a little bit rest

Na!!
Inventory and and clean up and wipe down.
You do this as to invite more goodness to come in. More money
Oh, it is going to come in and do you know why? Make the way
clean the hearth
wipe down the plate to serve things on..
say things to someone who is wrong in a gentle way
don't be foolish
don't be greedy
unless it is for my soap :)
You deserve everything good
you already have everything good
you are made of every same spec of inverse as anyone else
you do not have to suffer
you deserve all the best things for you

yes, bad things happen
they will be fixed

Here is my best thing I want to live by..
wake up, say hello, think of my loved ones, you, , think of momma, dad and my boys, be so proud of my powerful daughters, my very powerful work mates..I am enriched with high thinking if not quirky lovers and friends. and then, work work work and work some more work to make my heart be satisfied that I did my best..



I am going to tell you something...
Why all the cancer, huh?
why?
I have never seen the likes of a whole new slew of that stuff..
Is it the spray they put on the grass? The chemical fertilizers, the constant seeking for doctors to cure and take more radioactive pictures of perfect normal body parts?
I think so.
my doctor,
"have you had a mammogram?"
Me,
"no, I am fine!"
He smiles.."can I have a drop of your blood?"
:)

There are other criteria to getting sick, you notice things, your stress factors when aging, your family, your unsatisfied tolerance of bad lovers, stressful job, friends who just need you to save them..
This is the time you should back down and spend some time alone, do your own thing and study hard as to be always able to stand on your own two feet and by the way, they do not always have to be spread apart in the air..lol
 You do not just go take radioactive ex rays for no reason but to search for bad things..again, know your body. It could be such a thing as your immune system is gearing down.you need less things as you age.

There are other criteria to getting sick besides poisons in the contaminated earth. I do notice though that the stress of being beautiful gets to some.
Aging gracefully is what I want..fuk off with your fat lips and heels like a whore..they mean nothing to me.
Now,
why all the heart burn?
I told one lady that sometimes stomach issues are about how you digest your life and your family who by the way and I am talking  the old parents, like in the 70' 80's..they will never accept your ideas..they do not want to. It has been ingrained in them for generations that it would be an affront to their god..
such utter ignorance..
you must follow your heart. Be kind and say things and each word may pass on some and then one time and then two,  a word gets in and they see your point. that is honor..kind gentle poking..dancing, singing, saying what is on your mind. It is the best!!!
People are happy when they have food, nice clothes and water, music, a nice bed, dancing with a child.
Why do you think the young Iranians are waiting for those old war mongering farts to die? They want music too and to dance. Sadly they were just shipped a shit load of uranium, why do they need that so now they can blow up that whole fucking continent in the name of their war mongering god who is always pissed? They have done  nothing but destroyed towns and cities and then among their ashes they build a hotel..Who is going to go? Yea, right! No one! Because, you could be sipping a nice tea on the veranda and all of a sudden a bunch of men in a truck, with guns, they drive by yelling about the god and in his name. I watched it on something with Anthony Berdaine when he made that lamb dish and one really ate. they could have been blown up and dead which is most likely why they were not that hungry..I would eat his lamb!
ha ha


There is a lady who is so so soo blessed. She comes in the store and she is so so blessed and she closes her eyes and says how lucky she is because she uses high ph water only on her face which she refers to as "acid water" lol. She always wears a hat even when it is raining to avoid any of the sun's rays.
She will say it like 5 times in a sentence and each time I cringe a little.
"acid woatah"
ha ha ha
she always tells me how blessed she is. she is dainty like a southern bell and was once pretty very very pretty and she is 70 ish..yes she is blessed..she gets to eat kale and her organic bone broth and she gets to use acid water on her face (cringing) and she has no clue about El Salvador and how they are so hungry and live in tiny hovels and they are not us..not as blessed I suppose. they can start a fire in a rain storm though.

Sometimes I wonder what would happen to those people in a zombie apocalypse..they would be the first food for the zombies! When all you are worried about is measuring your food intake so you can be perfectly thin and perfectly ageless, and have experienced nothing more than maybe an ocean cruise..yea, zombie food.

Wake up, say hello, good morning, have a good day and work work work..

Now I am hungry!

what I like

I like clean white sheets and talks about philosophy not politics..
"mom you turn every discussion in to a bible reference!"
"that is because we've all been indoctrinated in such ways that have been ingrained in us since man could write and look what he told us!"
"what?"
"kill anyone, anything that is not your god, and kill a witch in your home who
uses tonics and herbs to heal."
I mean really!
How do you expect me not to react!?

First off, chanting and secret words are powerful and you know that. So why are you so upset when a woman does it? Oh, you have to be the one to choose the words, don't you?
Second, if you are sick and I mean really really sick, do you go to church and pray for god, or try medicines, homeopathy, herbs, tonics, vinegar, pot..
Now there is something right there..with the drugs which you know, they will give you a known toxin that slowly kills you but pot, no no no..they freak out and put people in jail.
Why do they care so much about it?
Who are these "they"?
They are the people who are following god's laws interpreted in their own understandings and they carry on and lead your communities. In the 1910 to 1930's 40's..they taught creationism in schools as a lesson..this is not accurate and just ridiculous posturing for their gods but it effected how we do things here in the usa..circumcision for example is common in most hospitals today in order to mutilate your sons, our sons for god, for the state, for the community in case they see skin.."eewwweooo" they will say..humn..all for the lie that the genitals are not clean otherwise!
After all that, we die.
No matter what. What if your best loved one was hated by god because he sent him to his once bestie satan, to be tortured. You are in heaven and how can you be happy knowing your loved one is suffering. I do not see it.

 God and satan, they made a deal and becuase god, he did not could not kill him because he loves him still, why? Well, he loves him.
He can not stop even though he hates him, and blames and allows him  hurt the things he loves ( us??) over and over until he can Finally maybe sometime in this vast universe, say he is faking it. He has no real powers? Where is he, even Jesus said when he comes back to get even the stars will fall from the sky. He had no idea how stars work, we now do. Our star the sun is a star and it will expand and fry us back in to oblivion. Back to our simplest state.
There is one passage in the old testament where he (god) actually says he is satan and everything, everything, thou art everything and if my heart is pure and I beg enough, you will secretly come to me because you are shy aren't you? After all these years, after all the changes, after the mass extinctions and volcanoes blowing up and making  rocks and mountains and food for creatures that have long gone, you show up in the worst place on earth to punish because now you are pissed!
"Kill anyone who worships other gods because I am a jealous god"


Okay okay..I am just saying :)
and one more ting..
:)

a wonderful man named Kurt hugs me and says happy new year and all that and then he went on a jesus little moment..he likes to be a missionary and it is actually his job.
He told me about how "jesus could have jumped off that cross and got even right then and there but no, he made the ultimate sacrifice by suffering the worst suffering one could at that time in history to prove his love for us and save us.."
Saved us huh?
I like him  so much and remember thinking those very same thoughts not 20 years ago. I do not anymore because I have learned about manipulation and deceit the hard way.
Look, when it goes from, "kill your son to prove you love me" to "look, how I killed my son to prove I love you!", yea, I say things.
Not to Kurt, not too much, he freaks out. He is so full of "god's love"!

How do you feel bout that? Am I a disrespectful, feminist bitch, nigger lover, fuking witch, old whore? (yes, I have heard all of those things yelled at me)
What kind of insults can you think of next to insult and torture someone you say you love no matter what..seems like the one you love no matter what runs the worst place in your universe and you gave him more power than your self to taunt and torture your things?
Can anyone please make up a new story where we can all be a part of  this rock we are on and where we work to make it pretty? I love flowers and old trees and seeds and bees and health the right way, the real way not garcinia cambogia and CLA..they do not work and your money should better spent.
You want the instant miracle that creationism proposes don't you now?
LOLOLOL
Nothing is instant..not one thing..the big bang is still right now happening..all true!


Time to clean the shop and my work space so that I can make room for all the oils of 2017.
More sprays?
More oils?
More fun fun yummy soap fat that are smelly?
Oh, yea..



learn
build on
ask
do
love everything

good morning on this cold cold day

It is frozen and cold here in southern Michigan.
I am having a wonderful pressed coffee and having a little sit down to write a little bit about stuff and thangs..
Still in a deep muck of mercury retrograde? It is okay, so everything  is crazy, it is always crazy!

I am feeling a bit weird because people..
You know I work retail, anyone can become a stalker.
They almost do until they find out, I am crazier than any thing they can think of and they will not shock me..
sure I was shocked when I saw pictures of a girls room with burns on her clothes from the crack she was smoking.
""hey have you seen Linda, she looks great, she is so thin now."
I never answered anything back to that because , who cares? And, she was really pretty as a chunky girl, not some shriveled up fake lipped whore who went to crack for the rest of her needs..
I was shocked but not surprised at all that she caved her self like that..
Bad things, bad people can be doing things for a long time till we find out. And so what when we do find out? The shock, the wave of pain that kind of flashes inside of us when it is actually a family member doing the damage to him or her self??
It happens.

Mercury retrograde stirs things up for sure..
Things will clear up in no time so don't go freaking out and take control of your tasks as if they are your friends, lovers and always always going your way..I think that is why we make stuff, that is why I do.
Do something which brings goodness, happiness and real life changes each day and for sure change as you need to.

My mom, speaking about my daughters boyfriend..
"you shouldn't let that boy spend the night there so much, it is not moral (she said it in greek)."
"Then Kani" it means it is not to be done, disproved and improper..when they say, "rezeeli" it means really shameful! She did not say Rezeeli and has not said it for a very long time.

I am an amazing woman and mother, she wolf, bear claw, warrior...

Me :)
"I want my daughter to be happy"


Remember when we could not even live together because the boy had to be Greek and we had to be married and we had to build a life and we had to show up in church and we had to dance the Greek dance and we had to praise the lord and never take communion on our periods?
Yea, I do...
I remember sneaking around and hanging out with the Greek girls was so boring..then one of them wanted to go drinking at bars with me. I don't drink, she had a bad time and later died from cocaine addiction and no more money for cocaine. she said I was a nerd. I am.


Slow down to think.
Be a part of your doings and don't be so bored.
Find something to clean up..
you will need your money for more important things
your addictions will catch up with you
it is good to face what needs to go
let it go
it is not important in the whole scheme of things
what you think you must have at this very moment, must wait
unless it is the simple pleasures of a nice bar of soap and a good story to invoke a feeling :)
Your loved ones that are far away that you think about so kindly and so full of respect, admiration and full on acceptance of them
To me, that is precious that we think of one another in such kind ways. This makes me happy.

We are interesting life forms so easily distracted by the shaking and rumbling of our spinning rock and the huge ass magnets that spin it/us around our star..so helpless we are in proportion to that force and yet we can dwell on some crazy stress factors that push us to make decisions. Be they smart or not so smart..
do not think you can control everything, control the drugs, control every bite of food.
I understand..learn and study what needs to improve in your life. You are not more better or more moral because you only eat plants, that is a myth..cells are alive and have faces..lol

*** on another note***
The old whore is almost ready to be poured in a mix of creamy decadent soap base..mmm
she will have blood orange, neroli and bergamot on top
rose, jasmine in the middle
oakmoss
labdanum
patchouli
vetiver
and my secret stash of syrup of old dirty oils..it is like adding the mother when you make a culture..
it is like a culture..
each batch having been collected through time, and the thoughts and ideas that came to mind and the strength I had to pull
and the soothing touch I sometimes gave
to a girl or boy who was lucky enough to have my hands on them
I have a touch
you all know it is true
It does come through in everything I do
wheeeeeee

my friends and loves and those who think for themselves

Thank you for telling it like it is and if you are someone who has been here a long time like me, you are bound to have one or two funky experiences..I am so bad at funky, I am like a three year old crying because he is so tired but won't go to sleep.
One of my loves told me this,
"it is only the best when you make it for you, when you make other's recipes you are not happy"

It is true, so dang true. What am I  to do? Make the best things for me or simply follow what you might expect? Am I projecting in error, likely. Am I thinking that everyone feels as I do and expect that to be true? I do hope so:) every time, I pour that intention in a soap cream and stir as if it is the best cake in the universe..super nova sized intentions...
I do what the conditions allow me to do and make.
When it comes to soap I do, I suppose. When it comes to criteria I expect in my home for example..
For soap though, I like to think that I am always growing and developing as need be.
If I am making a soap cake, and batch after batch it is not the same..it is all dependent on all sorts of factors. the weather during growth, the heat and rains, the soils and the effects of distillations from year to year. It all matters in the final thing. It is fat transformed and one cannot expect that to remain the same. I am using a rather dark olive oil at the moment, almost black and so the colors of the soaps will be more in the gray tones and dark greens..I like it because, it is a nice blend of actual olive oil that I also cook with. This adds to the quality and feel of my products. I hope that you know that which is why you use my products..yes? Thank you :)
I do not care to conform to trivial changes. I do care to be precise on healing ingredients. More than I have ever been because to me the effects of the final wash must be a trans formative satisfying delight. To force outcomes may bring disappointments and sorrow..in our lives and in our skin care. I think that me projecting and guiding is the way it is. My customers must be allowed and for sure to allow themselves to enjoy what is given and not look for minor ingredient errors..silliness..
and smart..I will be more precise on the list..and here is where must work this next year, this year.

I am a crafter, soap witch and healer. I do  know that and sometimes I get a stomach ache from knowing too much about people. You have it too? I know you do. It is called "me and you being smart"!

:)
Going forward, I have to make more old whore soap..sigh..
I am waiting for rose and neroli and some really smooth vetiver. I have awesome labdanum and some really nice oak moss..my citrus will be blood orange and bergamot..I am so excited about it because I sold my last bar the other day and have felt the loss of having her around for that special body wash
that lingers oh so beautifully.
I will make a balm for a gorgeous  fresh gift with each purchase of old whore soap..Our life is very good babies, do not forget  how proud I am to have you in my life, you are wonderful and a high thinker and never drag me down with judgements..I am fine, you are so so fine!

I am also making a jasmine based soap.. jasmine, citrus, deep amber notes, beeswax absolute, linden blossom,,it has its place, jasmine. It is nice for us who are at times afraid of our sexuality and the deeply subtle changes that happen in our bodies..mmmm jasmine is sex in so many ways.

I need to meditate on her for a while..simmer her ideas in  to my cells and then finally pour it all in fat! My life is good for that!

2017 and all that is now

Happy New Year!

While everyone is busy saying good bye to 2016 and claiming how bad it is was and should be done with and can't be done with..
:)

I would like to express my complete and total gratitude for a nice year, great kids (most of em)), my mom and dad, the house, my house, the broken dryer..
I get to work at an exciting place, I get to work with with really nice people and I will say this , that is nice nice nice.:)
I am challenged in so many ways. I strive to learn and get better with each task. My prep times for soap are spot on, prep, create, clean up and dry wipe for the next day..soap making...something I can whip together or plan for years and years..
Like the calendula soap I just made. rare, one of a kind and forever the only one you will own..why? Not only is calendula expensive in this form, and not only have I put all of it in there and finally after years and years let it go in to a creamy dense batter of fat..It was glorious in the sense that one can hold on to stuff and look at it or take glory in the moment and use what is now for now..

Even soap can be philosophical..it is. You can tell by the kind of people that use essential oils and how they want to use them. For health and holistic lifestyles or for another thing some one sold to you in their living room.."living" room...ha ha ha
Get a book, really study and then we can talk. Eating oils is wasting oils..stop..remember when I got so mad over rhassoul? Now it is not enough that we have salt to eat from the Himalayas, we need lamps and  chairs to sit on made of salt..ohhhh :)
Can you imagine a huge salt bath tub made of Himalayan pink salt?
How many of those could there ever be? One? The lamps though, they sell like hot cakes! By the thousands!
It is crazy how the masses are.
They want happiness and contentment. everybody does.
Don't they?


The past.....
It seems like so much hard work all this intrigue and haste and clandestine rumors on line and on line pictures of strangers..Logan's Run anyone? None of it is too real so the guilt is not as bad until some looser who lost his head in pride dives even deeper in to debauchery and attacks little girls or young boys..hence the "sex offender".
Mohamed had a wife at 9 years old and he is a saint to many on earth today . Are they sex offenders,  the masses too dumb to see the ruse set forth by their own greed and false self worth? Does it trickle down, each word and each action you take? What you withhold from people you love?
Some might find themselves to be the creeper, ready to pounce on the weakest person in their life because that is the only way they can stand to be alive or something?

I do not know..I wonder at the audacity of it all. and yet time ticks, and some of us, you and me, we  are here and we know what is real and hardy and tasty and a good. I feel like you and me, we see stuff, and want the best things not just what we want..sometimes the best things hurt us. It hurts and we cry and then we still continue the next day.


cherish each task
take your time
be greedy for joy
health
be content that there is  always money in your bag
money comes easily
money is easy
money  loves you
do your good with money
2017 is wealth and money handling

2017 equals 1..begin by always prepping to begin

happiness on dec 31

The real last day is now and tomorrow and the next day.
I am like Rick from The Walking Dead when I  say, "we are the walking dead."
:)
Yesterday this man came in. Sweet face and had a concern about the temperatures of vitamins or something I thought was time wasting of brain, but hey, okay..
I told him extreme temps are bad for vitamins but not if you just leave them in the car over night. Yes, keep probiotics in the cooler but your multi can handle the counter top or cabinet. How do you think they get to the store on a truck through the USA and to me and the I finally line them up just right  for you on a shelf.
I told him dampness and heat were his culprits and not to worry too much about it.
"oh, thanks" He looked at my eyes like he was trying to to see what I was about..they all do that.
"aren't you concerned about dying?", he asked me.
I took a moment and told him, "I am not overly concerned. It is going to happen..it IS going to happen no matter what, I just want to be happy and do my best right now. ( much work to be done on that little plan of mine)"
He stayed a while and shared some more things of his life to me. He was not a secret shopper asking some droll question and I think I could sense his need to share a bit of himself. He told me his age, same as mine and he was elated..funny.
Later  in my workday the older lady came in talking about soap. "I want to try your soap...:)"
My blood pressure!
They get so greedy and do not know what they want.
In the first sentence she is like "oh, I am sensitive and oh, I am not a fan of lavender, I really want to try your soap."
Go on line, read about what you want and then we'll talk. I do not like it when it begins with, " I hate", I like it when it is, "I love everything. I love. I love everything"
I love you
I love lavender and even sickening spikenard too. Sometimes I want rosemary!
I love the way cedarwood can turn my stomach because I know it is something big that needs budging..
Go, read about the way jasmine can make you feel and how my new soap with illepe and calendula  might just bring your skin some real time healing zeal..

I will make a face nugget  for you too..my little greedy ones..I will make it with calendula and sea buckthorn and just the right sweet touch of honey..mmmm

Have a wonderful day today, you sing me a song just like right now, say each word that pops in to your head and let people feel your joy. I do! I love you so much..so so so much!

friday goodness

are you really going to party down just because a turn of a clock?
Make a skin care night right now!
Clean your face but good and then curl up and rest.
I will watch movies and thrive in other ways this coming year. Which movies? Maybe just lectures on math again, the same one I should watch over and over and how there are only five shapes there can ever be.
5..only five and forever five..
wow, how can any one care about a purse more than that wonderfulness?


I just read my last post..drivel and errors as usual but I think there are seeds of truth to my writing so I will continue and just write whatever I want. No one can beat me up for my thoughts anymore and that is nice. So I spew like any Libran would. Speaking of Librans. that Oscar Wild! He writes his pain so elegantly, his own pain all day though. He was clearly once attractive just like Dorian Gray..
This is not a book review though..
I really want to talk about what I am working on this morning and yesterday and the days before.
An olive oil cleanser. My girls seem to want it so we will make more than one.

How about a set then?
Like a dry mask and an oily wash and a little bit toner with apple cider vinegar?

It is really nice.

The oily rose gelee' is not as thick as you might imagine and you only need a half of a dropper to wash your whole face. There are actually two of these interesting oily cleansers and face tonics. jasmine with linden and honey for those times when you want the secret powers of jasmine which are self worth, female empowerment (by not being scared of men) and allowing wealth to come easily and often. To me that is jasmine. I can put it on my heart and speak of more profound things and I can put it on my belly to attract more carnal yet satisfying demands of my human form. :)

 In this set, there is a fabulous mask you can use wet or dry. I am sending it dry. You can mix the oily gelee' with a little dry powder to get a nice scrub effect or just add water. The gelee is so nice..on its own... allow the gentle easy glide of oils on your face. So nice! Rinse  with hot water right in the shower or hold a nice hot towel to the face.

 The toner is a wee vial of spring water, apple cider vinegar which contains a lovely blend of refreshing oils; frankincense, lavender, bergamot..just a drop..the lavender is Bulgarian.

I am a little challenged with labels this merc retro..so far this is what I am cooking up.

tonight soap..cedarwood, patchouli, lavender vetiver..mmmmmmmm 

Let us remember soap and when we run out, there is is only one place to go..mine, on line..:)

platonic solids

http://mathworld.wolfram.com/PlatonicSolid.html

So much beauty in math, right?
Is there a philosophy to mathematics and what is the benefit of understanding platonic solids and the extension to sacred geometry?
Dude, I am a soapmaker mamma! Don't expect all the truths to be commin' out my mouth..just some of them.. :)




I hope you are doing well on this fine lovely day, it is not freezing out there but the chill in the air says stay in as much as possible. I have to speak with the insurance lady about my car and fix the dryer because Mercury retrograde breaks stuff.
One thing about Merc..fast, brave, Merc, hot blooded merc...lying fuk merc..don't worry though, while he is kissing you, he has a twinkle in his eyes and already looking at a way out..or you are.
Are you looking a  door? Not death. leave death to the famous.
A door and a way out of a mess you are making right now. Good. It is not your mess. You get so scattered, it is not even funny. Leaving a trail of crumbs and garbage..
yes you have. It is time to stop and take a look at what you have created. What you have allowed and pushed in order to keep a person where you want them. And for what?
Now what, your lies and cheating have brought you to this point. Are you going to be a beggar then? Are you going to be a swimmer like a stealthy deep sea kind not some wee sardine anyone can gobble up. Leave that to the masses who flock now to essential oils like hungry vampires.
Next week, it will become other them which will end their mental suffering and breakdowns and their hunger for more anything to make it even better than it is.

realize this..:))
"if pennises grew on trees, we would not need men" ( I don't know who quoted it))
ha ha ha ha
Not True!!
me, "well, just because you are strong, you do not get to me mean"

Men are mean. They get to be mean and beat on us or burn us or marry us and then beat us, whether with words or actual beatings..I have had both.Greeks beat their kids in the olden days and right now somewhere there is a 12 year old girl being tortured and beaten by a man who is strong and mean..bad combo..not that women are any better in this..look at the same mother who is willing to cut off flesh from her daughters vagina  so that she never feels pleasure!

We need each other, we should love each other, we are the same and man is not better that woman.. stronger physically but not better.. so stop with the bickering and get to work,. read a book, clean your room, wipe down the tub and look in your corners for debris you just been passing by for days and days and finally now you  must, you must take that sickle and swipe..do it.
Do not swipe at others just to make your self feel more important. You are not more important.

the numbers game and mercury retrograde in capricorn

Capricorn which is ruled by Saturn
which also brings the guy with the cape and the big scythe or sickle
This represents many many things all relating to reaping what you sew
harvest
wealth
disease
control of snakes..
also to castrate..wow!


Saturn Cronnos
same

He is not a nice guy at all. We want to love him because he kills snakes while we are trying to cut the wheat  so we can eat for the winter and our children will live through the winter where no fresh food is available for months. One can see why we created these images to soothe the inevitable. The darkness and the inner struggles we all must face. Sometimes, I am wrecked for weeks over stuff. it is my emotional nature and why I lean towards crafting and as I have plenty of Saturn aspects in my chart, it would seem that I am no stranger to pain and getting my shit together..

I am like a 12 year old child in so many ways and like a fuking guru in so many other ways.

That is all about Capricorn. The ability to really experience inside something subtle and real and painful and uncomfortable and a need  for this is so great in us that we make up images to  help deal. We are all Saturn and that is my point. Also people die, get over it..they die, you will die, I will die and the house payment will go to someone else. :0)) I am not going anywhere just yet..maybe...I think though, I will make it through this cold.

There is something which binds us. It is created by our brains and when we all think basically the same thing but in different languages, we create our gods based on how we survived another day. Saturn is not about just surviving though. There is a deeper meaning always and yes, big loss, heavy rains, and body diseases which cannot be avoided in their task being as that we can only get to them after they get to us..ever wonder about that?

This does not  mean we are helpless. Saturn teaches us to cut through the bullshit and stay on task or die. Elevate yourself so the crawlers cannot easily get to you.

The numbers game is  an interesting little addition to my rant this morning..

2016=9

2017=10=1

nines are about ending, shedding unnecessary dispositions and your thoughtless habits

tens are about starting something new after sobering realities..

yea....

rest reload and back to work mercury retrograde

I will take another week off from soap making and then back to work.
I have actually never taken this much time off from soap. I make soap all the time on any day depending on my energy levels.
This year I sold everything I made. mostly..every special deal is gone though.
How lovely!
I do always say. I sell everything I make. I should make more.
I make what needs made. :)

Everyone in my family received lavender oat soap as gifts. So good! They seemed to love it. People in my family are oddly conventional. It is the way most folks are so I kept it simple for them.
For us, we want complex, patchouli, fougere, beautiful fresh bergamot with frankincense because we want that. We love the refreshing feeling from a good citrus rush or a deep rose.


I will be making more turmeric neem soap though and more interesting loveliness from what ever my brain wants.

Mercury retrograde
Don't go spending too much of your cash because bills and reality  are real. It is nice to think that something good is going to happen each morning when you wake up and I do. Do not be naive to reality..bad things do happen. As Mercury got in its set up to go retrograde..
I got in an accident, and now suffer from a bug with great power..
bed rest and tea.
Mercury retrograde brings out lies and slimy stuff all day so be aware of lies and obsessive behavior. Be aware of lies and cheaters and be aware if you are one too.
Greedy much? Yes, it shows on you!
You do not have to say every thought.
You do not have to "hang" out with people just because they want to.
Plans will change.
Jealous fucking bitches will say mean things..hell, bitches say mean things and beware of their onslaughts..walk away. By bitches I mean man or woman..bitches!
ha ha ha ha

welcome to the dark

Things are what they are right now because of what you have brought to the table.
I bring you grease and oil and fat and wax and dried plants and roots to settle your back.
a smile on your face now and then
sometimes no because you think I am talking to you
I am of course and me and them
You think I am judging and crying and yelling
I am not
I am simply presenting a new subtle more interesting plot
that is when I have my best words coming out
that is when pure delight at the thought and a little discomfort at the prospects
the expectations and continued rejections of people who are stuck
in hate
in lies
in jealousy which is hate
in rushing
in exclusive rights
in perfect little lies
yuk
a trail of stars..whoosh...

who am I but an old witch
doing my thing way before you came along and tried to claim me
climbing hills and crying for love
dying for love
chefin for love
making soap while crying many times in the early days. You were't there
you didn't see the pain and suffering I saw on others and how they live
maybe you went and stayed in a hotel where they all served you and went home to their rice and beans
I don't know about it
I only know that is is okay and we are not the same..

I am an old witch
not afraid of my truths
I am aging beautifully and I didn't say without woes..
only that I do it with grace
that is the only goal
to wake up refreshed and ready
I am ready and the lines on my face reflect something from each step of my time here.
I am content
happy
grateful to be sure
look nice and smell great
this is me at 58
"hello"








content...
Except when a secret shopper doesn't like me which is 50/50, then I freak out..like a big baby..what do you mean I didn't engage enough? I spent friking 10 minutes explaining to them how creams are made  because the fake question was fake and you didn't even care! putas!
What, who is this whore that  that said"I rattled off some names of products"? I do not rattle, maybe she should learn more words. Everyone knows I speak  quite clearly. Too clearly..

The way I look at it is this..Stockholm Syndrome..that is when you begin to sympathize with your captors..crazy true!
In a more subtle sense, secret shoppers are an insidious way to spy on your work force. You should be on the floor talking to them but you are too fucking busy to see what they actually do there. there are cameras, it is not enough. You would rather waste money for an added expense so that you can spy on your "team" mates..sure,sure.
If you are married think of it this way. This includes lovers and mates and all the gay and trans youngish want or think about...your lover and you just had the best sex ever, you ate apples (only apples, nothing with bread) in bed and made love like the stars shooting through your bodies, sweat rhythm eyes connected to something greater..In the morning as you have coffee and look in to each other's eyes, you say your "good days" and go..only to fully accept, that your partner sent a person just sneaking up on you to make sure you use all the right words and talk they way your lover wants and then to also make him money and never give him cause to be jealous and he will make sure..or she, or them..Isn't it a little bit like that?
"I love you, thank you, I don't trust you and never will, here is some more money."
"okay, thank you so much, I had better use all the right words"
:)
:)
did you like the shooting stars through the body part?

solstice 2016

Solstice2016
ashes ashes bring roses next year..

I have been reviewing a lot about humans and how we linger on ideas that keep  us separate from our culture, society, and each other. If you let people to privately chant and worship, leave them alone..who cares? I guess the  dummies who would send their 7 year old daughter to be blown up for God..nice one dip shit!
All I know is that I work at a very busy place and we work together in a store and you can't bring that shit in there. Every one comes, all of us, in robes and and dots and shaved heads
with glasses on and with skirts and capes and really high heels. models and tv girls.
and with green capes too..it is cool and babies  babies and more babies..I love the babies..Jack comes to me now..for hugs..Ah luvs them..there's one with a red coat, lucy..we all don't care about any of the differences.
It is super interesting in a way that when I read the news and of the greater violence on Earth based on religion and separation of ideas and how people actually live and work together.
Here in the Detroit area, it has always been diversity, blacks, whites, mexicans, my cousin helen married a guy and  they called him mexican..all I remember is that he was beautiful and I know some purists say things like "taking away our culture" and "the american way"..
which time. My  great grand dad came here in 1913, which culture should prevail over all of the american way ones?

Well,  I will take it further.
the smarter that you are, the less likely you want to kill other people.
In Costa Rica they call dark skinned people "neggro" as an endearment..it is fine. Changing that endearment to a bad word is mean, jerkavich!
The smarter that you are, you don't demand religious foods on others..you just never do.
And don't tell me Stalin was an atheist..he was raised orthodox christian his whole life.
Remember everything is built on something before that..that is evolution and never stops..even if you never change your mind, it does not stop..
He continued with remarks..
"look at Japan, 98% Japanese"
I don't give one thread about that..lol "They come to my store too, it is totally cool, they have money."
"I am talking about our ..culture.", he said..
"So what? How do you t think he native  nations felt when men  came here with guns and bombs and disease, slowly making them as if strangers in the land their forefathers built up on, made languages and yes they believed that a giant turtle held the earth..but the knew nature and followed the seasons and were tough and fit..ah, the white man came and made it their land??"
it was not that long ago in time..
Humans as we are are very young  are only babies in this whole time thing. Who knows what is next?
The smarter that you are the less likely you are to make war on others.
I am not saying don't fight. Smart people listen to other  smart people, do not believe in fairy tales and know the real powers of the mind.
(by the way, it is a myth that you only use 12% of your brain..you use 100%..it is always working for you)
When you are longing for knowledge you do not linger on myths too long, you can not.

"Can you be super smart and super hateful?" He asked me changing the subject.

"Imposing as an intelligent person while still lingering on false myths is not only a lie my friend but it is not smart. It is stubborn pride. I am talking about real intelligence which  is telepathic, telekinetic and always does not care about you personally, only you should care about you personally.."


2017..hello my friends hello
you make 2017 which is 10..of course we must burn and destroy the already disgusting violence once and for all and leave the zombies in ashes so that roses can grow, not only are they so nice and sweet smelling, then make every one happy while they study and learn more about awesome stuff..and will now linger  linger on a wooden goddess on my healing heart
( a sweet sweet girl sent this to me)
as I sat on a chair crying I noticed an unexpected delivery for me..it was a sweet sweet kind and I calmed down more holding a little goddess made of wood, naked, reaching for the stars..
I was crying..
because the boy who hit me just then and broke my car but good..
I was so shaken..
"what the fuk dude!"
I saw his eyes were so sad and sweet.."why??"
he said shaken, "I had better get my papers.."
I am like oh, yea, the papers..every one took pictures..
well, how inconvenient, I must say, friends and that thank goodness, no one  was hurt..the cars are broken but good and now my back is a little disrupted..I am fine over all.
I saw him in the shopping mall driveway...he just drove out in the road!
I was so mad and did not wonder if he was my enemy based on his skin color, race or religion. I just saw his face as a boy about 25 and he was nice. sweet boy.. my car?
broken and fixable..earth?

by 2038 religions will be rare, the numbers do not lie or care..they don't..to say that they do is stubborn pride I suppose.


I want to wish you a most amazing time of reprieve, solitude and resting and eating and being content because family and mamma and papou and babies..
I love you all so much and know that always!

this whole year a letter to me this cold dark day

Breath in deeply because it is almost over. It is not really, we just know by the sun and where it is from where we stand, that, the year is over..we are going to have very short days and the next few nights will be loooooong....

review opportunities
review habits
review friendships
be honest
be free for guilt
free from worry that someone does not love you enough
they never will
move on
be free to say to your own self what it is that you want
be greedy for nice company not stuff unless it is my soap and in that case, be greedy

Breathe in and begin each day with a nice thought
a good plan
easy words with friends and work mates
say to them, "thank you"
say to them, "I am sorry" or "I love you" or both!

Remember who you are..
Who are you?
What do you love?
What do you learn each day?
Why the need to impress?

It is not your shoes or your hair style but it is what is going on in your head..

Learn from your mistakes instead of making reasons for them..reasons are bullshit..you always do what you want..
..because Christmas is just a few short days away. What ever the peace you aim for the next six or 8 weeks, well, stay warm, stay calm, eat well and love me more.

okay then..

time to work you fuking bitch witch whore (me)
xxx:)