happiness on dec 31

The real last day is now and tomorrow and the next day.
I am like Rick from The Walking Dead when I  say, "we are the walking dead."
:)
Yesterday this man came in. Sweet face and had a concern about the temperatures of vitamins or something I thought was time wasting of brain, but hey, okay..
I told him extreme temps are bad for vitamins but not if you just leave them in the car over night. Yes, keep probiotics in the cooler but your multi can handle the counter top or cabinet. How do you think they get to the store on a truck through the USA and to me and the I finally line them up just right  for you on a shelf.
I told him dampness and heat were his culprits and not to worry too much about it.
"oh, thanks" He looked at my eyes like he was trying to to see what I was about..they all do that.
"aren't you concerned about dying?", he asked me.
I took a moment and told him, "I am not overly concerned. It is going to happen..it IS going to happen no matter what, I just want to be happy and do my best right now. ( much work to be done on that little plan of mine)"
He stayed a while and shared some more things of his life to me. He was not a secret shopper asking some droll question and I think I could sense his need to share a bit of himself. He told me his age, same as mine and he was elated..funny.
Later  in my workday the older lady came in talking about soap. "I want to try your soap...:)"
My blood pressure!
They get so greedy and do not know what they want.
In the first sentence she is like "oh, I am sensitive and oh, I am not a fan of lavender, I really want to try your soap."
Go on line, read about what you want and then we'll talk. I do not like it when it begins with, " I hate", I like it when it is, "I love everything. I love. I love everything"
I love you
I love lavender and even sickening spikenard too. Sometimes I want rosemary!
I love the way cedarwood can turn my stomach because I know it is something big that needs budging..
Go, read about the way jasmine can make you feel and how my new soap with illepe and calendula  might just bring your skin some real time healing zeal..

I will make a face nugget  for you too..my little greedy ones..I will make it with calendula and sea buckthorn and just the right sweet touch of honey..mmmm

Have a wonderful day today, you sing me a song just like right now, say each word that pops in to your head and let people feel your joy. I do! I love you so much..so so so much!

friday goodness

are you really going to party down just because a turn of a clock?
Make a skin care night right now!
Clean your face but good and then curl up and rest.
I will watch movies and thrive in other ways this coming year. Which movies? Maybe just lectures on math again, the same one I should watch over and over and how there are only five shapes there can ever be.
5..only five and forever five..
wow, how can any one care about a purse more than that wonderfulness?


I just read my last post..drivel and errors as usual but I think there are seeds of truth to my writing so I will continue and just write whatever I want. No one can beat me up for my thoughts anymore and that is nice. So I spew like any Libran would. Speaking of Librans. that Oscar Wild! He writes his pain so elegantly, his own pain all day though. He was clearly once attractive just like Dorian Gray..
This is not a book review though..
I really want to talk about what I am working on this morning and yesterday and the days before.
An olive oil cleanser. My girls seem to want it so we will make more than one.

How about a set then?
Like a dry mask and an oily wash and a little bit toner with apple cider vinegar?

It is really nice.

The oily rose gelee' is not as thick as you might imagine and you only need a half of a dropper to wash your whole face. There are actually two of these interesting oily cleansers and face tonics. jasmine with linden and honey for those times when you want the secret powers of jasmine which are self worth, female empowerment (by not being scared of men) and allowing wealth to come easily and often. To me that is jasmine. I can put it on my heart and speak of more profound things and I can put it on my belly to attract more carnal yet satisfying demands of my human form. :)

 In this set, there is a fabulous mask you can use wet or dry. I am sending it dry. You can mix the oily gelee' with a little dry powder to get a nice scrub effect or just add water. The gelee is so nice..on its own... allow the gentle easy glide of oils on your face. So nice! Rinse  with hot water right in the shower or hold a nice hot towel to the face.

 The toner is a wee vial of spring water, apple cider vinegar which contains a lovely blend of refreshing oils; frankincense, lavender, bergamot..just a drop..the lavender is Bulgarian.

I am a little challenged with labels this merc retro..so far this is what I am cooking up.

tonight soap..cedarwood, patchouli, lavender vetiver..mmmmmmmm 

Let us remember soap and when we run out, there is is only one place to go..mine, on line..:)

platonic solids

http://mathworld.wolfram.com/PlatonicSolid.html

So much beauty in math, right?
Is there a philosophy to mathematics and what is the benefit of understanding platonic solids and the extension to sacred geometry?
Dude, I am a soapmaker mamma! Don't expect all the truths to be commin' out my mouth..just some of them.. :)




I hope you are doing well on this fine lovely day, it is not freezing out there but the chill in the air says stay in as much as possible. I have to speak with the insurance lady about my car and fix the dryer because Mercury retrograde breaks stuff.
One thing about Merc..fast, brave, Merc, hot blooded merc...lying fuk merc..don't worry though, while he is kissing you, he has a twinkle in his eyes and already looking at a way out..or you are.
Are you looking a  door? Not death. leave death to the famous.
A door and a way out of a mess you are making right now. Good. It is not your mess. You get so scattered, it is not even funny. Leaving a trail of crumbs and garbage..
yes you have. It is time to stop and take a look at what you have created. What you have allowed and pushed in order to keep a person where you want them. And for what?
Now what, your lies and cheating have brought you to this point. Are you going to be a beggar then? Are you going to be a swimmer like a stealthy deep sea kind not some wee sardine anyone can gobble up. Leave that to the masses who flock now to essential oils like hungry vampires.
Next week, it will become other them which will end their mental suffering and breakdowns and their hunger for more anything to make it even better than it is.

realize this..:))
"if pennises grew on trees, we would not need men" ( I don't know who quoted it))
ha ha ha ha
Not True!!
me, "well, just because you are strong, you do not get to me mean"

Men are mean. They get to be mean and beat on us or burn us or marry us and then beat us, whether with words or actual beatings..I have had both.Greeks beat their kids in the olden days and right now somewhere there is a 12 year old girl being tortured and beaten by a man who is strong and mean..bad combo..not that women are any better in this..look at the same mother who is willing to cut off flesh from her daughters vagina  so that she never feels pleasure!

We need each other, we should love each other, we are the same and man is not better that woman.. stronger physically but not better.. so stop with the bickering and get to work,. read a book, clean your room, wipe down the tub and look in your corners for debris you just been passing by for days and days and finally now you  must, you must take that sickle and swipe..do it.
Do not swipe at others just to make your self feel more important. You are not more important.

the numbers game and mercury retrograde in capricorn

Capricorn which is ruled by Saturn
which also brings the guy with the cape and the big scythe or sickle
This represents many many things all relating to reaping what you sew
harvest
wealth
disease
control of snakes..
also to castrate..wow!


Saturn Cronnos
same

He is not a nice guy at all. We want to love him because he kills snakes while we are trying to cut the wheat  so we can eat for the winter and our children will live through the winter where no fresh food is available for months. One can see why we created these images to soothe the inevitable. The darkness and the inner struggles we all must face. Sometimes, I am wrecked for weeks over stuff. it is my emotional nature and why I lean towards crafting and as I have plenty of Saturn aspects in my chart, it would seem that I am no stranger to pain and getting my shit together..

I am like a 12 year old child in so many ways and like a fuking guru in so many other ways.

That is all about Capricorn. The ability to really experience inside something subtle and real and painful and uncomfortable and a need  for this is so great in us that we make up images to  help deal. We are all Saturn and that is my point. Also people die, get over it..they die, you will die, I will die and the house payment will go to someone else. :0)) I am not going anywhere just yet..maybe...I think though, I will make it through this cold.

There is something which binds us. It is created by our brains and when we all think basically the same thing but in different languages, we create our gods based on how we survived another day. Saturn is not about just surviving though. There is a deeper meaning always and yes, big loss, heavy rains, and body diseases which cannot be avoided in their task being as that we can only get to them after they get to us..ever wonder about that?

This does not  mean we are helpless. Saturn teaches us to cut through the bullshit and stay on task or die. Elevate yourself so the crawlers cannot easily get to you.

The numbers game is  an interesting little addition to my rant this morning..

2016=9

2017=10=1

nines are about ending, shedding unnecessary dispositions and your thoughtless habits

tens are about starting something new after sobering realities..

yea....

rest reload and back to work mercury retrograde

I will take another week off from soap making and then back to work.
I have actually never taken this much time off from soap. I make soap all the time on any day depending on my energy levels.
This year I sold everything I made. mostly..every special deal is gone though.
How lovely!
I do always say. I sell everything I make. I should make more.
I make what needs made. :)

Everyone in my family received lavender oat soap as gifts. So good! They seemed to love it. People in my family are oddly conventional. It is the way most folks are so I kept it simple for them.
For us, we want complex, patchouli, fougere, beautiful fresh bergamot with frankincense because we want that. We love the refreshing feeling from a good citrus rush or a deep rose.


I will be making more turmeric neem soap though and more interesting loveliness from what ever my brain wants.

Mercury retrograde
Don't go spending too much of your cash because bills and reality  are real. It is nice to think that something good is going to happen each morning when you wake up and I do. Do not be naive to reality..bad things do happen. As Mercury got in its set up to go retrograde..
I got in an accident, and now suffer from a bug with great power..
bed rest and tea.
Mercury retrograde brings out lies and slimy stuff all day so be aware of lies and obsessive behavior. Be aware of lies and cheaters and be aware if you are one too.
Greedy much? Yes, it shows on you!
You do not have to say every thought.
You do not have to "hang" out with people just because they want to.
Plans will change.
Jealous fucking bitches will say mean things..hell, bitches say mean things and beware of their onslaughts..walk away. By bitches I mean man or woman..bitches!
ha ha ha ha

welcome to the dark

Things are what they are right now because of what you have brought to the table.
I bring you grease and oil and fat and wax and dried plants and roots to settle your back.
a smile on your face now and then
sometimes no because you think I am talking to you
I am of course and me and them
You think I am judging and crying and yelling
I am not
I am simply presenting a new subtle more interesting plot
that is when I have my best words coming out
that is when pure delight at the thought and a little discomfort at the prospects
the expectations and continued rejections of people who are stuck
in hate
in lies
in jealousy which is hate
in rushing
in exclusive rights
in perfect little lies
yuk
a trail of stars..whoosh...

who am I but an old witch
doing my thing way before you came along and tried to claim me
climbing hills and crying for love
dying for love
chefin for love
making soap while crying many times in the early days. You were't there
you didn't see the pain and suffering I saw on others and how they live
maybe you went and stayed in a hotel where they all served you and went home to their rice and beans
I don't know about it
I only know that is is okay and we are not the same..

I am an old witch
not afraid of my truths
I am aging beautifully and I didn't say without woes..
only that I do it with grace
that is the only goal
to wake up refreshed and ready
I am ready and the lines on my face reflect something from each step of my time here.
I am content
happy
grateful to be sure
look nice and smell great
this is me at 58
"hello"








content...
Except when a secret shopper doesn't like me which is 50/50, then I freak out..like a big baby..what do you mean I didn't engage enough? I spent friking 10 minutes explaining to them how creams are made  because the fake question was fake and you didn't even care! putas!
What, who is this whore that  that said"I rattled off some names of products"? I do not rattle, maybe she should learn more words. Everyone knows I speak  quite clearly. Too clearly..

The way I look at it is this..Stockholm Syndrome..that is when you begin to sympathize with your captors..crazy true!
In a more subtle sense, secret shoppers are an insidious way to spy on your work force. You should be on the floor talking to them but you are too fucking busy to see what they actually do there. there are cameras, it is not enough. You would rather waste money for an added expense so that you can spy on your "team" mates..sure,sure.
If you are married think of it this way. This includes lovers and mates and all the gay and trans youngish want or think about...your lover and you just had the best sex ever, you ate apples (only apples, nothing with bread) in bed and made love like the stars shooting through your bodies, sweat rhythm eyes connected to something greater..In the morning as you have coffee and look in to each other's eyes, you say your "good days" and go..only to fully accept, that your partner sent a person just sneaking up on you to make sure you use all the right words and talk they way your lover wants and then to also make him money and never give him cause to be jealous and he will make sure..or she, or them..Isn't it a little bit like that?
"I love you, thank you, I don't trust you and never will, here is some more money."
"okay, thank you so much, I had better use all the right words"
:)
:)
did you like the shooting stars through the body part?

solstice 2016

Solstice2016
ashes ashes bring roses next year..

I have been reviewing a lot about humans and how we linger on ideas that keep  us separate from our culture, society, and each other. If you let people to privately chant and worship, leave them alone..who cares? I guess the  dummies who would send their 7 year old daughter to be blown up for God..nice one dip shit!
All I know is that I work at a very busy place and we work together in a store and you can't bring that shit in there. Every one comes, all of us, in robes and and dots and shaved heads
with glasses on and with skirts and capes and really high heels. models and tv girls.
and with green capes too..it is cool and babies  babies and more babies..I love the babies..Jack comes to me now..for hugs..Ah luvs them..there's one with a red coat, lucy..we all don't care about any of the differences.
It is super interesting in a way that when I read the news and of the greater violence on Earth based on religion and separation of ideas and how people actually live and work together.
Here in the Detroit area, it has always been diversity, blacks, whites, mexicans, my cousin helen married a guy and  they called him mexican..all I remember is that he was beautiful and I know some purists say things like "taking away our culture" and "the american way"..
which time. My  great grand dad came here in 1913, which culture should prevail over all of the american way ones?

Well,  I will take it further.
the smarter that you are, the less likely you want to kill other people.
In Costa Rica they call dark skinned people "neggro" as an endearment..it is fine. Changing that endearment to a bad word is mean, jerkavich!
The smarter that you are, you don't demand religious foods on others..you just never do.
And don't tell me Stalin was an atheist..he was raised orthodox christian his whole life.
Remember everything is built on something before that..that is evolution and never stops..even if you never change your mind, it does not stop..
He continued with remarks..
"look at Japan, 98% Japanese"
I don't give one thread about that..lol "They come to my store too, it is totally cool, they have money."
"I am talking about our ..culture.", he said..
"So what? How do you t think he native  nations felt when men  came here with guns and bombs and disease, slowly making them as if strangers in the land their forefathers built up on, made languages and yes they believed that a giant turtle held the earth..but the knew nature and followed the seasons and were tough and fit..ah, the white man came and made it their land??"
it was not that long ago in time..
Humans as we are are very young  are only babies in this whole time thing. Who knows what is next?
The smarter that you are the less likely you are to make war on others.
I am not saying don't fight. Smart people listen to other  smart people, do not believe in fairy tales and know the real powers of the mind.
(by the way, it is a myth that you only use 12% of your brain..you use 100%..it is always working for you)
When you are longing for knowledge you do not linger on myths too long, you can not.

"Can you be super smart and super hateful?" He asked me changing the subject.

"Imposing as an intelligent person while still lingering on false myths is not only a lie my friend but it is not smart. It is stubborn pride. I am talking about real intelligence which  is telepathic, telekinetic and always does not care about you personally, only you should care about you personally.."


2017..hello my friends hello
you make 2017 which is 10..of course we must burn and destroy the already disgusting violence once and for all and leave the zombies in ashes so that roses can grow, not only are they so nice and sweet smelling, then make every one happy while they study and learn more about awesome stuff..and will now linger  linger on a wooden goddess on my healing heart
( a sweet sweet girl sent this to me)
as I sat on a chair crying I noticed an unexpected delivery for me..it was a sweet sweet kind and I calmed down more holding a little goddess made of wood, naked, reaching for the stars..
I was crying..
because the boy who hit me just then and broke my car but good..
I was so shaken..
"what the fuk dude!"
I saw his eyes were so sad and sweet.."why??"
he said shaken, "I had better get my papers.."
I am like oh, yea, the papers..every one took pictures..
well, how inconvenient, I must say, friends and that thank goodness, no one  was hurt..the cars are broken but good and now my back is a little disrupted..I am fine over all.
I saw him in the shopping mall driveway...he just drove out in the road!
I was so mad and did not wonder if he was my enemy based on his skin color, race or religion. I just saw his face as a boy about 25 and he was nice. sweet boy.. my car?
broken and fixable..earth?

by 2038 religions will be rare, the numbers do not lie or care..they don't..to say that they do is stubborn pride I suppose.


I want to wish you a most amazing time of reprieve, solitude and resting and eating and being content because family and mamma and papou and babies..
I love you all so much and know that always!

this whole year a letter to me this cold dark day

Breath in deeply because it is almost over. It is not really, we just know by the sun and where it is from where we stand, that, the year is over..we are going to have very short days and the next few nights will be loooooong....

review opportunities
review habits
review friendships
be honest
be free for guilt
free from worry that someone does not love you enough
they never will
move on
be free to say to your own self what it is that you want
be greedy for nice company not stuff unless it is my soap and in that case, be greedy

Breathe in and begin each day with a nice thought
a good plan
easy words with friends and work mates
say to them, "thank you"
say to them, "I am sorry" or "I love you" or both!

Remember who you are..
Who are you?
What do you love?
What do you learn each day?
Why the need to impress?

It is not your shoes or your hair style but it is what is going on in your head..

Learn from your mistakes instead of making reasons for them..reasons are bullshit..you always do what you want..
..because Christmas is just a few short days away. What ever the peace you aim for the next six or 8 weeks, well, stay warm, stay calm, eat well and love me more.

okay then..

time to work you fuking bitch witch whore (me)
xxx:)

I have a hard time being clear or is it that hard to accept the things I say

My daughter says that...she is so smart.

okay then..I will tell you one thing..

merry solstice to me
merry solstice to you
may we speak with delight and may we greet with some and
I love your butt too

ha ha


I do not know if you read this blog for soap ideas or whatever crazy thing that comes out of my brain, but I am happy that you do and I feel like we know each other and that we are close, I feel ya..lol
see there is an invisible web of something, energy..but,  it is like a web and thing our energy, our good intention take energy and make sparks that happen..(true) and also there...wasted thoughts, all get on it and it expands so that we all are thinking the same way in our own unique tendencies and observations..that is why inventions come in cycles and political changes occur almost simultaneously throughout earth.
Why we are still in our gods phase and why we still argue and kill each other and eat like fuking pigs while eating pigs..ewee...

I am making soup with veggies today and I will try to be more clear. It is hard because I do not like having these conversations where I have to explain myself..I am a nervous person with hives when I think too fast..lol
:)

Orders are on line only.
I do not do deliveries, had I my own driver and how nice that would be..wow..I love that idea..my own driver, driving me and taking me and picking me  up in a warm car..how nice.. well, it is another story,
I do not have a store front..
Orders are on line only..
this way is best for me.
I can manage the inventory and no one is upset because I ran out of lavender sage soap or another favorite.
They are all favorites. just take a look at this dirty girl here..(fuking Negan has me cussin)

Dirty girl here...

dirty girl soap nuggets two dollars each
organic raspberry seeds
organic olive oil
organic coconut oil
shea butter
honey
glacial silt
aztec clay bentonite
organic jojoba
more honey
a drop geranium
frankincense
mandarin'
grapefruit
a drop petitgrain

lavender and oats

The last thing I am going to make in soap this year? Lavender with oats?

Maybe..You know how I get, you give me money, I buy oils and we go dancing..

It is all about the oils and never about me. 

Remember the chick who does not like pine? I  gave her a soap too, you know that. I don't understand how anyone can't like pine from white pine, but hey, maybe I have to be more choosy about who I do business with. That is the one thing I learned this year for sure.

About what my soap is worth and who get to have some. Not everyone for sure. No way. look, I make art, to me it is art, I love flavors and cooking and beautiful ideas..my ideas..yours. It is all up to you and how we respond to one another.

I feel like at work..you know, my other thing, women my age which I will occasionally meet, do not know me, what I have gone through such mountains and trials and my face shows the strain, I know it does..that is the witch part, that is the dark witch in mythology whether it is isis, or lilith or ceridwen..yea..I am for sure more ceridwen.

I feel like they do not know what I have seen. They got married and settled themselves in the subs..shopping for the right way to impress. No not all..not all..

Still,  there is a cast system and a tone to our humanity which cannot be denied..

I was wrong about us all being the same.We are not. Some are pretty and get to do more and go their own way. Some stay and drain your chinick till you can't breathe and they stress you out so bad you don't even know what to do first in your own tasks and they are wanting you, to be with you, to talk to you..it is nice for them..to be in a lighter place..they can't make their own light so they want to shine under yours, to get some of that luv..your love..:)

There are those who behave as a friend,  only to slide a little insult here and there because they can't just be fucking happy to see you shine, they have to say shit..fucking fuks! LOL

It is the holidays, they all come at you one after another and it is too many people, all day..

I am generally super happy always so that is why I an a valued member of the (team), all day, a thousand faces. I was actually brave enough to hide on my break and not speak for ten minutes to anyone..how nice it was. 

A bunch of shit happened so what

now you gotta run and hide to fix some broken stuff'now you might shame yourself 

for being such a cunt

I am not in charge of all you good

you must actually start

burn some sage, make some art

do it now before you rot

I am not your servant

I am but your enlightened host

watch as sprinkles of starlight leave a trail

let me see yours, I don't care, which :)

I will and be glad to will my good intentions and your good ones too

I will be happy for your success and your gratitude

 I love gratitude

It makes me happy and not rushed...

today, I  took a rest in a comfy bed, before that, I made soap for us..it is beautiful, kind, forgiving, rare, rich, super lavenderish and clean...

"lavender"

"take the space you need, you do not have burn out so that someone else can ignight.."

Lavender soap

4 ounces lavender oil

4 ounces shea

8 ounces organic oat ground up

32 ounces organic cold pressed coconut oil

80 or 90 ounces cold pressed olive oil

colder than a witches tit

I wonder what a tit has to do with anything? Is the witch naked and that is why her tit is cold? Is she big titted and her tits are always cold from jigglin?
I want to know. Why just the one tit? Does she have just one tit? Is it because she has to hide in the woods so they don't kill her because she won't follow their creeds? The fuking whores, chasing women and killing them..whores!

This season, I will remember how many died so that you and I can have a tree in the house. How many died so that they can have livable wages and money to buy things with, like food.
God hates that by the way. he said so..kill the people who worship other hods and if you bring a tree in the house that is bad and god punishes you and you family for generations..he loves generations of suffering for not killing a sheep the right way.
Still think that Christmas is Christian only? Santa? Christian? He is isn't remotely Christian.
hahahaa

Hey did you know in some states, that, if your religion is involved and you commit a crime based on your beliefs, they can consider its punishment based on your religion? Yes, there are people who want no separation from church and state and for their god  to run things. Like our new vice president..
see, I think he is lying. He knows evolution is real but the voters are dumb and  don't want evolution to be real to so he lies about it to the group and then they all believe it.
"yea, see, we are better.." They will say and think.
Not true no matter what they think.
No one is better and the witch out there in the cold hard woods is just like us, like you and me..but she does not speak your words and then you want to kill her. She knows trees have a way to communicate yet to be defined. She knows she was seeded here just like you and them.
Seeded..brought over by hot exploding fire breathing stars, churned out and spit out and flown out and pushed hard by heat and force so great as to not even be imagined yet..so so so hot and forceful as to push it all the way on this rock and more of course, more more more..to mars and saturn and all of them..
She is like you and me. You do not like that but it is true. You want to make up a large giant god to protect you after you die and keep you safe just like in fairy tales. You want to say that if I am good enough, if they are good enough..it is all lies..you are and are not good enough unless you strive right now in this short life to be. Our morality comes form within us, our home, our neighborhoods, our mom, our church..our pastor...having sex with boys in the alter is creepy, dudes..wtf!

Your thoughts and you actions show on your face. Are you sad or angry or desiring things which make you nervous so you take it out on the witch? Is that why you say that? "Colder than a witch's tit!"
I know! I see you doing it. It is a trigger for you. You are greedy for sex and what you deem and unholy and so you hate the witch you are fuking..the old whore you fuked over and over and then deemed her unworthy of your god's rules. The witch whose tits you would gladly whip and not give one care..ever hear of the Madonna complex?
 Men have been programmed for ages to behave this way about women..I think it is time we said something...
The torture of innocents, children and young boys, just not the young virgins who were as young as 9..Mohamed married Aliah and had sex with her at 9 years old..she was 9 not he. I don't know how old he was. It is creepy and I am thinking, "what a farce" The obsession with youth can go quite far with people that think they will not get caught..and frankly I would not want Santa lurking around my kid's rooms to make sure they are good.
"Do not sit on his lap. What are you thinking?"
I did not do that with my kids..I told them santa is mythology, my husband told them the lie..they loved the lie because he always made it look super cool..
that is how lies are..all polished and fake and we are all pretending...
"oh, come all ye faithful, joyful and triumphant.."
lies.."oh, bring money..god needs loads of money!"

I know people come to these blogs to be uplifted and hear wonderful inspiring ideas..I am all for it.
I want real happiness and not just the facebook kind..
Do you?

yesterday, I had a wonderful day with family and my loved ones. We at a great meal and had dialogue in a real way with our word to each other and not the computer. I felt a feeling of real gratitude and comfort because, "I love these goons", I thought to myself!
Plus I haven't had my tits whipped..now there is something to be glad about, I should post that on facebook!
xx

Hello

Uranus retrograde and get ready to screw up

Remember when I told you that we shouldn't overreact because things will break? I did at some point, I am sure:)
Well if you have already not felt this impact, I will say that the magnitude must rumble
and then if your not careful you will tumble down and dark hole you can't get out of
each step up and then half a step back.
Uranus being a higher octave of mars see? It fits into our myth as to always want to win. A race of homo sapiens..the mind and all that.
We don't want to be but we are a collective radiant thought inspired race of humanity.
We want to race against time and pretend and we want to be on the top winning side..oye, god forbid, ninx on that thought! Winning is complaix :)and fundamental only in crowds..
for me to win is for me to give and be free of want..that is winning..
Broken walls and giant chasms  between us does not change how our brains work together here on earth or they may yet to be defined ways in which our other planets shifts effect us electrically..How our sparks fly and what sparks burn things out.
Sudden realization, news and lovers are to be expected and not always for the seeming good..I am getting too far in the philosophical ideas..I am excited about so many things that I might just sing soon or cry, I don't know which.


Anxiety much? I am and you know why? I have had to face some hard truth for me. I am running a business and the post ruined a box , a very expensive box. I was  saying to my daughter, I said, "can you imagine every week's profits as good as this?"
She raised her eye brows at the prospect of such lovely thoughts..and then bamm, Uranus, package fucked up beyond repair..I am so upset at me, the thing, the time and the money and all of it..putas, I said be fucking gentle, handle with care and all that good stuff. I put it all in a big nice box too..oh man..
It is okay..I am okay and maybe the customer will be okay..it is a ball breaker for sure. I gave her a complete refund and did my best as I could. I  .am also sending her some new wrapping and labels and a glue stick if she can repair any of the product.

I feel better and want to say that if this is all that happens to upset me then my laaaife is  good...I will now continue packing orders a little more thoroughly and not fret and be free from guilt and worry. You know what I always say, "some money is not worth making"? Maybe it is true to some degree, or are there simply hills and valleys and words said and repairs made and maybe things broken..yup, living is this way and not just quotes from the facebook on how they think we should love each other.

Do you want me to talk about god some more?
ha ha ha ha
I have to make candles but maybe next time. :)