look like a penis:) so I can peel them and juice them and add them to soap,mmm))

black tomato

snake coiled on blossoms

:)one of the best things about working at whole foods is my constant and rewarding access to amazing fats, butters, oils or all  sorts and one such opportunity presented itself and I bought a bunch of Flora Omega from organic sources! (7 Sources Omegas 369)
No, for me, it is not for eating although you can take a spoonful now and again.
I used all of it. 32 ounces of a wonderful mix of glorious fatty acids..

• Derived from 7 different sources, including algae, flax, evening primrose, pumpkin, sunflower, coconut oil, and sesame

Very nice indeed! For, it is the sesame oil which nourishes in such a comfortable way. Here we have also added, organic red raspberry seeds..finely ground and red and soft until they get wet..then they offer a little bit of a sandy feel..

The snake theme you might be wondering about..

I cook up what my mind throws at me and this time I say...to me and you... be aware of the reasons you strike out. Don't waste energy and work smart. Know you are protected because you are always listening, watching, learning..

You are always serene and dignified..always excellent, 

Protecting your domain is a thing because as you know a nice place to rest your head  with a clean bedding is where it is at! My snake is coiled  and resting on my blossoms :)

I have fed them and they responded by giving me what is big and most grand

beauty beyond what my words can convey..

(by the way, it is not a real snake, it is the energy you create from your core self. It coils itself all the way up or gets stuck way down there where it feels good and drains you of optimism if lingered there too long..)

soap recipe # 2800

1/2 ounce orange blossom absolute
1 ounce blood orange
1 ounce lemongrass wild
1 ounce bergamot
1 ounce petitgrain sur fluer
4 ounces organic distilled lime oil

manuka honey
organic red raspberry seeds

soap base
organic sunflower seed oil
organic sesame oil
organic pumpkin seed oil
algal  oil
Schizochytrium oil 
flax oil
olive oil
organic coconut oil
organic evening primrose oil

Make soap  as usual and let the goodness flow.
Soooo Good!

soapbitch 17

It is rare that I am home on a Friday morning ever since my new schedule. Waking up  at 4 is different from waking up at 5..very very strange the still of night as I wake a realize my body. I energize each cell as Yogananda taught as he was taught and as I instinctively follow along as I gather my energy enough to roll over and feel each muscle in my hips and lower back.

I then  stretch that and say nice thing unless of course I am plagued by angst of some sort to my ego and my past experiences as I have gathered them as well. I drop all that, I shed all the other peoples pain if only for a second as I make that list in my head about what is next. clean house, clean life, clean products!

This morning I am well and happy and realize once again I cannot live my life for my children and I can only nurture them enough to choose for them selves and yet..all that is bull shit..at any given point some human somewhere is in an emergency state. Maybe one of your kin..just saying, it can be draining.

My family?

I live my life exclusively for them and no one else but me and them..I always do make room for myself, don't worry that I am lonely or some weird ass made up shit about loneliness..it is all bull..work is the only thing and learning to adapt and adjust. 

My family is what it is and as far as men in my life? If there be a mate who can handle serenity life and no schemes..he'll arrive with his tools and I won't make room for  vagabonds and wife stealers! ha ha ha Bring money.

Look at 58, I want a scientist builder not some lazy ass  drunk guy who complains about everything..everyone and in hate mode..fuk off..and no porn. 

soap bitch 17..fougere

They were all nice for a minute though..my dates..all four of them..:)) see, laughter, it is the best thing!

Remember wig guy? So cute!

Remember when I had an asthma attack after cologne guy?

he was so nice and so smelly...omg

ha  hahaaaaa

yea

I am now going to do some yoga so I do not become a cripple :)

Have a wondrous day of self awareness and kind thoughts for all good people.

soap bitch 17

I wish I were a soapy kafka but all I am is a soap foam bitch

He wrote a letter to his dad and it was like if you only knew what I went through whilst you were being a dick my whole life..ha ha ha
Ever read Kafka?


I am still on Laurie Garret's "Coming Plague"..oh my though and what an excellently written book on all sorts of modern bugs and bacteria..I am on Lassa fever..
The worst thing about lassa  if you go to the local hospital. 90% death rate and much lower if your don't go.
You see, until a few years ago the hospitals were really sister run missions and they re used the needles without sterilization. You know because god will protect from deadly microbes..not!
Finally and even during Ebola they did not sterilize.  300 a day injecting each person who came for anything. And then they came from Lassa fever and boy boy oh boy..they came with Ebola..one or two and then 50, more 200, 300, re-using the needles..
"sisters sisters sisters!"


As far as me  being a bitch, yea, kind of.
Libras. We do not mince words we mince garlic to perfection, we step up when needed and we do a good job, we are always working and until we are not, then we rest and think and learn and ponder. and if we ponder on you and I   and how we touched our lives, both, our space in time and our pages in our heart's mind, then you know us.
We do strive for balance and making up our mind  may be hard for which oil to use but not really.
There is where we can  allow some of the wretched pain and agony of my humanity transform in to some thing that touches one's soul as they allow themselves to anoint, nurish and soothe each cell of their skin as they cleanse with warm welcoming water....mmmmmm where by I get to bask in  some vibes..what can I say, but, "I love my life!" I love everything and the flowers and what they do and how they speak though each washing,

Fougere'
soap bitch 17

lessons on love

I do not understand how couples can live for years and years together when there are so many ups and downs. They do, and some are perfect. No secrets and no judgments on each others morality.
When you create boundaries right from the start, you allow yourself to have reasons to do what you do. There is a reason to everything. Your reason, not god's or your partner's.
I sure do enjoy the freedom of not answering or expecting others to make me happy.
I have really come far and you know,  it was work and mindfulness and my mom and my dear friends..I have a couple of them.

I mostly see couples struggling when   the  other partner begins by sneaking around..
sneaky purchases...sneaky friendships with same sex comrades who love sneaking around...
sneaky conversations and finally the internet and porn..and oh, the  crying after they get caught..like those TV evangelists who get caught smoking crack with a whore in some hotel and then cry and cry..
There are people right now waiting to have sex with you. strangers who you can call and Skype..and your wife  or husband is sleeping in the next room. You do not even have to go to a club  or take a shower..just take your clothes off and take a selfie and then send it to a stranger waiting for your penis or vagina.
 shocked are ya?
It is all true and how do I know? Because I am out there speaking with maybe 200 hundred people a day and ten of them will tell me why they need gaba, kava, and ps 100 which is phophitidil serine and it makes you calm down from the angst of not being  in a true love life. Why they can't sleep and most importantly which product will make them prettier, happier and more content with their lives.??Their comfy money lives..money keeps bad people together though.
I am not here to talk about all my customers, I am here because I see how we are changing and  whether I like it or  not I need to review in words.
I also lived it when it was brand spanking (pun) new. I cried tears and tears with every apology.  I escaped with aromatherapy and meditation and while my "true love" was all night not writing and not creating and just having more sex.
Why do men do it?
Why do women on the other  end?
So it is we??

When you hear,

"I am sorry.." more than one time, third time, fourth, .yea..true love...

when you hear "because of you I did this..."

"You made me do it because I was hurt over something you did ten years ago.."

"I will bring up up every time I get caught  order to gas light and support my lie"

"I will cry and cry and say, sorry I have a problem baby"

yes you do

I used to think my man was worthy because of the in betweens that were so spectacular. The in betweens of poetry, literature and philosophy, martial arts..all my best things, you know?
Am I still hurt over my marriage not being the nirvana that I thought we were both practicing? Less and less friends..less and less...

Less and less and my only regret is I put so much money in, so much that was wasted on a no account who lives by manipulation and control mixed with fear and loathing...and all the bibles and Jesus and Gogananda and Lahiri and Shiva and Krishna  and karma and prayer and quotes on all the best things..was not enough, never enough is it?

What is most interesting here is that I am not special. I was shocked as all hell and I was not the only one suffering with this topic. Most women keep this a secret as not to shame the family..
shame?
shame?
You are worried about shame?
I get it.
It is almost better if they had committed a felony other than what they do and are are becoming..eventually these habits and addictions become dangerous and do become a felony.

I love you.

Open your eyes and see
do not fear the future
you are worthy of so much and it is coming and your body is propelled faster and faster with the way your are shedding all the heavy weight off of your shoulders..
hair flying
fitness and hard work to your goodness..
always smiling you are because peace
trust
true partnership
that is rare and good and should be always so