mars in aries and everyone wants to fight

We all  should always take this time to think more than act and don't think your secret habits will not catch up with you..
Also if you are a soap maker and smoke cigarettes, I will not use your soap. That stuff gets everywhere from your finger tips.

Habits! Time to stop doing stuff that hurts future self okay! This aspect in astrology has always brought wars and strife and because we will have some kind of Uranus connection here right quick, there is a violent note, tone. )) and they say astrology does not work..magnets work and two planets together bring forces..so I am looking at the mythology..what??:)


Refugees nowhere to go. Some of them are crazy like all humans.

Refugees..immigrants, aliens..
They are from everywhere..like they always were. Every mass migration has been made because of weather and food and safety. when you look at it from a large scale it is so clear. The Native Americans came over an ice bridge yearning for a warmer place. You get like that if only a little bit and you need sunshine so badly if for a season. try 40 thousand years in coldness.
By the way you america first folk, really? Your parents and your ancestors and further back suffered and died so you can have a big sign and support some organized thing.
I choose the humanists all the way.
They do not kill because it is smart not to.
We rely on education not fear and fairy tales and some made up story from flat earth thinkers,  of Jesus and how he  died for us. He did die. You are going to die..or the other guys..not just Jesus..do you really think there are spirits waiting to torture you? In my opinion though..I say no, I say it seems that way because your cells have a memory somehow..
 Maybe it is because your "being has done this for so long, having been made born lived somehow and died fast when a nearby star violently exploded over and over and final here you are and you think now this is the only way it can be and bammmm, you fuking melt once again it to the fire when our sun dilates a million times and burns everything and absorbs it once again..oh man..

I get worked up about it because it is so profound that the ingrained fear lingers so powerfully in all of us. It is something to which once recognized, changes you forever.

Humanists are willing to change their mind based on evidence now and not 2 to 4 thousand years ago when it was okay to think that herbs were witchery and men spoke to god directly and he said..blah blah bla..
Guess what, if he was so pissed about making us and the way we turned out and if he was so powerful to have made both good and evil, why wouldn't he make everyone disappear instead of drowning all humanity in spite..wtf? Lord?

I have to go..I would rant more :))

an ounce of sandalwood

It is a whole lot to spend on one oil but as I am in love with sandalwood and feel it has healing benefits to my heart and soul, I bought an ounce from white lotus. It is my go to many mornings before work. People love me more when I wear sandalwood. I do not know how they could love me more but they do. (joking)
I am actually trying to be more detached and yet I am also trying to engage in such a way that a conversation can happen.

I love a nice Indian Sandal..spicy, warm, inviting..
You know, you can dab it on and it will radiate as it wants to. It is so elegant. Not all of them are elegant. So far the Australians for me,  are not producing what I love in that wood. Depends!
 I smelled a nice Aussie sandalwood on a gal who wears rose a lot. It works on her. It is so personal isn't it? Aromatherapy is personal because you will study and wear oils you love and that can help you.
 I think all the mineral components and energy from all those mountains still growing and churning have something to do with potency and rarity in an oil. I choose Indian sandalwood all the way and then again, some hybrids like Hawaiian sandalwood have been stunning. They are all different. All of them.
This leads me to make a nice beard oil for my boys..so many lovely ones, with beards now.



For boys and girls

sandalwood
a little bit lemon verbena
iris
violet
ambergris

You have to infuse the ambergris crystals with the oil before you begin to work with it. I would say use og jojoba and make the commitment to make the potion. It is a commitment and that is where all your intentions come from. the actual pocket book and the philosophical one too.

for girls and boys

bergamot
orange
ambergris
sandalwood
tonka

Have a wonderful sunny day and may the sun shine brightly in your home..:) Happy February 2nd! Happy Imbolc! It is the real valentines day!

good morning :) coming out of a powerful new moon

We are changing right now. We are looking at new ways to do things. We have a nice life. We have enough money. Things? Yea?? We sure do. I am looking at all sorts of things I like and I do not have to leave my house and drive..which.. I have to drive today..to ann arbor and then work. We are out of paper and we need good ones..I am so excited. I can't order paper on line because I have to touch each one for the month of it short stay in my work shop.
I am very happy.
Before that I will be making more soap  to celebrate imbolg. I wish we could have a blue soap but that would have taken planning and more money. The blues are not cheap.That is why I offer the oil with all the blues in it. Yarrow, tansy and blue cham.mmm.. So stunning and so freshly prepared for you and me. It is art and it is gourmet..soap gourmet.ha ha
food and soap really..it fits. I am well aways of certain formulas in cooking and how the fat is a big part of humans health. Fats can help you live. Do not be afraid..luckily  my soaps are vegetable based..
soap though.  aromatherapy, notes..mmmm
It is a spell. It is. It is magic well thought out and planned for a final product which breathes a life of its own and even when composed remotely okay, it is  so beautiful and each inhale of scent is met with an experience. In some cases loud and in other cases even more profound. what is this place that can carry secret molecules through the air?
It was like that when I conjured that hops soap from my scorpio friend..I was driven to make with with spikenard and then I was high for three days on spikenard's potent drug like effects. I thought that I had made a mistake..it was so dirty fukin' dirty..and then..I sold every hunk and no body hated it it..it just needed its time to simmer down and be what it wants.
People who are okay with spikenard know what they want. I love this craft. I am so in to it for so many years that my hands know what is the right weight and the intent in them must show. It is all a circle even in us.

Today I am making more patchouli verbena soap and more THE OLD WHORE  with more oakmoss than ever before. I had a dream she likes it that way and she spoke to me as if it were sexual. She wants a little more labdanum too all of it really, she wants it and she will have the finest bergamot and  juicy orange on top..a little drop..she wants ambergris, she does, and if she had any real musk, just this once..:).well none here not even a drop. that is why jasmine and rose and  vetiver patchouli...
I want her to be happy. She has ideas and thoughts and wonderful learning and points of view that are well for lack..of a better word...discerning..

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I watched a show called "cucumber on Hulu..I have to say, it is very sexual..am I old?
**shock factor!!**
I can't wait for episode 7!
Russel T Davies, you broke my heart yet again!

January 29 anticipation and just days before the darkness is over and Imbolg

It is just days before Imbolg! That is a time when our sun our star goes enough over the horizon that we  get to see his rays and know now that they will only get more bright and more warm and more green grass grown and more flowers open like pink pussies screaming, "here I am am and thank you oh life giving forces! ha ha ha ha ha
(pussies)
For sure it is a hard to word to say. I rarely say it.
Calm down and put on some nice oil. I know you'll feel better. How vulgar it sounds and how vulgar "vulgar" sounds..

Imbolg

warm bed
comfort
sex
planning
seeds
planning
secrets
real and unreal
must be kind to self and extend that truth to others..must be honest to self and extend that truth to others..must not believe own lie..must not

I slept badly because I am so excited about things. I also wore a new amethyst pendant that had maybe something to do with it. I feel energized and hopeful for so many wondrous things.
It is also the new moon I think  my list is getting long.
A million dollars would buy all the vetivers and sandalwoods  I need and would would bottle them and give some away to all thirsty soulful babes! I would!
I bought some real verbena..not litsea which I do not know why but it smells like citronella just a little  too much for me. It is like whoa! Maybe just a drop next time, anastasia!

Verbenna is more I do not know, grassy but it is not grass. It is softer, earthier and a little greener rather that citronellol overload..
That is what I will make a room spray with..I am listing it maybe today. I love a nice room spray now and again because I am lazy and hate to keep refilling a defussor all the time. Such fads, yea? I love classic, basic, clean, and purposeful. Still though, these little machines seem to break up the molecules in such a way that you get to breath them in and they can radiate in you. I tried it for a month with a nice frankincense oil I got from ananda apothecary. I feel like I got better in my walking and my joint management. It is management because you have to be willing to change otherwise the doctors  will fill you full of drugs that are too good until the make your colon explode..truth!
How about you?
What has the new moon brought in to deep seed mode? What are you conjuring in your deepest heart for yourself?
What are you still refusing to see?
Look and change, you must change your mind, look for a new way to work or learn.
It is the only way!

perfect balance of vetiver and oakmoss and what happens next.

Work happens next. Work is money and things and a nice blanket at night.
Work is secret money stashed away. A secret job you had mentioned a year ago come real.
work is me and you working things out baby
work is us telling the truth
and being kind
it sounds a lot like love to me what do you think?

Vetiver is all about work. it is a grassy rooty and thick long frondy leafed beauty of the jungle. man has baked it, made paste with it and cultivated it way behind ginger and turmeric but in the same hot dry  to rainy climate. It is usually planted on hills to hold the rocks and dirt together so that they don't slide in the ocean with their food. It turned out the the thing they are using to support other things was just as valuable as the food..wow!
Vetiver has properties that demand attention to the mind. How shall  I say..
to me vetiver holds things together, so bones, skin, meat underneath. :)

Vetiver helps with muscle aches because it anti inflammatory properties. I will not go in to chemistry, Think how ginger might be soothing or turmeric..it is kind of like that.. Vetiver takes it a step further and brings a little more dirty good, we will say..dirty good.
I love vetiver alone, with oakmoss and with any citrus. I love vetiver and patchouli with oakmoss and rose and frankincense and opanax and labdanum and sandalwood..ambergris or musk? Oh must you?
I do not have any real musk.
thinking...

don't forget about what is best in life

You are and no one is..you are because inside you that voice is who you really are.

It is an amazing thing the conscious mind and the out side mind
Wouldn't it be nice if they were in unison? It happens, that is why some people get whatever they want just by willing it. No, not in an instant..everything takes time planning, working, thinking..

I hope your secret thoughts are healthy
good
practical
happy
radiant
helpful to others
helpful to loved ones
thoughtful
mindful
meditative
on point
patient
logical
inside your mind  on point...in other words don't lie to yourself, you are not in the "best" club, Earth is a little blue rock, there are so many more like us..we will never actually meet but we will be able to send our consciousness there..wow! That  is a long way away and hopefully the human race can get over these bullshit fantasies and accept everyone and we all work towards a better healthy green living planet and the Gaza strip is just one aspect of real estate, nothing more. who ever lives there lives there. Russia open, all war illegal..you want higher thoughts where we are actually loved by god. make war go away, make babies healthy always, make mothers free to have love and respect and get it through your head there are no virgin births. Fairy tales are no way to live life! It puts all women at number two, that is when the trouble starts. :)

There was prayer I read long ago from Yogananda, who I loved for years..Did he help me stop the bad that flooded like the blood torrent  going though the doors in The Shining?
No..it was his words that helped me cope. Truth!
I was like, "WTF God, I did all this and you give me hypocrisy and evil, wtf??"
It was not enough meditative breathing to suit him I suppose. People like to call it "karma"..
this one guy  who loves eastern philosophy loves to call it "karma"..
Look we are not tested by a divine force to see if we choose wisely..we are that force..we always were that force. actions equal outcomes..


We are made in stars..truth..stars take billions of years to make themselves and make rocks hold together in the vast dark void..we are made of calcium, silicon, sulfur and gold, all produced by stars only..the biggest ones make gold, they all make iron which is our blood..iron kills them as soon as they make it at the end of their lives..All of those things and here we are thinking intelligent beings radiating heat taken from our parent star. sigh..wow and why stay with stuck small concepts when there is that going on right now and always? I do not know..but Yognanda always said we are everything..
"we are everything, thou art everything" Or, "thou art everything, I am everything." Yes you are everything.
I should say, yogananda got me though a bunch of though times. They were tough because I did not understand or have enough courage to stand on my own thoughts until now and thoughts that are molded by me and not people who are looking over my shoulder making sure I use the right ones.
Too much trust in god and lazy mind...
Some one on line said I was a satanist because I said that Satan was a christian deity and for that I was a satanist and headed towards hell of all hell..
lol rawrrrrrrhhaaaa
Yea, give me more fairy tales that will always exceed any sort of logic!
I told her I am not and she is not in any sort of position to assign my leadership, be it spiritual or otherwise. I told her to accept that the Satan she hates and adores so much for me is not my problem. I almost laid in  but let it go at that now. How can she not see that her actual accusations are filled and oozing with hate?
People, always yelling like angry monkeys!
 I follow my mom, my dad, my boys, my awesome girls and my own heart in matters that must be faced with calm steel mind..iron..is god iron? No, but nucleic acid is likely involved and the brain and some sort of dark web and it is cold and ..oh man..
:)

what are we fighting for and Madonna does not represent me

This is the best time for us and we are still  yelling. I am not saying you should not go and make a point. I find that too many people trashing a city is something that must be noted. Also yelling and being pissed whilst jetting to and fro with your leather gloves and your southern wonderful chill life where you do not struggle each day to work for the food and the lights.
Yea, they are so mad and want to say, "here we are and we are mad."


Why though? Why are we mad? I feel like this is the best time for me as a woman. I am smart and capable so why would I  be too mad at the system?
I am not mad at the system which should be us but after thousands of years of kings and rulers we are always looking to have a savior who thinks like us..does he really? The better question, why are so fucking lazy as to even consider a leader? There always will be one. Some of us are in the back and there is plenty going on and many of us here...up front, there will always be lies and tretury..I am speaking metaphorically here.

Are we channeling hate instead of working for better good? Maybe a little because that is  what happens when we get pissed off long enough. When we get beaten for many years and finally break free to a place and time where beating on girls and women  is not fuking cool and you go to jail! hail to the jail that holds the woman beaters!
There was a time not long ago when we could not even wear pants because those powers that be said "NO"..why? Well you know, god, good, clean, fake, big house, shoes, heels, pop culture, pop corn,  gourmet pop corn..kale, moringa, jojoba, uggs, pizza, cheese, brie, tripple cream oozing delice', oh man...we have it fuking hard don't we Madonna?

There was this one time my shoes broke as I was headed to  catch the bus 6 miles away so I could make enough money for beans and  rice for the week. I was half way down and pop, done..it was rainy season and raining already. I showed up  wet disheveled and looking rather bleak, and my rich client in the gated community thought lower of me for the look. he said, "por dios, anastasia, que passo?" he asked why I didn't just buy a pair of 5 dollar sandals in town. I told him, I did not have time but it was really because I ran out of money days ago while my Buddhist( or what ever he was) ex meditated on the veranda. yea, pretending you are good is not fun when your shoes break I guess!
"oh..let's see, how will my kids eat for the next few days? God will provide, I will go meditate"
Me
"gr"
weeks later "grrr"
It adds up..the disdain for laziness, which I really seem to have..being lazy myself in so many ways.

There was a time we could not even talk to our mom about sex or boys or anything..today everything has changed and for the better. Sexuality has taken a strange turn..I am learning to be gracious and always say to my children..YOU'RE GOING TO FUKING HELL IF YOU HAVE SEX ANY OTHER WAY!!" LOL
Naw!
"Look,I don't care how you have sex, as long it is not down by the river with the  heroin, you study hard and make momma money so I can retire and make soap and stuff"

my health no regrets

No one cares about it..it is true:) lol my well being. They just assume I am good. I am.
Like they all think I am a machine and will live till 100 or some dumb crazy number. You never see a 100 year old being too active because by that time carrying around the meat suit gets heavy and you just can't do it.
I am fine by the way. yes, it has been interesting aging and well, I have to say, I am fine. my knees, my hip my boobs are fine, my foot, my heel my wonderful toes, my nose, still intense, my nose is. My heart, I feel the wave of any thing like a human. I am emotional when I see injustice.
I do not believe in salvation from anything..I do not believe in the power of god in a sense that he punishes, or gives bad karma. You should have no regrets. he should not either, he made us this way now he is bitching.:)
"oh god, here she goes!"
:)
A girl who seems to like Greek boys and found out I'm Greek, she kept lingering and we were about to close..she had 5 minutes of my time...and we almost got in to it but, as I am always super right and found a way to titillate her, we carried on for a minute..I engaged because she engaged and it went good.
"do you think Greek men are promiscuous?"
I smiled.."yes, there is a culture of high infidelity rates among some cultures..read the old testament to see why women are treated with such disrespect. Everything leads to the now and what we have become and what we are still becoming as womankind for reals.."
"I don't know what you are talking about, I am christian'"
"well then read the old testament and study why god is so pissed at women, so as to burn them, beat them and impose impossible standards which can never be met"

"thou shalt not suffer a witch to live"
I asked her, "who in their loving heart would say such a thing?"

"kill all the men and children but keep the young virgins for yourself"

If we would have still followed all the rules from the OCD men who just kept writing stuff and making more rules..well guess what?  (80% of people in jail are Christians..sorry that is true.)

"Okay then, we all should go back to that burning bush business and never rely on herbal medicine, pot, a good scotch, a tv show, that herbal soap you are holding right now, sex two times in a row and then the next day without performing rituals to cleanse yourself.. all those things would be blasphemy or witch craft and they are not.."
We all have our rituals..right?
Guess how many non religious people are in jail for bad crimes? 0.1 %




I am here to say
I have no regrets
over random mutant mistakes
or the way I comb my hair
over who I had sex with
and who I really had sex with
over the stupid purchases through the years and over my reaction when they turn my electric off
I cry of course
I cried when that guy who I really had sex with burned me so bad like any man god of his day would have
already in hate
already ready to strike at any mis thought
I escaped with my life

I have no regrets
I climbed that mountain over and over
and sang to the trees every day
I sing to the birds here now
I sing in my heart even at night when I sleep
I know because it rings in my ears in my half awake.
I am so happy to be me. I do not rage at my own heart like an imposed upon punishment.
I am free and it feels so good.
This is why I make things..it is a way for me to impose on my heart the best most wonderful thoughts with sooth me, teach me and help me to change my mind..and actually run from evil which in its subtle form can drain you so fast that you become a slave to the one thing that is holding you back. Do not be a slave to things. Use things not people..use things for your good, not people for gratification..
It is why I write in this blog.
The real magical arts, the real wonderful things that make us tick and guess what..logic wins over burning a woman..it was mostly women, burned alive by Christians..why are we over looking such important details?
Now we get to hate Muslims and there is no more black president in office..lol
You know what I say when there is racist talk..
"god made everything so you have to love everyone"

Right?



children's song sung with a strut..

"I am walking in a jungle, I am not afraid."

I made some soap

It is still soft but came out nice. The oats with shea and lavender is potent and will be lavender throughout till it is done!
Sometimes I get an oil that does not please me and I make a soap and I still don't, or can't get in to its vibe.
I bought litsea cubeba from two different vendors. the first one smells so much  like citronella that I can not get past it. I will likely put that soap away for a while and make a new batch.
Do I hate citronella?
No, I just do not want it on my skin is all.:)
Then again, that spikenard beer soap was so stinky that I was scared. It sold through every fat bar! I have one left! How do I do it?? Some people really liked it. Amazing how things can change. Change our mind and become something nice.
I also bought some organic lemon grass and plan to make soap with lemongrass. It will be lovely, I promise and have a little scrub to it!


I made some winter body cream and its vanilla notes haunt me.
 I made some perfume for a girl and her ideas flow in to mine as if we connect through dark matter. We do. Even at this moment as you read this, we are connected.

I am hunkering down some more on perfume and sprays. still waiting for some last minute oils and so it goes.
The raspberry dirty girl soap was such a hit, I may just make a new batch .
Red mandarin scent with some lavender, a sweet lavender, like Bulgarian.
That was such a nice recipe with honey, raspberry seeds, clay and Alaskan Copper River silt..
We should have more of that silt I say!
People are really something to me. They are asking for more and more scrubby soap.
Such a contrast from the people who want smooth! I like everything in soap..not citronella and not spikenard..okay a drop spikenard..one drop. in some other new thing in the way future.

I made some rustic birch tar soap. It always smells like wet ashes in the beginning and then transforms. I only made a few like 6 bars. I put the birch tar, the conditioning fats and some choya loban and some really good frankincense oil I had left over form the holidays batches. It is going to blow your mind and you will love its effects because like it or not, birch does something to your angry skin.

rustic birch tar soap

wrinkle creams and angelna jolie

She has a new skin care product that is currently totally sold out and just now in stock.
If you buy it you will look like those pictures on the computer. Before After. I look great always by the way and do not rely on 12 geese and coyote for my status coat this winter. it is 40* out there you do not need that much goose..lol
Looking good though..hmn...
I am sure she did not look that good after they removed both her breasts because she did not want to get cancer..I bet she looked rough. We all have. You know that.
I am sad for her beyond words and happy for her.
Now the collagen cream and all its benefits. The miracle cure, the temporary hyloronic acid and the reality that your skin will sag no matter what, that is all a lie..the miracle part is.
of course try other people's skin care, not just mine:)
I personally think it is all hype and the real you comes out. I do not know the real Angelina. I thought she was a peace worker and all that.
Where do you think collagen comes from? It is a dead animal if you must know and ranks out there with emu oil said to cure anything, make you strong and prevent cancer.
I tell you it is sad that people value things and are still, so unsatisfied. I think she cannot possibly be that smart then?
I just thought she seemed smart. I guess one needs money to cheat and to the masses like a dirty whore?
Anyhow the tabloids are all there just to make us yearn for unreal adventures. why do you think all the porn?
I am saying one thing here if anything, that we must learn to value real arts and real knowledge not what value our shoes or our  coat has. It has value but are you happy?
Are you really content?
For that stuff, I am good. For the more part, yes I will be content.
Am I content? Hmn...
I hope not.
I hope I always yearn always for more  for really good things.
I hope that I will always look out at the waves of light always traveling outwards and in in my, our reflection through our eyes. It is amazing!
I can't explain it. It is real and it is big and the way I know it is I can kind of understand real chemistry a little more now and I can kind of understand how elements come together to form everything.
Can a collagen molecule with as a bunch of hyaluronic acid in it pass though all five layers of skin and bond with enough peptide chains to actually form better collagen bonds  on the skin? Sure, sure!
(the answer is no)
Angelina, keep putting all that crap on your skin or the masses, you soak in some  dirty bath bomb from Lush and then worry about cancer! Are you crazy?
remember when we loved Lush. if a bath bomb turns your water purple and bright yellow, it is bad. bad..very bad.
 The only reason I stumbled upon the miracle cream it is that I was lured to read an article about their divorce. My bad..they got me.
It was nothing more that another skin care line to make money. Collagen creams! That is why they come in asking for it at the store so much.
Here we go then. We will sell thousands!
shea butter hyaluronic acid, collagen and I don't know what other things. I bet it is an alcohol serum like thing though..yuk
I like to read their ingredients.
It is few things batched in to a big liquid carrier and then whipped in to a cream in big vats at nice temps and then they add some poly hexa tetra hyleronic acid or alcohol..to make emulsions..there is steric acid, and too many other emulsifiers to list.
who cares!


Olive oil, it is a beautiful serum all on its own!


Did you try my rose cleanser with olive oil yet? It is so nice man!
I made a small batch and then put a little bees wax which has just the right amount of fatty acids to emulsify organic olive oil. It is so rosy and will remove all the make up. We should always have this.
I like it more on a dry face. I have used it with hot hot water as well.
Rose is so amazing. I think natural skin care is both perfect and the perfect way to pass nutrients in the skin without any chemical intrusions. Rose has many many benefits.

Soothing
heart warming
balancing
anti inflammatory

If you want collagen on your skin, go ahead. I know it will not do anything any other grease would do.

Eat right if you want nice skin. Too much restaurant food is a fuk of a way to nurish.
Eat real food made by your hand. If you do not know how to cook. learn to eat more simply.
Salad is cheap.
Everything is about your intentions, your skin shows it. Does it glow?

It is winter, it is likely needing a nice face treatment...now it is my turn to show you the whore's ways!
:):)
happy gelee skin care treatment

run away from fake amber and stop disgracing aromatherapy

I hope that you already know how bad those perfumes are for you. I hope you do. And Young Living, thank you for disgracing aromatherapy by feeding extra oils down people's gullet so that you can waste rare and beautiful things while making a loads of money and rapping the minds of housewives everywhere for when they finally leave your web of money grabbing whores,  they are left with no more learning than and child learning to read a school book.
Good things take time, learning about oils is a life time.

After a weekend of the masses buying and talking and asking  the old white guy who has to argue about the 24 ounces to 32 ounces of brands and their weights and measures and the girl with the boils and the man with acid and the lady who yelled at the desk about the peanuts (not kidding) and why  her son was not given cash, no receipt though so no cash..the boy goes out to the car and then she comes in..ha ha
big beautiful dark skinned momma with a big mouth and a bad attitude..dang man..they gave her the peanut money and made it good but she had to complain for 30 minutes about another store where she frequently returns everything after she east some of it ))) and wants only cash back..
Yea
It is all about money and she is all about fraud but who cares in the end. It is just peanuts which you should have eaten, so few they were! It is not the peanuts okay!
It is her need to be entitled and special over the peanuts and each time she brings them back!
You know what I would do if that happened the "one" time?
Yes, I would say, "no soap for you, now we are done. Buy that other stuff with the shiny soy bean oil"

You either love the food or you don't. If you don't, then do not waste everyone's time yelling how you want someone fired because of your peanuts. lol..funny stuff
By the way, It is not a race thing, It is fraud and entitlement mixed in with anger over having to pay a bill on that coat you're wearing or you just maybe always learned to yell at people trying to do their job and run a computer so they can weigh and measure your peanuts. It is just peanuts, right?
lol
Maybe if she was not so immersed in showing all her church friends how amazing she is with that coat, the heels, the black stockings, the good boy by her side..he was cute..church makes people mean, I say! On Sundays the people are all riled up between 1 and 4..after four they have had some wine or pot so it is better...
When you work in retail like this, there is a line as a worker that you cannot cross and it is always about satisfying the customer. I do not see the drama most days and always say why something is not available and no I cannot order it for you, just because you saw it one of articles you  were reading on line while looking at dresses or shoes or boots, I love boots. All day with the phone calls with the weirdest requests!
"do you have ayahuasca?
LOL
"yes, let me just get that for you from peru..ass!"


Now that I have almost shed the outside world..:)
I am so glad I do not have to ever do that with any of my customers. I mean, yes, people have had small issues, the worst being when I started etsy and made shipping mistakes, my bad, or 1% of all of my orders will get lost, broken and leak. It happens  in all business.  I always fix what can be fixed. I always send extras, and show that this is something made with care and art and where real magic of brain matter sparkling with nucleic acid to make strings of lit of electric fast traveling messages through the brain triggering future thoughts building new areas of recognition of the next thing..
That there is real aromatherapy..we should call it atom a therapy!

learning to rest

I t is hard because I am one of those people who is very much like one of those big giant logs and it is on a rope and  when you begin swinging it back and forth, it takes momentum and once that momentum is well set, it is very slow in slowing down again. Unless of course January and the season changing and how the cold forces us to rest and take reprieve away from talking and debates about daily life..
It  is normal life, you deal with it, you don't just cry all day about the fuks who torment themselves and then try to lie their way out of their own lies.
Do not control outcomes and learn to love yourself.
It is the only way I have learned to survive in the out there world.
Believe me, I work with the public and when you are dealing with the high turn over of a retail store, it means many people cross your path and some of them will suck!
they are not raised right. :)
There is one girl I hear about goes through a fifth of vodka every night..she will die or not..it is everyone around her I care about. The stress she causes to all the others who have to live with her and watch the sickness take over.

Or the lady who had cancer who only used prayer and any cheap vitamin to cure herself..I told her, it was not enough to pray and she did not want to talk to me any more. She died, yo!
I am not saying she did the worst thing. She id not want the hospital scene and chemo and all the drugs which almost if not totally kill you.
How about eating oils then, will that prevent cancer?
It might cause a reaction of some kind that you are not fully aware of. Plus the mucus membrane in your stomach can take only so much black pepper, cinnamon..and all the lemon oil you've consumed because Young Living has to make a lot of money disgracing aromatherapy in the meanwhile! I digress..my point was that in no time you have worn out your protective shield and then created a more acidic environment!
People are surprised when I say things. It does not always come from my intentions but somewhere deep in my mind buried there until it just had to come out like a light wave takes thousands of years to travel from the core of the sun to burst out of that fire ball and travel to us..
yea..
resting is nice, but not today..
work and thinking
maybe a nice song

everybody is talking about what is new

I am not ready and I do not want to rush but I have outlined some new ideas about sprays to come...

I am very fond of that mandarin oil at ananda apothecary (my tonie found that) and today I received a new sample from sunrose aromatics..(always a treat)
that neroli she has is something at sunrose..expensive and  worthy of you! I would always invest in a secret oil for myself now and then. Like white lotus and his Hawaiian sandalwood..nice, yo! Really nice.

Anyhow one can see where I am headed.. I think we need a frankincense neroli spray with mandarin or grapefruit or a little bergamot or everything in between..I love citrus in February.


The other thing is a patchouli with sage and cedarwood and then I think lime or some wonderful note on top!

Patchouli  and Maychang with its verbena notes and lemony herbal goodness. I love maychang, litsea cubebaba. It is a close to verbena I could get with  out breaking the bank.
I will put some beeswax absolute in it to kind of give you a taste of summer.

They are going to be so cute and affordable at..8.88 each! The one with neroli, maybe a bit more..13.00..it will be worth it!



If you will please note, that all the new sprays will not be the same as the others you you may have bought and treasured before.

Nothing stays the same..your own memories are changing right now. I am going to remember about my wonderful home, always somewhere I have loved. I love this house too, so much. It is cold in here all winter on those really cold mornings, it gets strangely frozen and the house can't get warm enough. We make it through with sweaters because it is safe and sound and I love it. I am thinking about a stove however, we are talking renovation galore and one never knows, it could happen. I would tile this whole place so that I could take a hot hose if I wanted to and scrub it down from top to bottom. :)
Even tile has its draw backs.
I would remember about how I loved my garden last year and how I loved each flower as it bloomed and then that makes me think of chamomile and blue tansy..mmmmm yarrow, and sweet lavender.